Stacie's Journal (stakeda) - Page 13 - ThinnerTimes

pambragg · 01-31-2005, 11:28 AM

You are awesome my friend. The kids are very blessed to have you as a Mom. I love you!

stakeda · 01-31-2005, 01:37 PM

I love you too!!!

stakeda · 01-31-2005, 01:39 PM

Hey Dara,

Thanks for the compliment!!! I love being a mom. I think it was my right of passage. You know what I mean???

stakeda · 01-31-2005, 01:41 PM

Hey Dale,

I really think that my strength comes from my mother. She is such a strong woman!!!

My kids deserve the money. I love them so much!!!

stakeda · 01-31-2005, 01:42 PM

Kim,

You skinny B**ch!!! I love you!!!

watergirl · 01-31-2005, 02:00 PM

You make me blush! I've never been called skinny!!

I know - Right!

I love you too! I would love to spend more time with you!

stakeda · 01-31-2005, 02:03 PM

Kim,

You are skinny!!!

I love you mannnnnn!!!!!!

watergirl · 01-31-2005, 02:17 PM

I know - Right!

I love you too Womannnnnnnnnnnnn!

stakeda · 02-01-2005, 09:49 PM

I went to see my hair stylist tonight. I've known him for several years now, as well as the owner of the salon he works in.

Two things happened to me tonight:

#1 ~ They cut off all of my hair! We really had no choice. It was dead.

Now I look like a "soccer mom" (or so my kids say). Boo hoo!

#2 ~ I told them that I can't stop beating myself up about drinking again at night. I always feel so guilty about it. I have this continuous tape that plays over and over in my head. "You're such a bad mom Stacie" "You can't even go without drinking wine for one night, loser" "You're going to lose everything if you don't get a handle on this problem". I swear, I just realized where all of this was coming from...my ex husband used to say these kind of negative remarks to me every day. He'd tell me that my mothering sucks, that I am fat, that I will never be anything, etc. God, I hate him so much some times!

So, they advised me to do a few things, which I already began working on.

#1 ~ Go buy Melatonin (a natural valium, if you will)

#2 ~ Buy some sparkling waters, good cheeses, gourmet soups, etc. (an evening treat, if you will)

#3 ~ Sign up for Yoga classes (I'll work on that tomorrow)

I'm on my way. I'm going to do everything in my power to make these items work for me.

Jeanie · 02-01-2005, 11:51 PM

I just want to say that I think you are an awesome Mom. I have seen so many times how much you love your kids. They're lucky to have you!!
You are an awesome person with so much to give. Isn't it funny how everyone else can see that, but you. It's weird how we refuse to see the good in us, but don't have any problems seeing the bad. Hang in their girlfriend, and remeber that there is a lot of people that love you just the way you are. With or without flaws.