Lisa's Story - Page 41 - ThinnerTimes

LisaBoston · 04-03-2007, 03:05 PM

Post # 397, if you are reading this is what I am referring to.

Thanks to you all. Reading back at my post today, it all sounds really sad - but really its not all that bad...more so emotional and dealing with a pissy pouch with it.

Jen, I agree, I call all you here my friends. And in many ways we have so much in common, deal with a lot of the same issues, but I know that doing this online is so much easier for me....I feel that if I had to do it in person, it wouldn't work. Very hard to put into words....cause if you could see me, you would NEVER know that I felt this way....I am very outgoing, in the public eys, its just my personal stuff that I struggle with.

LisaBoston · 04-04-2007, 02:46 PM

Back in March, I wrote of an award ceremony that I went to in Vancouver. The picture and DVD of the event just arrived today. Here is the picture...I almost don't recognize myself. I am the one on the left!

CeeCee · 04-04-2007, 03:29 PM

Love that polka dot dress! Would you think me really wierd if I told you that you have a really nicely-shaped mouth? Not a come-on I swear, but it does seem to be made for smiling. I bet you're the kind of person that little old ladies take a shine to when you in the store- you have such a nice face. Of course, I want your figure when I grow up...

LisaBoston · 04-04-2007, 03:50 PM

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Originally Posted by CeeCee

Love that polka dot dress! Would you think me really wierd if I told you that you have a really nicely-shaped mouth? Not a come-on I swear, but it does seem to be made for smiling. I bet you're the kind of person that little old ladies take a shine to when you in the store- you have such a nice face. Of course, I want your figure when I grow up...

Oh how sweet.....thank you. A lot of people talk about my lips and mouth - my hairdresser always comments on that and my nails. I didn't smile in the picture as much as I could have..oh well.

My figure.......OH MY......NOBODY, and I mean NOBODY has EVER said they want my figure.........You are good for my ego!

Princess · 04-04-2007, 05:50 PM

Looking fabulous Lisa, I call dibs on the square shoulders (tell you are a swimmer!) I think my tits are so big they pull my shoulders down!!! Hopefully I will get back to at the most a DD once I get down in weight!

MiladyB · 04-04-2007, 09:11 PM

Lisa, I do understand the reaction your pouch gives you to stress. Mine is much the same way. Not quite as excessive but it sure doesn't want me to eat. I find my appetite goes out the window, nothing tastes good and all food sits heavy and hurts. I don't necessarily feel as if I'm dumping but my pouch is grumpy. I find this reaction more if I'm worried about something, when I feel like I'm full of knots inside.

Now melancholy feelings tend to send me to food. That's when I want to graze. Unfortunately that's the direction my emotions are sending me today.

Just know, I'm here and thinking about you. We can get through this together.

ajmoe · 04-04-2007, 11:37 PM

Lisa, I agree with Beth. Stress makes my pouch tighten up and not want to let anything in but melancholy and boredom have my mind wanting to graze all day. Who knows why the difference. Before surgery stress had me running to the fridge.
I hope things are better for you today.
The award picture looks great. you really do look amazing.
I understand the friend issue as well. I have only had a few friends over my lifetime. Only a couple that I still keep in contact with. I guess for me I always felt that I was not worth others time and found it hard to make friends and/or keep them for very long. Sometimes it is lonely but I have my family and for now that is enough.

I applaud you for putting your thoughts on line. That is a huge step and I don't think they will come back to haunt you.

CeeCee · 04-05-2007, 09:59 AM

Lisa, I'm still learning soooooo much from you "old-timers"! It never occurred to me that the stomachache/soreness I had all day yesterday was from stress, but I'll bet it was! (Spent the day arguing about a procedure- when you work for a huge multi-national co., this can be a David & Goliath sort of thing!)
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I hope your mother-i-law is comfortable; I'm sure the doctors are doing their best. Your family is in my prayers.
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Friends- the best ones are the ones who don't give you guilt because you don't call or write. If you haven't spoken in several months, you still just pick up from where you left off. Even if you haven't spoken to this friend in a couple months, if you called them at 3 am and just said "I need you", they would likely be on your doorstep at dawn with breakfast and some coffee! My best friend is going to be my Maid of Honor in Oct. I haven't talked to her, except for a couple quick emails, since the Fall. She doesn't even know about my surgery! (Boy, will she be suprised!) She was on the list I left on the kitchen table though, the horrible "just-in-case-list"! I'm thinking if you called a couple peeps from this forum they would show up before dawn, and with Starbucks! You have more friends than you think you do!

rivercanyon · 04-05-2007, 01:37 PM

Lisa I have a little bit of catching up here to do.

So happy for you with your lifeguard testing. I too could feel the excitement in your post. To not have to worry about your weight and what others are thinking what a wow moment in itself. You go girl!!!!!! All the bumps and bruised knees are worth it.

Friends - At times I wish I had a ton of friends. There are times even now when I feel so left out and alone. (Living 30 miles from town doesn't help either) But the few friends I have are so wonderful and like CeeCee said I don't have to talk to them all the time but when I need them they are there. You have made many friends on this board and like was said if you needed us we would be there just as fast as we could get there.

The award picture looks incredible. You look amazing Lisa!!!!! The smile on your face says it all.

Hang in there with the stress. I find that family can cause so much stress. At times it is good that I live as far away as I do. I couldn't handle the day to day stress.

Looking forward to June. Very excited for you and looking forward to seeing you.

Hang in there girl!!!!!

LisaBoston · 04-09-2007, 12:13 PM

I feel so normal...this is good and scary at the same time. Made a steak, potato, coleslaw, mushroom, asperagus Easter dinner. I had my boss over and he commented that it looked like I was eating like a normal person. Ohhh thats scary.

I have stayed at the same weight of 170, +/- 2 pounds for about 2 weeks or more now. I am fine with that. I get on the scale everyday now, it may be obsessive, but I am ok with that too.

I kicked up my walking again this past 3 days..it feels good, although the dog might say otherwise. My husbands knee is really bothering him, so when I walk with him and our daughter, we take it slower - but its good family time.

I posted earlier in the week all the snow still here, and yesterday we had sun and melting of snow and it was so nice.

I took pics of my panni.....oh my.....its worse than I thought, good thing my surgery is in 6 weeks. I am getting more and more comfortable with it. Another patient of my doctors sent me pics of her panni done a week ago. Its really only the first week that scares me. I can't imagine going on with all this skin and flab. If you haven't experienced it yet, when the skin loosens simple things like getting into bed you hear flapping....yup its the skin...little did you know you would HEAR the results of your success.

Did a little shopping on the weekend. Not really trying on pant or shorts as waiting for the panni to be done. I was in Reitmans trying on some shirts. Picked out a nice maroon colored top that was clingy and tried on a xl and L and the Large fit better, but you could sure see the panni. The lady working in the store very nicely said that she could suggest a top that wasn't so clingy...(she is MO) I told her that I was having a tummy tuck in just over a month, so that area would be helped out. She said buy the top. I did. When leaving the dressing room area, she asked me if she minded asking me a question. She wanted to know how I lost the weight. I told her the truth. She is currently on the wait list with my surgeon and has 3+ years to wait. I chatting with her for a few mintues and it made me feel good to give her hope. Its not often that I run into people on a GBP list. How nice it would have been when I was going through the process to meet someone successful in their weight loss. Made both of us feel good.

I bought some 7 pound hand weights for home. Gave all my "weight loss" equipment and such years ago. I need to work on strengthening my arms at home. The cardio I can do outside or the gym, but look forward to working on my arms in the comfort of my own home.

BTW, the mother in law is still hanging on...she is a very tough cookie. I am happy with the fact her mind is not "with the program" so she doesn't have to realize what is happening to her. Things are shutting down and I am at peace with it.