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UuUuLaLa · 04-27-2008, 01:40 AM

Hiya all my Thinner friends here I am at 8 weeks out and feeling bummed.. I just recently went back to work two weeks ago.. and everyday that im there I feel horrible first let me start from the beginning I was out of work for 4 months do to insurance expiring on me and I had to get off work in order for it to extend another whole year.. I had went thru all the procedures before surgery exams after exams and was hoping to get my date right before it expired and it would automatically renew but it did not happened that way Doctors office took longer to process my paperwork Nov 18 I had waxed my eyebrows and had a facial at the same time big mistake! I woke up the next day looking like a monster somehow it irritated my skin at the same time I got this letter saying the news about my insurance expiring DEC 1 and becoming a share of cost of 753.00 dlls a month and I a single parent of 3 could've not afford that so I cried and cried about the whole deal I had went thru so much to just not have this surgery done.. I called my insurance worker and she explained that there was nothing she can do unless I would get a date or go on disability I had mentioned my face looking like a monster do to that wonderful facial.. and she said OMG you must go see your primary doctor maybe she can put you on disability and in this time you can get a surgery date and everything would be fine no worries... I did that I went to see my primary doctor and yes I was put out on disability stress leave from work so my insurance extended and my process for surgery continued.. now the holidays got in my way I ate like a pig did not loose no weight I gained instead of loosing before surgery but at the time I had no hope I thought I would never get a damn date! so finally to my surprise after doing final exams insurance gives me a date!! feb11 like some of you might remember.. and once again more time to wait I was turned away from that surgery table I was ready to go IV in my arm and the whole deal.. when I was rescheduled do to congestion so I got March 3 and went thru with that one and here I am 8 weeks out and back to work.. I have lost about 34 lbs yeah I walk back to work looking the same as fat as I was when I left supposedly to get WLS I have never felt so horrible in my life.. everyone's jaw dropped at work when i walk in ...and comments when I walk by they might not be saying nothing but I think it and feel bad no one knows my issues all they know is I was out getting this magic spectacular surgery to loose weight and I come back four months later looking the same I guess everyone was expecting me to look skinny after 4 months and I look the same in order to notice any weight loss I have to loose hundreds!! its so frustrating I still fit perfectly in my same size clothes so it bummed me out and im sure im going thru the depression stage as well and it don't help I honestly don't care what anyone thinks of my appearance as long as I know what I have been thru this is one of my hardest biggest sacrifices's in my life and I know everyday will get better for me im just going thru a hard time at work that's all I work around 8 other skinny females and every single one of them are something special.. I just want to bite their heads off! anyways thanks for reading my drama i felt i had to vent and let some of it out i feel like they think im a liar and did not get anything done but again i dont have to prove myself to them right?? ill end it here hugs to you all!

kit60 · 04-27-2008, 02:05 AM

You're very strong. You have been through a lot to get this done. I had some of the same feelings after surgery. I got very depressed and ended up going on much stronger anti-depressants. Ignore those people, they just sound rude. Take care of yourself. {{{hugs}}}

Karen

SDeRossett · 04-27-2008, 02:54 AM

Mina:

33 lbs. in 8 weeks. You're doing great! Remember the weight didn't come on over night and it dosen't come off in a day either. As far as the gals at work go, like previously said, ignore them and the little comments. Remember you did this for you, so you could get healty and live a longer healthier life, and to be able to be a part of your 3 children's lives. Try to concentrate on the positive things going on in your life right now. Remember that the first part of this journey is an emotional roller coaster but it will get better. <<HUGS>>

Sharon

pummychal · 04-27-2008, 08:28 AM

I know what you mean about people at work. I have people looking at me too. But I don't care. They don't know. The ones that look at me like that have always been skinny and don't understand. Don't give them a thought. Eventually the weight loss will show and we will be able to show them. Not that we need to. We did it for ourselves!!

Daphne's Mom · 04-27-2008, 08:46 AM

It's ok to grieve. This surgery changes lives dramatically, and it can be really uncomfortable for a while, and one of our major ways of coping with stress--eating and eating and eating until we're numb--simply isn't possible any more. I hope your days get easier and that you feel better in your own skin as time goes on. I hope you know how beautiful you really are--
Best,
Anita

chiquita · 04-27-2008, 02:35 PM

Hey girl
Hang in there, this too shall pass, you will loose the weight (you already are

) you will feel better and you will have so much more energy you will have to tie yourself to a chair to control it hehe.

You are a very beutifull lady, and you alone know what you have gone through to get this far. It is your journey, and even the skinny ones have their own weaknesses and shames to hide, so don't worry about them, you did this for you and your loved ones, not them.

You will start showing soon, your clothes will get too big and you will need to move to the next size down, oh and it feels so glorious

Vent all you need, think just about all of us have done so and it helps

crushangel · 04-29-2008, 01:32 AM

I Just Want To Tell You To Keep Your Head Up..it Gets Better...i Would Cry Like It Was The End Of The World And I Was The Last One Left..lol..i Had My Surgery Jan 25, And I Cannot Tell That I Have Lost Weight. I Still Wear The Same Clothes, And That Even Goes For My Undies..lol...but I Have Lost About 75 Pounds, And I Cant See It!!..lol..every "body" Is Different..i Want You To Hold On Because In About Two Months You Will Be Twirling In The Mirror Asking Yourself Where The Weight Went. And Do Not Worry About What Others Think. Let Them Think What They Want, Let Em Say What They Want, Well As Long As They Don't Cross The Line..lol..you Know What's Going On Inside Of You. :d

shereeks · 04-29-2008, 07:30 AM

33lbs in 2 months - are you mad woman?! That is a serious amount of weight to loose in such a short period of time. Reality check here - have you ever lost that in 2 months before? I wouldn't have thought so.

Don't worry about what others think - it's all about how you feel in yourself - you are the only person who can measure how well you are doing but if you want my opinion you're doing darned well!

You go for it girl and in twelve months time you'll be working into work in your size 10's and they'll all be jealous of you instead!

WAITING80 · 04-29-2008, 10:19 AM

Stay strong, don't let other people get you down. In a little while everyone will be saying WOW. Is that her.

Mumsy · 04-29-2008, 11:11 AM

As I had been lurking for many months before I even joined up...I noticed that there is a HUGE difference in how people lose weight. Some lose it very rapidly...some lose it at a slow but steady pace and some lose it ever so SLOWLY. Some lose a lot at first and then hit the dreaded plateau or some don't lose much at first then they gain speed as the months go by.

It's probably like everyone has their own personal metabolic rate...which is why we can sit across from a skinny minny who snorts down her food in staggering quantities and never gains an ounce or we can be like some of us...even before the surgery, some of us were not gluttons but our metabolic rate was such that when we sniffed a small morsel of food we would gain a couple of pounds.

As I see it (mind you I wear glasses so I might not always see so straight)...this is what happens to us after surgery too. So many factors go into this weight loss journey...but my doc said that he has never, EVER, had a patient not lose a large quantity of weight...whether it took a year, or a year and a half or even two to three years. (Oh isn't THAT encouraging)

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So keep your chin up and know that others are experiencing some of the same things you are and we just gotta weight it out (get it? Oh I do love a pun)!!

Big hug to you...mumsy