Stacie's Journal (stakeda) - Page 38 - ThinnerTimes

Midntsgirl · 04-20-2006, 10:51 PM

Stacie...you ARE all those things you said in your post (sorry...it's been a LOOOOONG day and I couldn't remember what all you said)! Insecure...maybe it's the old Stacie trying to rear her ugly head again (NOT THAT YOU'RE UGLY IN ANYWAY!!

). Maybe you still feel that you don't deserve what you have, so you start to doubt yourself and feel the insecurity creeping up on you. Sweety...you deserve all the happiness in the world! One day you will realize that and accept the fact that you REALLY ARE worth your weight in gold!

Love ya and CHIN UP!!

Jeanie · 04-20-2006, 11:01 PM

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Originally Posted by stakeda

I am still insecure. Why?

I don't know.

I'm BEAUTIFUL.

I'm SMART.

I'm SUCCESSFUL.

Why am I insecure? Are my instincts right? I don't know.

You are all of these things and more! NO you're instincts aren't right! Everyone loves you so much you just need to love yourself. You have a heart of gold and so much love for everyone but yourself!

Blueyz · 04-20-2006, 11:10 PM

Stacie~

You are intelligent, successful, funny, and just a wonderful beautiful person. You deserve your wonderful Gerry and to be happy. You have 2 awesome kids and have come a long way and deserve everything. Be happy girlfriend. Remember....you deserve your happiness.

stakeda · 04-21-2006, 08:09 AM

Thanks for the kind words ladies.

It's not necessarily a relationship insecurity, just an insecurity overall about life. I just feel inadequate at times. Like I could be doing even better than I am. Whether it's my career (Sometimes I feel like I don't really even know what I'm doing! Even though every one of my superiors tell me I'm fabulous.), or my parenting skills, life skills, etc.

I don't know. I just it's just one of those times in life where it's okay to have a little "breakdown". I do think it's healthy to question yourself sometimes.

This way you don't always think you are hot $hit!

stakeda · 04-26-2006, 05:33 AM

I just got home from spending 4 days in Los Angeles. I had many tasks on my agenda and it seemed like nothing worked out like it should have. Except for the fact that Adam and I spent the most fabulous day at USC Sunday. That is the most amazing school!

I was able to see his classrooms, visit with the head of the Engineering Department, see his dormroom options, visit with the Financial Aid Dept, etc. It was very cool.

Their Marching Band performed for us. It was unbelieveable! Soooooo good! I can't wait for the football games! I bought a sweatshirt that says "USC Mom".

Although it was a wonderful day, it was also very emotional for me.

I'm very happy for Adam. He has worked hard for this. But, now I feel like I'm losing my baby.

I love you Adam. You are wise, sensitive, intelligent, successful, loving, caring, you are a GOOD MAN! I'm so proud of you.

coptergirl · 04-26-2006, 09:26 AM

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Originally Posted by stakeda

I just got home from spending 4 days in Los Angeles. I had many tasks on my agenda and it seemed like nothing worked out like it should have. Except for the fact that Adam and I spent the most fabulous day at USC Sunday. That is the most amazing school!

I was able to see his classrooms, visit with the head of the Engineering Department, see his dormroom options, visit with the Financial Aid Dept, etc. It was very cool.

Their Marching Band performed for us. It was unbelieveable! Soooooo good! I can't wait for the football games! I bought a sweatshirt that says "USC Mom".

Although it was a wonderful day, it was also very emotional for me. I'm very happy for Adam. He has worked hard for this. But, now I feel like I'm losing my baby.

I love you Adam. You are wise, sensitive, intelligent, successful, loving, caring, you are a GOOD MAN! I'm so proud of you.

You are an awesome and loving mom

I know you will make many more trips back to the LA area to see Adam at school - if you need a place to stay, or if you want to get together for coffee or for dinner, let me know - I am right near LAX

Jeanie · 04-26-2006, 10:24 AM

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Originally Posted by stakeda

I love you Adam. You are wise, sensitive, intelligent, successful, loving, caring, you are a GOOD MAN! I'm so proud of you.

And he is like that because he has an awesome Mom!

Blueyz · 04-26-2006, 05:52 PM

[Although it was a wonderful day, it was also very emotional for me.

I'm very happy for Adam. He has worked hard for this. But, now I feel like I'm losing my baby.

I love you Adam. You are wise, sensitive, intelligent, successful, loving, caring, you are a GOOD MAN! I'm so proud of you.[/font][/size][/color][/quote]

Stacie~

You have 2 beautiful children and I know you are very proud. It is kinda sad because they are growing up. You are a great parent and I have to commend you on raising them brilliantly. They are lucky to have you as their Mom and I am sure Gerry is very proud of them, too.

bridgetgirl · 04-29-2006, 08:46 PM

Okay I totally posted to this thread, I dont know what happened to it!!!! Dayyyuuummmmmmm. I remember what I said though

First I found out that there is no Santa Clause, Easter Bunny, Tooth fairy, and now this... you arent the $shit?!!!!!!

I was looking at your quotes and there yours states, per Socrates, that A life without examing is a life not worth living...... your doing fabulous!

USC, yahoo! I dated a trojan football player once, in my early years, lol! Please take me with you! Trojan football dads, now THATS hot! lol

stakeda · 05-14-2006, 01:17 AM

Adam woke me from a nap to tell me that he had just "broke up" with his girlfriend of seven months.

This was very upsetting for him. He feels bad. He doesn't want to hurt her, but he feels that going away to college, etc. should warrant the seperation. I feel bad for her, but what can I do?

Tomorrow is "Mother's Day". We will take Gerry's mom to El Torito's Brunch in the morning. Adam and Amanda will come too. I came into Adam's room to use his computer and I found flowers in here. Either he loves flowers, or they are for me tomorrow.

Amanda has friends over tonight. She tried to convince Gerry to have me "stay the night" at his house tonight so she could have a party!

I hardly think so!