So depressed, but losing again. - ThinnerTimes

Jennimaria · 06-07-2006, 01:29 PM

Oh my god, I can't even begin to explain how depressed I am right now. I just finished my last and final day of college today and my job is ending tomorrow. My boss is moving the business to Kansas because he doesn't want to raise kids in Phoenix and I don't blame him. I couldn't move there because of our new house being built.

Anyway, the depression comes from feeling like I have absolutely no purpose in life now. My boyfriend Chris now has 2 jobs, one 8-5 and one from 6-10 (few nights a week). Our relationship right now has been reduced to meeting up for dinner once in a while, I hate it! Once we move it will change to dinner and sleeping together. To make matters worse, Chris got MY dream job. I'm so jealous of him that I don't even want to hear about the job.

Ughh, I have so many emotions going through me right now that I just want to burst. I'm definetly going to take my next week and a half before my portfolio review and chill out. It's just hard to chill since I've been going to school since I was 3 and have always pretty much had a job since 13 years old.

On a great note, I've lost about 7 pounds in the last month or so.

Sorry for the rant, I'm just a crazy person now.

Gladitsme · 06-07-2006, 01:49 PM

Jen, I remember that feeling when I graduated from college. It's weird to know you're moving into a new phase of life, but you're going to be fine. Sorry your boyfriend got your dream job, but maybe there's another dream job out there for you. Have fun chilling out, and give yourself some time to rest. And good job on the weight loss!!

Bypassingme619 · 06-07-2006, 01:53 PM

Jen we all come to a point in our lives where we ask our selves what is our meaning. You seem like a great and strong woman. Feed off of that. Don't soak in this moment because it isn't permanent. Have you sat down and told your fiance about some of your feelings. Don't keep them all bottle in, you will be surprised how far sharing your feelings with your man will go. Jen I think this time off will do you some good, remeber when that one door closes another one opens. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Jennimaria · 06-07-2006, 02:22 PM

Thanks for the insight guys

You are all always so motivating. I have talked to Chris about how I feel, but there is nothing we can do about anything right now. He needs the 2 jobs to pay off past bills and he is so excited about his "real" job. He deserved it, but I'm still a bit jealous. I'll just try to stay positive when he brags about what he is doing at work.

I think I really do need to take this time off to find out who I am. I know I am capable of finding a great job, it just takes time and I'm just impatient sometimes.

I should really take a step back and realize that my problems aren't even a big deal. One of my close friends just got word from a doctor that he has HIV after only having sex one time in his life. He is much worse off than me now

bamagirl · 06-07-2006, 02:51 PM

It is always hard going through major changes, and an entire chapter of your life just closed when you finished school. Losing your job didn't help any either! But it sounds to me like you are handling it very well! You've identified what is making you feel bad, you've made a decision to have some "me" time for the next couple of weeks, and you're going to be in a brand new house soon! It might be hard going through this transitional period right now, but you've got a really good head on your shoulders and MANY great things are headed your way! You are awesome!

lealphachienne · 06-07-2006, 03:14 PM

Please don't minimize your own pain by comparing yourself to others. Accept that you have the right to feel how you feel at the moment and learn to face your fears. You are going through major changes too. It doesn't particularly matter what the causes the are...you learn to adapt to what you have in the here and now. Taking some time off to discover yourself is a great idea. Some people call it taking a sabbatical. The depression is a common result of the emotional, spiritual, and physical going ons in your life. It doestake time, it may seem like forever, but it does end. If today sucks, tomorrow is a different day. You will have many ups and downs...that's just a part of life o begin with. Having surgey is much more than just about losing weight. It's about transfoming yourself into a healthier, more positive person that is confident and able to face life, no matter the challenges.

HeatherT · 06-10-2006, 09:44 AM

jen - why didnt you call me? you forget that i am here for you!

call me anytime!

Mavisavis · 06-10-2006, 09:59 AM

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Originally Posted by lealphachienne

Please don't minimize your own pain by comparing yourself to others. Accept that you have the right to feel how you feel at the moment and learn to face your fears. You are going through major changes too. It doesn't particularly matter what the causes the are...you learn to adapt to what you have in the here and now. Taking some time off to discover yourself is a great idea. Some people call it taking a sabbatical. The depression is a common result of the emotional, spiritual, and physical going ons in your life. It doestake time, it may seem like forever, but it does end. If today sucks, tomorrow is a different day. You will have many ups and downs...that's just a part of life o begin with. Having surgey is much more than just about losing weight. It's about transfoming yourself into a healthier, more positive person that is confident and able to face life, no matter the challenges.

Thanks for the reminder Marie. I have done so well for this past 9 months, all things considered, but lately I seem to be heading towards an emotional wreck. I know some is me and some are actually bad circumstances, but I just feel so alone and crappy right now. I know I need to wallow a few minutes, then put my brain to use, then forge ahead. I'm so greatful that you guys understand when noone else does. Even my real life wls buddy has flaked out on me.....ugh. We've been good friends for 8 years. Shoot, I know I need to get to counseling, I think some of it is old issues resurfacing. Well, I guess I can be thankful I have some awareness and a great support.......and that I am healthier and smaller while I deal with life's inevitable challenges.