bridgetgirl

Hey sugar pea. I fight battles with my psychie all the time. Luckily I have meet a couple folks from this site who I talk to everyday, who help me through the stuff. Sometimes just being able to talk to someone about who cares, really helps.
I was talking with one of them this weekend about how exciting it is to lose the weight, but how frustrating it is to look different, also have people checking you out all the time. I dont like being the center of attention, never have perhaps that's why I got fat in the first place.. who knows. But as I have lost weight I do notice I am getting "noticed" more in public and it makes me a little uncomfortable... weird huh? You would think guys checking me out would make me feel sexy and good... ummm no. Not right now... not for me. It's still all weird. Also, we lose weight so fast the body doesnt catch up as quick... so now I am even more insecure about being seen naked. naked relish the thought..... anyways I guess what I am trying to say is, there are alot of emotions we go through. One cool thing about being apart of this group is you dont have to be in denial about anything because somewhere there is someone just like you... struggling just as you are. Because I have this group, I dont feel ashamed. Because I have friends here I dont feel alone. I dont know if what I am going through is depression, but I feel like I do need therapy, I do have really mixed emotions about everything.
I hope all this made sense to you, and I didnt ramble too much. Answering your question was kind of therapuetic for me
Keep smiling... see ya on the other side.

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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10

www.myspace.com/caliclovercutie
What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug

"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White

Americanwoman397

See look at that girl by answering my question you helped yourself....HaHa I'm glad we can work together to get through this. I think the closer the day gets the more I'm going to get scared. I'm really happy to know you are here to help. Its great having a group of people like that.

You should hang around me I'll get you over the problem with being center of attention. I've been fat since I was a kid so I've always been the joker. I can make anyone laugh and I love people to look so I'll make them look.....HAHA I'm silly.

I'll see you on the other side soon enough

Oh one quick question. My mom is getting remarried at the end of the year. She is looking at an Oct wedding. Do you think I'll be ok by then to help her? I don't want to leave my mom hanging with everything to be done because dad is a typical groom who says whatever you want honey....HAHA

XOXO

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Tonya
Dr. Potts
7/16/2004 Lap
320/164
48.66/25.68 BMI

bridgetgirl

You Should Be Fine By October, I Wouldn't Worry..... Hey I'm A Joker.. I Thought That Was Our Right As Fat People To Be Hysterical... :d

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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10

www.myspace.com/caliclovercutie
What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug

"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White