Feeling Sick, regretful, depressed - ThinnerTimes

Pokey757 · 09-15-2005, 10:00 AM

I am having a rough day today. I have not felt well (naseau) since last night. I guess i am going thru the regretful stage. Cuz right now i so wish i never did this. I am sick of eating refried beans. I just want to eat "regular food" I have actually put on weight, the last couple of days. I just feel so depressed today, well this week. I want to go home to my bed and jus crawl in and never come out. But i am stuck here at work, on the verge of crying. I hate this. I still have the ringing in my ear, that i have had since day 4 Post Op, I called my PCP last Thursday, and still have not heard from his stupid nurse. I have to sit and watch my hubby and kid eat anything they want, and not even think twice about how it is affecting me. Nor do they gain 1 single pound doing so.
I am sorry to be such a downer, and moaner........jus needed to vent!

bridgetgirl · 09-15-2005, 10:07 AM

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth
would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in
storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained,
or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much
less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his
youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day
because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while
watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't
show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every
moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only
chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go
get washed up for dinner." There would have been more "I love you's." More
"I'm sorry's."
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at
it and really see it . live it and never give it back. Stop sweating the
small stuff.
Don't worry about who doesn't like! you, who has more, or who's doing what.
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each
day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally. I hope you all
have a blessed day.

bridgetgirl · 09-15-2005, 10:08 AM

If you feel like going home and crawling under the blankets than JUST DO IT! Like erma stated,the world will not stop spinning if you miss work!

Gladitsme · 09-15-2005, 10:09 AM

Danette,

I hear you. I went home from work sick yesterday. You will get to the point of eating "regular food" before you know it. As for putting on weight, is your cycle coming on? That happened to me recently. And your husband deserves at least one smack for insensitivity! I hope your PCP nurse calls soon. Hang in there, we're here for you.

Pokey757 · 09-15-2005, 10:20 AM

No I jus had my cycle, not too long ago.

bridgetgirl · 09-15-2005, 10:28 AM

Go home Danette... take a Danette day. I know you did it with surgery... hell ya need another day. You deserve it!

CiCi · 09-15-2005, 10:35 AM

Oh Danette... reading your words was like reading my own thoughts that first month post-op! I went through stages when I didn't know why I had the surgery and I missed food SOOOOO much. I really thought those feelings would never go away. Plain ol' water made me sick to my tummy!

All of these wonderful people on here (plus my family & friends at home) got me through it. You WILL make it... it's not easy, but you will get over the issues. You'll get better about not missing the food so much, especially when it becomes easier to eat "regular" food. Don't get me wrong, I still sometimes miss certain things and even have a little craving here or there, but overall, it doesn't kill me like it used to. I'm sure it will get better for you.

Maybe ask your hubby to handle the meals for a while and you take your walks at that time? When you can, start eating little bits of food and savor them (although they won't taste the same as they once did). It takes TIME to get through this, and that totally sucks!

Hang in there! You WILL make it!

Pokey757 · 09-15-2005, 10:39 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bridgetgirl

Go home Danette... take a Danette day. I know you did it with surgery... hell ya need another day. You deserve it!

Oh, i wish i could, but i just cant afford it. I used up all my vacation time to have this surgery, even took a week unpaid. (i saved up for that) I gotta take some time off later this month for followup appts n such. I wish I could!

Gladitsme · 09-15-2005, 10:46 AM

Danette,

I took the full 6 weeks off after surgery, and I was so glad because I went through some major hormonal days that were horrible. Losing weight releases estrogen, and I had a ton of it to release apparently. Just pretend you're having PMS again, and act accordingly!

anthrgdgrl · 09-15-2005, 11:02 AM

Danette,

I am sorry you are having a cruddy day. I wake up every day and wonder if I did the right thing in regards to the surgery. But every day I am able to say "yes". If anything we have given ourselves at least 8 more years with our wonderful children and husbands (even though they can eat whatever they want! Little stinkers). You will get through this and they weight will fall off soon. I can relate to your weight gain because I too have been gaining and losing the same pound all week long! It is dis-heartening to watch that but it must be happening for a reason. Everyone has told us that our bodies are still healing and maybe they are storing some extra calories to get healthy enough to burn the rest. Take care of yourself and take some cat naps at work. I am sure they won't mind if you drool on your desk for ten minutes.

we can handle this...