Feeling Down!!! - ThinnerTimes

Alayna · 11-28-2006, 12:20 PM

I keep reading so many of your reports and everyone seems so happy about having had the surgery due to the weightloss, and although I am extremely happy about all the weight I am losing, I have suddenly over the past week started feeling realy down about it all.

The reason why, is that I am just so tired all the time (not sleepy tired, but physically tired), and I am always feeling naucious and have stomach cramps, a bit lke trapped wind.

I have just started trying pureed foods and as some of you may know from a previous thread, I tried an egg a week ago and was very ill, but then tried a mash potatoe last night and again, although I haven't actually been sick today, I have had the most horrendous stomach cramps and diarreah (sp?), which actually then makes me feel sick until it clears. I don't feel as though I have truly recovered from being ill last week, because prior to that, I had had no problems what so ever, I think it really took a lot out of me.

I even drink my protein drinks and for about ten, fifteen mins after, I kind of get an energy slump and don't feel too great then, anyone else have this problem??

I am now feeling really scared to keep trying anymore foods and I am always thinking of the future and if this is how it is going to be all the time. I was always a big social eater and loved going out for meals with friends and family, and although I know and am quite happy with the fact that my meal portions are going o be a lot smaller, I am so down that I am not going to be able to go out again. When I went out in the past, I really enjoyed salads etc so I am not looking at going out to eat "crap" food, but just to go out again.

I was also not a big drinker either, but every now and again, I like to have a couple of drinks with my friends on a night out, and again, I am worried that I wont be able to do that again.

I am sorry to sound like I am moaning here, and I am not under any false illusion that this won't get slightly better as I am only 4 weeks out, but I just feel like crying at the moment, because my head is saying "get up go out and do the usual things you used to", but my body is saying, "you must be joking"!!

I would love to hear off any of you that had the same kind of feelings as me now, but that it has all changed around for them.

I also kind of get angry at myself for having to go through all this to lose weight, just because I didn't have the willpower to do it myself.

Do you think I may be short of some vitamins as well, could that make me feel like this??

I think I am really beating myself up at the moment, but I know that all of you are so good, that I feel I can put down my feeling and get supportive but honest responses from you.

How lonf did most of you start feeling ok when you were eating??

Thanks so much

x

p.s I will probably feel better tomorrow ha!!!

fitbefore40 · 11-28-2006, 01:13 PM

To me, this surgery is a lot like having a baby, we all get so giddy by 3 months out, that we don't think of the struggles the first 8 weeks pose. For me, it took about 8 weeks. Mind you, I went out to lunch with friends - had soup most of the time and felt somewhat "icky' after a lot of meals - mostly b/c of the carbs. It took me well over 6 weeks for figure out what me pouch liked. I had the days where I thought, man, I am going to throw up EVERY TIME I TRY CHICKEN!!! Chicken was not my friend until 16 weeks, but I still tried - like the idiot that I am!!

Four weeks out is not very much time at all. For me, it all evened out around the 5th or 6th month - that's pretty far out, but I had an ulcer and had some pain caused by that for a while. It's under control now and I am right as rain!

At 4 weeks - I still rested on my couch in my office every afternoon - Now, I don't even THINK about that!!

Keep on hanging - hopefully time will cure all that ills!!

kittens4 · 11-28-2006, 01:26 PM

Well, I had my surgery 10/23, developed a blockage, had a 2nd surgery 11/6, and then got pneumonia, so am home, unable to work, on oxygen 24/7, and breathing treatments every 4 hours. I can tell you that when I was laying there in the hospital vomiting that week I had the blockage, and then again w/the pneumonia, I had DEEP REGRET about the surgery. I also had to stop my antidepressants (Effexor) cold turkey because for some reason they made me sick after surgery, so I was going through that too..although the morphine and demerol seemed to have masked any withdrawals..lol. Anyway, I've only been home now for 9 days, and already feel so much better. I still am not breathing normal, and don't know if I'll be able to be off the oxygen soon, or go back to work soon, but I am hoping so! I see the doctor next week! Anyway, my point to this long story is that this surgery didn't go as I'd planned AT ALL. I think it's normal to have regret when you are feeling like crap! I thought...hey, why did I do this? Even though I was fat, I was feeling fine! Why did I do this to myself? However, this week, I feel like a new woman! All of a sudden it's like I turned a corner. I hope that will happen for you soon as well. Now I am very happy I had the surgery and I know I will be so much healthier in the long run. Still, it's hard adjusting. I see commercials for food and think...man, that looks good, but I know I'll never be able to eat it...so yes, I think there's a bit of post-pouch depression that goes on...and I think it'll pass when you start to feel better and see the wonderful new you emerge! Best wishes to you for a speedy recovery and good feelings!!!

Alayna · 11-28-2006, 01:49 PM

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Originally Posted by kittens4

Well, I had my surgery 10/23, developed a blockage, had a 2nd surgery 11/6, and then got pneumonia, so am home, unable to work, on oxygen 24/7, and breathing treatments every 4 hours. I can tell you that when I was laying there in the hospital vomiting that week I had the blockage, and then again w/the pneumonia, I had DEEP REGRET about the surgery. I also had to stop my antidepressants (Effexor) cold turkey because for some reason they made me sick after surgery, so I was going through that too..although the morphine and demerol seemed to have masked any withdrawals..lol. Anyway, I've only been home now for 9 days, and already feel so much better. I still am not breathing normal, and don't know if I'll be able to be off the oxygen soon, or go back to work soon, but I am hoping so! I see the doctor next week! Anyway, my point to this long story is that this surgery didn't go as I'd planned AT ALL. I think it's normal to have regret when you are feeling like crap! I thought...hey, why did I do this? Even though I was fat, I was feeling fine! Why did I do this to myself? However, this week, I feel like a new woman! All of a sudden it's like I turned a corner. I hope that will happen for you soon as well. Now I am very happy I had the surgery and I know I will be so much healthier in the long run. Still, it's hard adjusting. I see commercials for food and think...man, that looks good, but I know I'll never be able to eat it...so yes, I think there's a bit of post-pouch depression that goes on...and I think it'll pass when you start to feel better and see the wonderful new you emerge! Best wishes to you for a speedy recovery and good feelings!!!

I feel really bad now, because I haven't gone through half of what you have and yet you have got your head up and things are looking good for you, which I am so pleased about for you.

I appreciate your kind words and has made me feel more optimistic. I think it is just that we all go through out own "feel sorry for ourselves" moments, which is why it is so good to write it down and hear from people like youselves.

Thanks so much and again, well done on getting through all that you have. I will keep you updated on how my head and pouch are dealing with things over the next few weeks.
x

momto4 · 11-28-2006, 02:25 PM

Oh Alayna ~ i could have wrote your post ~ i feel so many of the same things... not much agrees with me at all ~ and sometimes I just wonder if I will always feel so crummy ~ I have a big family to cook for ~ and i hate sitting at the table feeling like I am about to vomit ~ sometimes I feel hungry and want a big bite of something ~ and of course get sick if I do ~ and then the whole ~ HOW pathetic am i that I had to go thru all this just to lose weight ~ oh that really gets me down ~ ...I can relate totally ~ we have to focus on losing the weight ~ getting HEALTHY ~ and feeling good about ourselves... PERIOD. PM me if you need to talk ~ hang in there !!!!
Catherine

VanessaSFL · 11-28-2006, 02:58 PM

I am 20 months out and could have written that post to on my off days.
It does get better with each month...I felt like Man POOH for the first 9 weeks,then just dog pooh for about 6 months and up to now, I still have days I feel like Nat POOH.Still feel like POOH somedays but the POOH is coming out of a smaller hole the further I get out.

Better times ahead...PROMISE!!!!

V

jfrie130 · 11-28-2006, 04:17 PM

I think it's normal to get down about this. Look at everything that has happened to us and even more to others. Our lives have changed and it's hard for our heads to catch up with everything. But your stomach will feel better, it has to heal. I'm almost eight weeks out and I even get sick to my stomach occasionally when I take a drink of water, but it usually passes pretty quick. Just take it one day at a time.

Chuck122 · 11-28-2006, 04:23 PM

I felt like you did for the first month after my surgery. I had a long recovery and I was physically exhaused 24/7 it sucked. But the past few months things have gotten so much better. I actually am really starting to have more energy and I actually have alot of confidence compared to before. Just keep it up and you will wake up one day in a great mood.

TabFox · 11-28-2006, 05:07 PM

I, too, could have written your post. There are times still, that I have regrets. I hate having to mutilate my body because I was not strong enough to lose weight on my own, much less even letting myself get fat in the first place. I felt like a failure. I could not eat chicken for about 6 months. There are still some foods that will not agree with me and I'll have to throw up a little...and I'm 2 1/2 yrs. post op. My husband, on the other hand, is 2 yrs. post op and has NEVER thrown up (I swear, he's not human!)

Eating does get easier with time. Sometimes, food will not agree with you. Our bellies can be a bit finicky sometimes. It's really an individual thing. What works for one person may not work for another. I tend to survive on Lean Cuisine frozen dinners, and peanut butter crackers because they go down easier.

I do like a cold beer, or mixed drink on occasion, too. We do get drunk fast, but then it passes fast, too. Be careful with the mixed drinks because of the sugar content, though. After the "honeymoon" phase is over, there will be times when you feel like you can eat non-stop. Yes, we can gain weight, so we will always have to watch, or be a bit cautious of what we eat. Don't try to cheat the system to see what you can get away with. You may be able to eventually eat one bite of a candy bar without getting sick, but then an hour later, another bite,,,,then another....pretty soon, you've eaten the entire thing....NOT a good thing. Having a cookie, a bite of cake, or a treat once in a while is not going to kill you or make you fat. Just make good choices most of the time.

Some people say that you can never have a soda, some drink it all time time (like me! yes, I'm a diet soda-holic) But my doctor says it's fine. You're just going to have to see what works for you over time.

As far as the depression thing...it's VERY understandable. We celebrate with food, gatherings are centered around food, holidays, etc. Having this surgery is almost as if we have cut ourselves off from our best friend. We go through a mourning phase. This is not like a "diet" where we can just go off of it for a day or two. This is permanent. It's okay to cry, scream, cuss, whatever you need to do. Posting on this website also helps tremendously!

The first few months will be rough...maybe just a taste or two of your favorite food. Just be careful and realize that you "may" get sick if something doesn't agree with you. After some time, you'll be able to enjoy more things. I was also sluggish for about 2 months, then I got a burst of energy and finally felt semi-human again. Take your vitamins; either the chewable kind, or liquid. They will make a difference.

Good luck with your journey and keep posting on here.

bridgetgirl · 11-28-2006, 09:06 PM

They dont call it hell week for nothing. Your gonna be your old self again... in time. You will have your life back, and be able to do the things you like... in moderation.

Put on your calendar to come back in 6 months and read this thread.... your gonna crack up!

Things will get better darlin' in time... we promise!