LisaM

Sorry, Bella, but when I read this, my first thought was, "I used to have three chins, now I have only one. Does that mean I'm less determined now?"

I am struggling, though, because I don't WANT to be the one who is being supported, I much prefer to be the one who gives the advice rather than the one who gets it. It's kind of the "big sister" syndrome. I will go through incredible contortions to help out my little sis, and will go through just as much in order to NOT ask her for help... when I told her that, she said, "It's not only better to give than receive, it's a heck of a lot easier." Smart girl. I feel like such a fraud coming on here asking for emotional support.

At the same time, this is REALLY getting me down! Like I said already, the thought of another surgery, recovery time (whether it's six weeks or more) and all the attendant blah-blah-blah is making me just want to stick my head under my pillow and not come out until it's over. Michelle, you are handling all this SO much better than I am, with a smile and a wink. And I had no idea you were even hurting! Which makes me feel like even more of a fraud.

Crap, I think I need to go drink another cup of coffee or something. It's way too early for all this angst. Sorry about the whining, guys...maybe I need a kick in the patootie more than another "po-baby."

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Lisa M

Lap RNY - 9/26/05
surgery/lowest/goal
Weight: 303/137/150
BMI: 56/25.1/27.4
Now in maintenance stage, with desired weight range: 150-153 pounds
Current weight: 143 Updated 7/16/08

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