I just got back from my second visit to the hospital (3 days this time). They dilated me again. I don't remember how small the stricture was, but I do remember the GI doctor saying my stricture was the smallest he'd ever seen. He also said it was unusual that it had closed up so quickly after the first dilation (1st dilation Friday, symptoms returned Saturday morning). He says there was a lot of scar tissue and suture material in the way and that I'll need another dilation next week (oh joy). He also warned me that if this doesn't take care of it then it'll be time to consider surgery, as in reversal. I told him I would not be against that idea.
I threw up blood a couple of times after the second dilation, which the doctor figured was from the tearing during dilation. But I also threw up foam again when I got home a few hours ago after retching all afternoon. All I can say to myself is "Good lord, not again!!!" What little patience I once had is gone. I'm completely frazzled. My boss wants me to come back to work Monday (not likely, especially since my next dilation is Monday), I'm getting further and further behind in my classes, and my counseling practicum has gone straight to hell (not enough hours so far). I heave, belch and barf all the time and I'm as week as a kitten with absolutely no energy. Everyone in my family is being so good to me but I still feel like a big drag on all of them. I'm considering telling my boss I can't come back to work this semester, but I'll risk being canned. I can take incompletes for this semester, but that'll add another year onto my graduation. I might not have much of a choice, though.
Tomorrow's my 27th birthday. I'm just happy to be at home. Sorry if I've upset anyone, I'm just losing my mind over here.
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8/29/05 Lap RNY
5'3"
285/ 151/135
pre-op/current/goal
134 lbs. gone!
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