I'm getting really tired of not enjoying food! - ThinnerTimes - Gastric Bypass Forum, Lap Band Forum, and Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy Forum

redinsc · 02-04-2008, 06:27 PM

I am getting SO SICK of food! I don't enjoy trying to decide WHAT to eat and WHEN to eat and HOW MUCH to eat!!! I'm tired of not being able to enjoy more than 3 fricking bites of anything before I feel full!!!!!! I miss food! I miss big sloppy Double Whoppers with cheese, no onions, I miss Jamocha shakes, I WANNA TRY SONIC'S CHEESECAKE BITES!!!!!!!!!! I can't even eat half of an orange. HALF AN ORANGE!!! It's been over 3 months and I still can't get more than 1/4 cup of food in without feeling painfully full or having to vomit it up because I ate too much. I can't even eat chicken anymore, it gets stuck. I've eaten so much chicken over the years that I sometimes shoot feathers out of my ass, and now I can't eat chicken. What the heck???

Sometimes I just wanna mash something delicious in my mouth until it's all gone, but NOOOOOOOOO. "Who wants the rest of my chicken finger (notice it's not plural)?", "Do you want the rest of this teeny tiny hamburger patty? I'm full.", "Milk? Me? No thanks, I can only drink a sip before I want to vomit, but thanks!".

Yes, I've lost 57 lbs in less than 3 months, however I think I'm anemic because my energy drains in no time. Yes I called my doctor I'm waiting for test results on 5 vials of blood they pulled from me on Friday. Hell, if I wasn't anemic before, I was after that!

The doctor tells me I have to exercise, so I join a fricking toning and strengthening class and was so drained after just 3 classes in TWO WEEKS that I couldn't get out of the bed last weekend. So the doctor's office says to increase my protein up to 75 grams (doh!) and double my vitamins 3 times a week. GREAT!!! Now I have to come up with MORE ways to get food in! Can't I just quit exercising and sit my NOW FLAT ass at home. And I don't mean flat in a good way, I mean flat in the worst way, no apple-bottom jeans here anymore!!

And I'll tell you another thing, if I never see another fricking protein shake again, it will be too soon! "Just start drinking your protein shakes again." they tell me. Well BITE ME!!! YOU drink the damn protein shakes you 0% body fat "nutritionist"!!!!!

And before you yell at me and tell me I'm being a baby and I knew all of this before surgery (which you NEVER know everything until you live it) and get over it and deal with it, know that I just wanted to vent because there isn't ONE SINGLE SOUL here who understands what I'm going through. They all think it's just the cutest thing that I don't order my own dish at a restaurant, I just get a saucer and eat off of theirs. Isn't that cute? What a cheap date!

Would I do this surgery again? IN A HEARTBEAT. Am I complaining that I've lost weight? Never! This is the hardest thing I've ever done and sometimes I just want somebody to understand how I feel. I don't see Dr. Phil telling crack addicts to just take several small hits of crack during the day to get better. Food tortured me before and damn if it isn't torturing me again. I hate it.

And I'm on Cymbalta for the craziness, I'm just having a bad night.

Thanks you guys, for letting me vent. I knew you would understand.

Steph

thedonnybrasco · 02-04-2008, 06:37 PM

That Was Greatness! Feel Free To Vent Anytime. I'm Sure Everyone Feels Like
This At Times. I Know I Do. But I Know The Surgery Was The Best Thing
That Could Have Happened To Me. I Want Chicken Fried Anything!

Andie · 02-04-2008, 06:50 PM

(((Hugs!!)))

Deirdrea · 02-04-2008, 06:56 PM

I think we have ALL been there. Honestly... It does get better and you will be able to have small amounts of the stuff you're missing out on eventually. I will say though that eating out is kinda blah now. I really just don't care. I go for the social aspect of it more then the food and then I generally eat a little bit of whatever it is that I order and pack the rest up while the wait staff gives me odd looks about the complete lack of eaten food on my plate. It's just something that you learn to deal with and accept.

audiebaby · 02-04-2008, 07:06 PM

Love it! You vent all you need to. Im sure I will be feeling the same way soon. Your doing a great job.

katzz87 · 02-04-2008, 08:22 PM

AMEN! I'm ready for some actual food!

Ruca · 02-04-2008, 08:40 PM

I realize this is a "support" forum. I wish I had "support" to offer you. Unfortunately, in this case I dont. Thats not going to keep me fro m commenting.

Are you completely serious???

I freakin WISH I had your "problem." Do yourself a favor and have a reversal. Go gorge yourself on whoppers and cheesecake bites and come back when you have something really serious to whine about.

Guaran-damn-tee you in 8 months youre going to be crying hurt hoochie cause (edit: clarification obviously needed here.)

I am just envisioning that rant in 8 months. Work with me here...

"omg....the honeymoon period is over. I can't beeeeeeeeelive I ate a whole whopper jr and a banana. Am I failing???"

Gimme a break. Sarcasm fully intended.

janine · 02-04-2008, 09:11 PM

Your post is funny!
Because I had my surger 10/23/07 and we are only a week apart. I can't eat chicken either, or salmon, tuna, pork, and eggs. Milk is ok with me as long as it's 1%-2%. I also am sick sick sick of the shakes. The powder, the mess, etc... I'm now drinking ready made Lean Body that is 40g 17 oz. 1/2 in the morning and 1/2 in the evening if I can stand it. I also eat alot of cottage cheese w/splenda to make up the diff of protien. Since I've added vitamin D and Iron I feel so much beter as far as being tired and walking seems to help too which I might add I've slacked on this week. So hopefully it will be a nice day tomorrow to get back on track. I was so glad you posted your frustration. We'll get through this. Funny though... I've gotten over my fast food addiciton. I don't even think of eating out anymore. The 3 times I've gone out since surgery were so small of meals I ate off my dh's plate (he doesn't mind). the last time I went with friends to Hooters I had the chili and only eat 2 bites. I didn't take it to go cause I have plenty of chili at home (not everyone wants to share they're plate of food) I fealt like it was such a waiste of good food and money. So, I'll have to rethink the whole eating out with friends. I fealt really out of place with them drinking and eating and laughing etc.. and I had my water w/lemon and 2 teaspoons of chili. I didn't like watching them eat either. My life is changing and I have to keep up with it and find new things that I like to do besides food.

redinsc · 02-05-2008, 05:06 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ruca

Do yourself a favor and have a reversal. Go gorge yourself on whoppers and cheesecake bites and come back when you have something really serious to whine about.

Guaran-damn-tee you in 8 months youre going to be crying hurt hoochie cause omg....the honeymoon period is over. I can't beeeeeeeeelive I ate a whole whopper jr and a banana. Am I failing???

Gimme a break.

I'll have a reversal when YOU do!!! This "hoochie" isn't failing, I just wanted to vent and get over it. Now go enjoy your whopper jr and banana.

Duckie · 02-05-2008, 05:21 AM

I am not sure how to take this post.