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deadboy · 08-16-2006, 05:49 AM

I'm right there with you Marty. My GF and I broke up last week and my cat of 14 years had to be put to sleep about a month and a half ago. Other than this surgery and all of you, this has been one hell of a shitty summer.

Brooke220 · 08-16-2006, 05:52 AM

Marty,

And I thought I had stress. You're in my prayers, sister.

I appreciate all the feedback; Holly and readyforchange (what's your name?

) seem to know exactly where I'm coming from. You can't stretch your stomach by grazing, can you?

I have all this nervous energy right now; I can't even do meditations anymore.

Denise, I think I'm getting my protein in during my grazing. I'm wondering if I'm trying to sabotage myself... I am getting enough to drink; but maybe I'll try drinking more when I start to thinking about eating when I'm not even hungry.

AlabamaChick · 08-16-2006, 06:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Mavisavis

Well daggone it.......I finally ate my emotions today.

My last 2 weeks have just been crappy....my daughter flipped out at my Mom's (long story, but bad scene), I didn't get the job I applied for, I had to start working outside my home due to some changes (and the person I am caring for is extremely challenging...with a capital E), I had to put my almost 15 yr old dog down, I had an approx. 3 week old kitty die on me that a friend and I were trying to save, and my BF and I broke up today. Jeeminy Crickets.....it has to get better right? So, I handled all this pretty well foodwise, but today I broke. I guess the good news is that I will do better tomorrow.

Geezzzzz Marty, you are like me. When you do something, you do it right, dontcha? Girlfriend, from all of your posts I have read I just KNOW that you will get back on track! You just had a bad day and it will get better. Don't beat yourself up over this. It's in the past and tomorrow is another day. You went through ALOT for one week, so just get your head screwed back on straight and continue on. I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time, but we are here for you whenever you need to vent. Just type those fingers to the bone. ((((((((((MARTY)))))))))))

Mavisavis · 08-16-2006, 01:27 PM

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Originally Posted by deadboy

I'm right there with you Marty. My GF and I broke up last week and my cat of 14 years had to be put to sleep about a month and a half ago. Other than this surgery and all of you, this has been one hell of a shitty summer.

Sheesh......doesn't it suck? I'm glad I have all of you too. It's just such a great bunch of people. Thanks for understanding my misery.......now let's hope for a few happier weeks.

deadboy · 08-16-2006, 01:32 PM

Fall is coming. That's my favorite time of the year. I'm sure things will be better when the chill starts coming and the leaves start changing.

Dyann · 08-16-2006, 01:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Mavisavis

Well daggone it.......I finally ate my emotions today.

My last 2 weeks have just been crappy....my daughter flipped out at my Mom's (long story, but bad scene), I didn't get the job I applied for, I had to start working outside my home due to some changes (and the person I am caring for is extremely challenging...with a capital E), I had to put my almost 15 yr old dog down, I had an approx. 3 week old kitty die on me that a friend and I were trying to save, and my BF and I broke up today. Jeeminy Crickets.....it has to get better right? So, I handled all this pretty well foodwise, but today I broke. I guess the good news is that I will do better tomorrow.

Marty, I can't believe all of that is going on. Wow...if you can make it through this series of events, you can do anything. Was the BF breakup unexpected?? I hope things turn around for you real soon

Gladitsme · 08-16-2006, 02:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Mavisavis

Well daggone it.......I finally ate my emotions today.

My last 2 weeks have just been crappy....my daughter flipped out at my Mom's (long story, but bad scene), I didn't get the job I applied for, I had to start working outside my home due to some changes (and the person I am caring for is extremely challenging...with a capital E), I had to put my almost 15 yr old dog down, I had an approx. 3 week old kitty die on me that a friend and I were trying to save, and my BF and I broke up today. Jeeminy Crickets.....it has to get better right? So, I handled all this pretty well foodwise, but today I broke. I guess the good news is that I will do better tomorrow.

{{{{{{{{{{Marty}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry you're going through all this. I wish I were closer and could hug you in person. I'm here for you. If you need to vent, just e-mail me!

Mavisavis · 08-16-2006, 03:16 PM

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Originally Posted by AlabamaChick

Geezzzzz Marty, you are like me. When you do something, you do it right, dontcha? Girlfriend, from all of your posts I have read I just KNOW that you will get back on track! You just had a bad day and it will get better. Don't beat yourself up over this. It's in the past and tomorrow is another day. You went through ALOT for one week, so just get your head screwed back on straight and continue on. I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time, but we are here for you whenever you need to vent. Just type those fingers to the bone. ((((((((((MARTY)))))))))))

Thanks you guys...Brooke too

.....I am indeed back on track today. THAT is the difference. First off, I made "better" bad choices (Nilla Wafers instead of oreos, cheesecorn instead of chips, etc), Secondly, I at least did not make myself sick, and thirdly, I knew even as I was doing it, that it would not extend beyond last night. In the past, Lord have mercy.......it was BAD and could flip me into a several month binge.

I ate well today and am going out tonight with a friend......if BF shows up he is actually a decent guy and there will not be a scene. Our lives just don't coincide......I think mostly because he is 17 years my senior and I am getting younger by the day.

Mavisavis · 08-16-2006, 03:24 PM

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Originally Posted by deadboy

Fall is coming. That's my favorite time of the year. I'm sure things will be better when the chill starts coming and the leaves start changing.

Me too! I love Fall, it's the best time in Ohio. Warm days, cool nights, bonfires, Halloween, beautiful leaves, crispness in the air.

Yep, life is better already.

Mavisavis · 08-16-2006, 04:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Dyann

Marty, I can't believe all of that is going on. Wow...if you can make it through this series of events, you can do anything. Was the BF breakup unexpected?? I hope things turn around for you real soon

Oh Dyann.....those events have so many issues behind them too. I am actually afraid for my younger daughter and myself if my middle daughter comes home from her current placement.

It is such a difficult and emotionally charged thing. And yes, the BF thing was kind of recent and a little unexpected. I started working outside my home more which made it harder for me to go out and into his world. I found that he really wasn't going to inconvenience himself to come to me and all my responsibilities. I have been trying to talk to him for awhile about our differences, but he just didn't want to see it. I am 17 years younger with a house full of dogs, a disabled man that I take care of in my home, a yard and house, a job, and a few challenging kids. He is in a 1 bedroom apt with a job. VERY different circumstances. I have no intention of changing mine. When it became obvious he was not going to bridge the gap and come here to see me, then I told him I would no longer do it for him as I've been for 14 months......paying a sitter, driving people there, getting up sometimes at 5:30 am to get them in time, etc. Oh man, see, you got me started.

Basically, he is nice and I am nice, but yes I am mad, and yes I am hurt, but it was probably inevitable mostly to due age and life stages we are in. Gosh, are you sorry you asked? lol