My first trip to the Mall........pass the food court! - Page 3 - ThinnerTimes

SaturdazeChyld · 08-25-2005, 07:56 PM

OMG NYNMD I feel the exact same thing as you do. I miss eating something terrible! I almost turned around the day of the surgery and backed out. If not for my sister's strength I would have too.

I just try to keep remembering that now I am learning to Eat to LIVE .. instead of LIVING to eat.

Another thing I keep telling myself is that yes I may be depressed now over my lost friend, food. But it is that same friend I would be depressed over after having consumed massive quantities of her. The guilt & depression of overeating .. oY!

One more thing too, I overate to squelch my feelings of depression & lonliness. Acccccckkkkkkk .. it's a vicious cycle.

So take some deep breaths when your depressed, go for a walk before it gets cold outside! LoL .. call a friend or family member to distract yourself, pick up book ..

I having been reading this forum and other stuff on the net to keep busy too. I am almost two weeks out and I'm gonna be home probably another 6 before I go back to work!

Take care of you hun and Hugsssss from me too

~Faith

HapBird · 08-26-2005, 12:15 AM

For the first few weeks, I felt regret at not being able to eat a huge plate of food piled high. Such a plate had been my "friend" for so long, it just didn't feel right eating without it. I ate out of a half-cup bowl for the first several weeks, then graduated to a 6-inch bread plate, which I still use nearly a year out.

Little by little, though, as the weight dropped off, and as I began dealing with my ISSUES - the secrets and lies lurking behind my food addiction - I began to look forward to my tiny dinner plate - because it means freedom from the oppression of food.

Now, my little plate looks just as appetizing and full as my huge plate used to look. I enjoy it, but food is in much better perspective for me now.

Give yourself time, Kimmy. You're gonna be fine!

NYNMD · 08-26-2005, 05:36 AM

I can't wait to get to the point where I just eat to live. I am getting closer to that reality. I don't have much of a choice right now. Time will heal me, I'm sure of that. I'm losing weight, my blood pressure is better already, and my ankle and knee pain is gone. I've lost 32 lbs so far in 3 1/2 weeks and I'm happy about that. Well, maybe not happy but satisfied. Not eating what my family eats is my biggest lost and that is the only thing I've been paying attention to lately. I haven't much thougt about my weight.

Hopefully my focus will change soon. Thanks for the advice. You guys are great. I'll let you know when I finally turn the corner.

veroniquetalk · 08-26-2005, 08:06 AM

I am so surprised by an unexpected result of this surgery. It has freed me up from my obsession with food so that I have room and time in my mind to think about other things. In the past 80% of my thoughts used to be focused around food: what should I eat, what should I not eat; how can I keep from eating; how can I make it past the fast food places on the way home from work, and on and on. Now this tool has given me what I need to control my eating and I have time and energy to focus on those emotions I kept buried with food. It's hard at times to feel those emotions, its a new thing but it is helping me to get well - physically and emotionally.

DFoster · 08-27-2005, 06:09 PM

Girl, I feel you. I'm 6 months out and I really missed eating mass quantities of food. I've only gotten better in the pat 2 months or so. You go through that whole process: Anger, denial, bargaining, acceptance. There will come a time when you just accept that you can't eat like that anymore and you'll be at peace. I was downright surly with anger. I have to go out to business meals quit often and I used to take home doggy bags, just to have to throw it all out. I've tried sharing meals, but it's a hassle for two people to decide what to share. Now I order what I want to and should eat, eat what I know to be a correct portion and let the waitstaff toss the rest. I swear, it'll be okay sooner than you think.

sUzYzPLaCe · 08-27-2005, 06:37 PM

I too am surprised by the obsession to eat and control my food has been lifted since I had surgery. I also spent every waking hour of the day wondering what to eat, not to eat, and omg I am gaining weight. Thank god I don't have to do that anymore. I don't miss the large amounts of food I ate in the past. I have accepted that I can't eat like that anymore, afterall it was my decision to force that with the surgery. Thank god this was available to me and I can finally once and for all live a healthy halfway normal life without a food addiction. Suzy

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Originally Posted by veroniquetalk

I am so surprised by an unexpected result of this surgery. It has freed me up from my obsession with food so that I have room and time in my mind to think about other things. In the past 80% of my thoughts used to be focused around food: what should I eat, what should I not eat; how can I keep from eating; how can I make it past the fast food places on the way home from work, and on and on. Now this tool has given me what I need to control my eating and I have time and energy to focus on those emotions I kept buried with food. It's hard at times to feel those emotions, its a new thing but it is helping me to get well - physically and emotionally.

holly1885 · 08-28-2005, 01:13 AM

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Originally Posted by sUzYzPLaCe

I too am surprised by the obsession to eat and control my food has been lifted since I had surgery. I also spent every waking hour of the day wondering what to eat, not to eat, and omg I am gaining weight. Thank god I don't have to do that anymore. I don't miss the large amounts of food I ate in the past. I have accepted that I can't eat like that anymore, afterall it was my decision to force that with the surgery. Thank god this was available to me and I can finally once and for all live a healthy halfway normal life without a food addiction. Suzy

Yeah Im the same way... Im discovering new things I like to do and having way more time for other stuff. I sometimes even FORGET to eat! Which is totally BIZARRE for me!! Im totally enjoying the freedom from food and discovering a whole new life!

veroniquetalk · 08-28-2005, 08:05 AM

I find the freedom from the obsessing about food almost better than the weight loss!!