Brain anomolies - ThinnerTimes

Gina in NY · 07-23-2006, 05:26 AM

You know, I still have moments when I forget I've had this surgery. I sometimes find myself going over the pros and cons, as if I still have to make the decision. Maybe only for a few seconds or a minute, but what a trip.

It started RIGHT after the surgery. A nurse trainee came in to help me out of bed and said that I didn't look "Big enough" for the surgery. Instead of thinking, "You idiot, I've already had it, maybe you should shut up!" I thought, "You know, she may be right...maybe I shouldn't have this surgery..." But it was already too late...

Sometimes I think of eating something, or going to a certain restaurant and totally forget, I can't eat that or go there...My husband cooked for a wedding yesterday and I said, "Bring me something delicious!" as he left...Believe me, there is nothing he was cooking that I could eat. He just ignored me, dear man.

I swear, I have to look at my scar a couple times a day just to convince myself it is real. I wonder if that is why I sometimes have trouble with eating something completely stupid...

Anyone else go through this? I feel like a nut case...(Actually, I'm pretty used to that feeling)

AlabamaChick · 07-23-2006, 09:44 AM

LOL You are funny Gina. But ya know I did it right after surgery too, even when I was still on clear liquids the first week. My kids would walk through the house with something in their hand good to eat, and I would strike a pose as if I was about to get out of the reclincer and go get myself that too! LOL They even looked at me a few times and asked me if I needed help up because they were wonderful to help me up right after surgery, but I would tell them, "Yeah, I have to go to bathroom", just to keep them from thinking I was crazy. I had to be careful at first being around the food in the kitchen, because my hand would reach to grab it to stuff into my mouth before my head could stop it. That definitely proves that eating is a habit. It was like when I quit smoking, I would always reach for where my cigs were and so I got tired of doing it and nothing being there and then feeling the effect of not smoking, so I put something else there in their place that I could pick up each time I reached there, which was my list of work, and eventually I stopped reaching for it because I didn't want to be reminded how behind I was on work! LOL But with food, that's a difficult one because food is everywhere. UGH!

brookscn · 07-24-2006, 10:15 AM

Gina:
Old habits die hard - when I'm out to a restaurant with my husband, I have to FORCE myself to remember that I can't get that big mouth hamburger with fries.......and if I did, I could only eat maybe a very small amount of it and one fry. For me, it's just 44 years of behavior that I've tried to change in just a few months.

I think we're always going to have a little bit of that in us!

coptergirl · 07-24-2006, 12:01 PM

I had no real problems with any foods that I tried, so I would stare at my scar and wonder if they did anything in there at all. Then I remember that I can't eat anywhere near the amount I used to shove into my piehole - which isn't a piehole anymore

shanny31 · 07-24-2006, 12:08 PM

Gina I totally understand!! I am so there, and July has been filled with it seems to be 50 million birthdays(including my own) and it has been one resturant after another. the good thing though is that I order something off the kids meal and share with my 2yo and we are fine and save lots of money. It is funny about your nurses aid mine said the same thing!! Only she brought up the fact that I can't eat what ever I want anymore, I just looked at her and said "that's what got me here in the first place!" I then spoke with her charge nurse. Don't feel alone, I am hoping that this is all a part of the process!

shannon