Hit The Wall - ThinnerTimes

willbowski · 04-04-2006, 01:05 AM

I have hit that old wall, I was doing so good I was on my way to breaking the 300 club and joining the 200 club! But today I jumped on the scale not only did I not move but I gained 2 lbs!

Last week was a bad week for me, I only made it to the gym 2 times and I did my cardo but I did not feel like running.

Also last week played heavy on my emotions, Yes ladies we men go through it to. It was the week of why did I do this, I can not eat food, anything I eat makes me sick, and the big one was that it finaly hit me I no longer eat to enjoy eating, I eat and barely eat just to make sure I stay healthy ( last week if I gut in one solid meal I was lucky).

I know its all in my head but I had a hell of a time fighting with myself to keep my head together I just kept saying I have done good so far, i will up my cardo run more work out harder, then the worst thing in the world happens... THE MIRROR, man o man thats when it hit the fan.

I am hoping this is just a phase, I am starting to come out of it slowly I guess I need to vent, I have not been to any support meetings since I had the WLS and there is one today but I am not sure about going.

Well thanks for listening I guess its time to put my uniform on and get to work gotta do a patrol and submit my weekly report.

thanks,

DEE145 · 04-04-2006, 08:05 AM

First let me say Hi Brooklyn, this Bronx (born and raised in Kingston NY)

. Don't feel to down on yourself. I have been there. If you have had WLS, you have experienced all the lows and the highs. I have gone through the crying asking myself why I did this to my body, what was I thinking, was/am I crazy. Yes these are very real emotions and very, very normal. It would help to go to a local support group (something I did not take advantage of), but did reach out to my surgery partner and of course this site helped me tremendously.

Even at 6 months out while it has gotten a whole lot better, I still experience moments when I can't seem to tolerate solids, and if I do, I'm getting sick this for me is a very discouraging and depressing feeling, but it does pass. It also helps to know you are not alone, many have and will go through far worse (unfortunately). Remember for every positive there is an opposite and negative reaction, so as with the WLS, while it a blessing there are definite side effects that you will have to live with. You do learn how to cope w/it.

Don't give up keep your head up, okay so you miss your normal work out, but hey it's a new day, step your game back up and GUARANTEE, you will experience more positive moments.

Dee//

Mz_Desz · 04-04-2006, 08:50 AM

Dee has said it all....Just gonna add that with all things there are ups & downs. Just try to continue to see the positive in things even when the negatives try to cloud your mind. We all chose this WLS so we could live a more healthier life. No matter what...you are indeed better off in your "todays" then in your "yesterdays".

Stay strong and please go to the meeting. You need to be surrounded by people that know what you are going through and can relate.

coptergirl · 04-04-2006, 10:08 AM

Hi Will - I am sorry you are going through this right now. Dee and Desz have said all I wanted to. I would encourage you to go to your support group, and log in here. I thought of you the other day as I hadn't seen any recent posts from you - please don't be a stranger. We all need each other

Gladitsme · 04-04-2006, 11:38 AM

Will, you're going through a normal, natural reaction. I have been going through it for a while. It will get better though. You've lost almost 90 lbs guy, you're doing great!

willbowski · 04-04-2006, 12:07 PM

I really needed that, I am just getting home from work NOW at 2 pm I might have to wait till next month to go to the meeting, but like this morning I had such a pain in my stomach I felt like I would pass out driving home, I tried to eat some ground turkey meat balls (3) because I left my shake home, I said I need the protien and its a good source well sure enough it did not agree with me!

i ate it before and no problem, today problem! its things like that, that are killing me inside my head, it finally went away after about almost 2 hours but its like you guys said good with the bad. I am going to take that to heart, Thursday I have a training session with a friend of mine thats a body builder, lets see how that goes.

But I just want to say to all of you Dee, Desz, coptergirl, Loser2be and everyone else THANKS I dont know how lost I would be without you guys.

Dee I am coming to VA beach in June, keep the grill warm LOL.

MiladyB · 04-04-2006, 12:21 PM

Will, if you are having an increased amount of problems with solids you may want to call your doctor. There is always the possibility you are develping a stricture. A stricture usually starts out with not being able to tolerate solids and then progresses on to even liquids. If that is what is going on you want to catch it as early as possible before you end up getting really dehyrated.

I really can relate to what you are feeling right now. I hit that same wall last week. I was just having a terrible time eating. When I ate I was either nauseated or my stomach hurt so bad! I ended up taking people's advice, from here. I rested my stomach for a couple days and only took things like yogurt, cottage cheese & soup. I'm still struggling with my breakfast but lunch has gotten a bit better and supper is usually really great.

I also was struggling with my exercise last week. I even spent half of a day in bed. I felt really guilty but you know what? I think my body was telling me it needed a break, because my food problems started turning around a bit the next day.

Be kind to yourself. You are still learning. Don't expect perfection of yourself. Get the support you need and put one foot in front of the other. Tomorrow is a new day.

Alleusion · 04-04-2006, 02:11 PM

I'm on the wall there with ya Will. What's with the losing then gaining a few (like 2) pounds then going back down? I know with women it's that whole water retention time of the month thing. But even with knowing the reason, it's still so frustrating.

amazonbeauty · 04-04-2006, 05:29 PM

Don't forget that when we don't eat or get enough to eat, our bodies think we're being starved and it will hold onto every little bit it can and you get stuck. Its hard, but you have to figure out how to get your food in, especially protein. Your body will adjust to the idea that you aren't starving it and you'll start loosing again. Go back to the basics, find what you can keep down and go with that. It'll probably be boring, but it's important to eat. Start back as if you are recently post-op and eat the soft bland stuff. Broth, whatever you have to to get in some calories. Your body will hoard everything until it knows otherwise.

sally · 04-04-2006, 06:24 PM

im about 2 weeks out and iv been on the wall since the surgury.

! Everyone aroung me is eating foods i now can only imagine ever eating again. i find my self for no apparent reason tearing up and crying because i cant figure out why i did this to myself. but in the end it is for the best. so i wait and deal

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