feeling down,fat, why did I do this to myself! - ThinnerTimes

Makenzie and Logan's Mom · 09-16-2006, 07:20 PM

Does anyone ever feel totally sad and regret the whole surgery? I am 3 1/2 weeks out and these last 2 days have been rough. I feel like I am stuck, I lost weight and now stopped, I cant eat anything really because it gets stuck or its something I dont like. I feel like I totally messed up my body and now I am stuck with it and 30,000 I paid out of pocket for it.
I know I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel but right now i just dont feel good, I feel confussed and wish the weight would come off faster, and I felt better. I feel so nauseas, sick, and just all over weak. I hate throwing up, I hate not being able to pick my 10 month old baby up for 2 months, and I hate feeling like this
I know I am complaining, but has anyone hit this point before, like WHY? I guess I should try and be positive but its hard.
Got surgery, went to the hospital a week later bec my intestense stopped working, was there for 2 days, then home, then a stricture fix tues, and now home, I just feel BLAHHHHHHHHH
I love my kids and my husband, as you can see from their cute pic, but I feel like a bummer around them. Then friends want to come over and I am like NO because they will get pizza or olive garden and I get to stare and eat yougurt..... not fun, I feel like my life stopped, I want things, food, I know its in my head, maybe its bec I know I cant have it and now i want it? I just feel off now. I was on prozac before and trying to get back on, but its not that feeling, its like buyers remorse or something... HELP.. need a friend that understands!

Dara · 09-16-2006, 07:29 PM

Leah, Leah, Leah...

You're only 3-1/2 weeks post-op and you have also had complications. You have every right to question your decision to have surgery. At 3-1/2 weeks post-op, most of us questioned having surgery. Give yourself another week or two, and you will feel like a new person.

However, as I said in another reply, abruptly stopping your Prozac can have a tremendous impact on your well-being, both mentally AND physically. I would bet that a lot of your symptoms are associated with Prozac withdrawal. You MUST restart your Prozac.

If you get your Prozac back on board and give yourself another week of recovery, I just know you're gonna feel 1000% better.

Hang in there...and get that medication on board!

Makenzie and Logan's Mom · 09-16-2006, 07:31 PM

Thanks dara, I needed to hear that... thanks so much... as I have tears going down my face.... thanks!

pambragg · 09-16-2006, 07:31 PM

I have a feeling that what you are experiencing right now is in direct relationship to your other post about prozac. You are describing what I went thru when I quit taking it for about a month. Things were going so well I thought that I could do without it................WRONG!!!! Talk to your doctor sweetie, find out why he doesn't want you taking the capsules. Best wishes and big hugs coming your way.

Makenzie and Logan's Mom · 09-16-2006, 07:34 PM

thanks so much, I just took it, it seems to go down fine, I will see in 10 min if it comes back up, thanks so much for the support!

Dara · 09-16-2006, 07:35 PM

Leah:

That is why we have this board...for support and information. It is fortunate that I just logged on and could give you a response. I have been away from the board for quite a while, just scanning and going. However, it feels good to help someone. It helps me to remember why I love this board so much.

I am two and one-half years post-op and I cannot count the number of times I have posted and someone has helped me.

Take good care of yourself, Leah. There is light at the end of this tunnel...and it's the light of hope, love and respect.

Makenzie and Logan's Mom · 09-16-2006, 07:38 PM

THanks I needed that, you dont know how much I needed to hear that... and to get a response!
Have a good night...

Dyann · 09-16-2006, 08:17 PM

It is very understandable that you feel the way you do considering your post op course. Hang in there and get the meds back into you. The most common pause in weight loss I have seen and experienced personally is the 3-4 week pause. It is very common. Don't worry, it will pick back up and that helps the spirits. On another thread you asked, how long does it take for people to notice. For me, people who knew I had it noticed all along. Aquaintances took 50-60 pounds prior to saying that I had lost weight. Things will get so much better when more familiar healthy real foods are allowed to pass your lips without a problem

Blueyz · 09-16-2006, 08:26 PM

The advice that you have been given is golden. Dara...I am so glad that she posted and is right. I would check with your doctor and get some kind of medication. You really can't just stop taking Prozac like Pam says you need something. Also, these feelings are normal in the beggining because your body is going through so many changes. Get rid of the scale, throw it, break it, trash it, or something...it will just mess with your mind and you will lose.

The best thing is you are here with us and so many people here have gone through this. It is quite normal.

Take care

AprilShowers · 09-16-2006, 08:34 PM

The way you feel is so common it seems.. I too felt that way and I thought I was the worst poor sport there was. I regreted it every day for 7 weeks.. I even at times would just say "let me just dieee its much better then how i feel!" Everyone just said "it will get better" but better seemed so far away!
Everyday was a struggle to get up to move around to have energy to eat to drink to just try and feel "normal"..

I am now 8 weeks out and for the FIRST time... I am startting to feel like my self and for the FIRST time.. I am noticing the weight thats come off me and I am getting happy. This week I even went out and got my nails done and my toe nails.. eyebrows and I feel great.

Hang in there because as its been said SO many times before .. "This too shall pass!" Think positive, I am pulling for you