When does it seem 'real'? - ThinnerTimes

Witchypoo · 02-09-2006, 04:30 PM

Well my surgery is done- RNY on 2/7 and I'm a whopping 3 days post op. And for some silly reason it just doesn't seem like I really did it. Sure, I've got what look like knife marks on my belly, I have horrible gas pain, and I'm suffering to get fluids in (It's 7:30 pm and I've only gotten 44oz in) - but it still doesn't really seem 'real'.

My mind says "go ahead you can eat" but my body is SO rebelling (and I know I can't eat anything- I'm on phase 1 clear liquids). My point is that it was such a sureal experience- I went to the hospital, took a nap, and woke up feeling like shit. You think that would be enough to convince me that I actually had the surgery wouldn't it?

I read everyone's posts about eating 'real' food and I'm so anxious to just have a bloody piece of cheese or pudding (sugar free of course). And I know that I most likely will advance to that at the end of next week. But it seems like forever!

Bypassingme619 · 02-09-2006, 04:39 PM

This is a rough part of the journey. The wanting to just eat something. Do you have a scale? Once you see the weight the coming off, food will not be that big of a deal once you see your tool in action. Hang in there. One day at a time. Nice avatar.

Mavisavis · 02-09-2006, 05:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Witchypoo

Well my surgery is done- RNY on 2/7 and I'm a whopping 3 days post op. And for some silly reason it just doesn't seem like I really did it. Sure, I've got what look like knife marks on my belly, I have horrible gas pain, and I'm suffering to get fluids in (It's 7:30 pm and I've only gotten 44oz in) - but it still doesn't really seem 'real'.

My mind says "go ahead you can eat" but my body is SO rebelling (and I know I can't eat anything- I'm on phase 1 clear liquids). My point is that it was such a sureal experience- I went to the hospital, took a nap, and woke up feeling like shit. You think that would be enough to convince me that I actually had the surgery wouldn't it?

I read everyone's posts about eating 'real' food and I'm so anxious to just have a bloody piece of cheese or pudding (sugar free of course). And I know that I most likely will advance to that at the end of next week. But it seems like forever!

I totally get what you mean......it's like your whole world stops and revolves around this thing you can't see. It was very surreal. I think it fades away over time, but I never really thought of it consciously along the way. It sounds like your doc is a little stricter than mine. I was allowed any liquid the first 10 days.....that helped because pudding, strained cream soups, and yogurt (low sugar, no fruit pieces) feel more like food. Hang in there.....maybe talk to your pouch and get to know it........we actually had a thread on naming them! LOL

suzanne · 02-09-2006, 06:20 PM

I am nine months out and still struggle with it feeling real. I know I look different and feel better but I don't always see it, not even when I look at myself in the mirror. I had a friend see me today that hadn't seen me since before my surgery. She went crazy and said she wouldn't even know me in the streets. I don't think I look that different. It is so strange to me. I did decide to start seeing a therapist to help me see myself as I really am, and not a fat person. I have been heavy all my life and I think that is how I always identified myself. So to answer you question, it could be awhile before you come to terms with it, but you will, and the weight lose is great!!! Good luck!!!!!!!!!!

Dyann · 02-09-2006, 06:58 PM

It will seem real when the scale is going down. It will seem easier when you can eat real food. Put those two together and it is REAL GOOD!!!

coptergirl · 02-09-2006, 07:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Witchypoo

My point is that it was such a sureal experience- I went to the hospital, took a nap, and woke up feeling like shit. You think that would be enough to convince me that I actually had the surgery wouldn't it?

rotflmao!!!!!!! Too funny

lealphachienne · 02-10-2006, 08:23 PM

I'm still in a daze about it all......

Midntsgirl · 02-10-2006, 10:05 PM

We eat because we're bored. At least that's the way it was with me. Whenever you feel the old "head hunger" kick in...go for a walk, read a book, etc. When you realize the difference between "head hunger" and real hunger, your brain will no longer be in control of your eating habits. Good luck!!

Jared · 02-12-2006, 07:34 PM

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Originally Posted by suzanne

I don't think I look that different.

I guarantee that with a 150 lb weight loss you look different.

I have been pleased with how different I look, but I had a real shock the other day because I bought some fairly tight-fitting workout pants and a size XL tee shirt. I could not believe how skinny I looked in that outfit. It was a great moment. My wife was shocked by how I looked in it too.