freaking out - ThinnerTimes

laura · 04-26-2007, 04:33 PM

I have really been freaking out lately about my wls. I had surgery June 8th 06 - I have lost 135 lbs and I feel great. I eat healthy and I don't over eat. I still measure my portions and only eat 1/2 cup per meal. I never fell full but I also never feel hungry. I have a family, own a business and go to school so its rare that I make it to the gym to work out. Lately I keep feeling like I'm going to gain all my weight back. I am obsessed with this thought. Everytime I eat a bite of food I freak out. I feel like the thoughts of gaining all of the weight back have taken over my life. As I sit here and write this, I know that I would really have to sabotage myself to gain it all back, but the fear just wont go away. When I talk to people about my surgery, I have people tell me all the time, oh I know so and so who had that and she gained it all back, the I see stars on tv who have had the surgery and are gaining it all back and then I start freaking out all over again.

Anyone who knows of a long term success story that they want to share, I could sure use to hear it.

LisaM · 04-26-2007, 04:39 PM

I'm a little over eight months further out than you, and after stalling for nearly four months at right around my one-year mark, started losing weight again. I think exercising (even if it's just walking at night, or starting to park further away from the store entrance) might help your frame of mind, get your endorphins going again. I have to say this, you understand, because I'm a fitness director...

but nonetheless, it's true. Building some muscle of any kind will also help boost your metabolism so you burn more calories, even at rest.

But I can just about promise you that you're not done losing as long as you continue to follow the guidelines... 1200 to 1500 calories a day, minimum 60 grams of protein, etc. I don't think about calories anymore, but when I go back in my head over what I've eaten in any given day, it tends to fall in that range, so I don't sweat it too much.

Hope that's reassuring - not sure exactly what you're looking for in terms of reassurance. If the thoughts are beginning to really impact your life, it may be time to talk to a counselor. While I understand the fear, and it's completely normal in terms of our history of losing weight only to gain it back, time and time again, being obsessed about it means you may need help to reroute your thinking patterns a bit. Ain't saying you're crazy - we all need help from time to time.