We'll see how it goes - Page 5 - ThinnerTimes - Gastric Bypass Forum, Lap Band Forum, and Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy Forum

QueenB · 12-01-2005, 02:34 PM

Sorry I have been MIA for a couple of days, nothing new or exciting has come up

Still doing good, haven't gotten ill, walked 3 miles Monday and Wednesday and will again tomorrow I am sure. I am still doing 5 lbs weights on my arms 5 different moves, 4 sets of 15 with no resting in between. My shorts keep falling off, I find myself sticking my stomach out to hold them up, how ironic. I definitely see different changes in my body compared to when I lost weight on my own without the tool. It is coming off faster in places I am used to seeing slower results and slower in places I am used to seeing quick results. It's hard. I thought for sure my breasts would stick out farther than my gut now but it isn't happening like that.......my legs have gotten smaller but I am convinced it was all muscle because alot of my definition is gone

I will do measurements next week for my 1 month.

I feel like I am eating all the time, maybe I am? I can eat a couple of pieces of lunch meat (the small, pre-sliced, ultra thin ham) and a pickle slice and still feel hungry 1.5 hours later, I never ate this frequently before surgery. I was a breakfast lunch and dinner girl.......nothing in between. I really feelif I coudl NOT eat my weight loss would pick up but if I ignore the feeling I get shaky and feel unwell. Lets hope next month my head relaxes a little and not my pouch LOL

QueenB · 12-03-2005, 01:08 AM

So today I was getting in the shower and decided to mess with the one incision that still had a scab on it. This scab wasn't getting smaller, it was kind of spreading and it was sinking in to the scar area. I pushed beside the scab to see if the scar was getting hard and forming scar tissue and the scab popped up. I thought "yay, finally" then I noticed the hole under it BLECK! Nothing grose came out, it was kind of watery and a little white but there is a hole in my gut none the less. Kind of grosing me out just thinking about it. No pain, no fever and it's only a little red because I squished it to see if anything would come out......it only weeps so I will wait until tomorrow to leave a message for the NP. When I had my last c-section I had a massive infection and about 2+ inches of my incision ruptured and the nastiest snot came out so I know I am looking good so far. I have it covered with guaze and a band aid, just hope it stays on overnight.....kind of a strange place for a band aid LOL

I knew how perfect everything was going was a little too good to be true

Knocking on wood again now!

Went out to dinner with DH tonight. I had some sort of grilled chicken sanwich. I lost the bread and ate the chicken breast with melted cheese on it.....about 1/3 of it and a pickle (YUMMM!! PICKLES) oh yea and I picked apart a cheese stick too. I asked Dh, "did I eat too much?" and he said it didn't look like it

I can't imagine asking that before surgery with how much I left behind but it is still on my mind.......am I destined to be the fat chick? AM I out eating the surgery? I ate an entire hard boiled egg and a string cheese with NO problem today at one sitting, people have said they can't even eat 1/2 of a scrambled egg and I ate a whole one and then something else.....I must be screwing this up! HAVE TO BE!

I know, I know *stop comparing* but I can't help it....I need an intervention I swear

Well I managed to walk 3 miles on Mon, Wed and Fri but I know I need to add more weights and stuff. I am not ready yet. I am having trouble sleeping, having strange dreams and going to bed late (because I don't feel tired) and not sleeping until I have to get up becuase of restlessness....so even just the walking sends me off to a nap. I can't imagine what weight training would do to me.

I go to the Dr's in a week for my 1 month.......I hope I am down to 210, that is only 10 lbs in 2.5 weeks. Sounds kind of SLOW to me but I will take what I can get now. I am going to start writing down everything I eat. that way when I go to the Dr. they can tell me what, if anything, I am doing wrong.

Going to bed now and hopefully the kiddo's wont be waking me up at the butcrackofdawn-thirty because I am feeling the need to SLEEP GOOD!

lealphachienne · 12-03-2005, 08:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by QueenB

[COLOR="SeaGreen"]I I ate an entire hard boiled egg and a string cheese with NO problem today at one sitting, people have said they can't even eat 1/2 of a scrambled egg and I ate a whole one and then something else.....I must be screwing this up! HAVE TO BE!

COLOR]

No your not! One large egg only has 70 calories, so it's pretty darn hard too eat too many of those. I found the texture easier to digest in hard boiled form vs. scrambled. As for the whole weight loss thing...you're on track. The less you have to lose, the "slower" it seems. It hasn't even been a month...give yourself some time to adjust and your body to heal. BTW, I "only" lost 1-2 lbs a week and look at me now

QueenB · 12-03-2005, 01:59 PM

Oh I could {{{{squish}}}} you Marie...you said just what I needed to hear, and you are right: look at you now you itty bitty thing

I just heard about an old friend who has lost 130lbs in 5 1/2 months with WLS. I guess that got me to thinking that 10lbs a month is a little slow since this person was losing between 25 and 30 But I believe she started in the 300's so as frustrating as it is I will have to learn to be a "slow loser" (wow, being slow is one thing and being a loser is another but both together is pretty depressing

)

I am off to nap there is a wonderful parade tonight in Fallbrook and I looking forward to being rested for it.

QueenB · 12-04-2005, 12:40 PM

I am down to 210 this morning

You know I find myself thinking it's not such a big deal to get down to these weights because I have been much thinner before. I weighed 202 when I got PG with my last daughter almost 3 years ago. When I got pregnant with my 5 year old I weighed 169....I keep thinking it isn't really progress until I am lower than that. But the truth is I am not sure I even want to get lower than that.......I probably will but I distinctly remember being told by my husband that I was 'bony' just before getting PG when I weighed 169. Unfortunately I hurt my back when I was about 2 months pregnant, had to leave my job, stop rollerblading, quit kickboxing and I gained 50 lbs

I got back down to about 185 before I got PG with my 3 year old and I gained between 50 and 60 lbs getting back down to 202 before I ended up PG the last time. The funny thing is after my first son I lost 20 extra lbs?? I started at 189 gained 30 and then dropped down to 169 before getting PG again. It is so weird how that happens and each time I was greatful for losing ANY of the weight I gained.

My boy shave really been woking me lately. I think the stress fromthe two of them is helpingt he weight comeoff. They are at eachothers throat and mouthy as all hell....must get that form daddy LOL Once they are in trouble they ban together like best friends and Iend up the bad, horrible, hateful Mom. Kaden (10) wrote me a letter explaining how he and Logan (5) were "on to me", that I was making them get in trouble so I could spend all my money on the girls Christmas pressents and the boys would get nothing.....They seriously think I was just being mean to spite them pressents NOT because I found their closet full of things that they were supposed to clean, NOT because I found a pile of clean clothes under the rocking chair in their room and another pile of dirty ones under Kaden's bathrobe. Nope had NOTHING to do with that, I just don't want them to have a nice X-mas ????? The logic ay? I called my Mom and vented, she laughed but atleast I didn't string them up and beat them like pinatas LOL

Well my Lili (3) is waiting for me to get out the Christmas Deco's and I am off to forrige throughthe closet to find them for her. She has been so patient-even as excited as she is! I, however, am not as thrilled about the boxes and boxes I am going to have to take out and dig through

Plus I always get sick from all the dust

But I think we need more than Christmas music to make the season "real".

210 WOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!!!

Jeanie · 12-04-2005, 10:55 PM

Kids are SO funny. I love the fact that your son wrote you a letter. That's great. You should keep it so when he has kids that drive him crazy you can give him that letter. I'm sure he will get a kick out of it when he is older.
Congrats on the 210. Keep up the good work!!

QueenB · 12-06-2005, 09:11 AM

I forgot to say how the parade was this weekend: it was nice, just like the 4th if July parades I remmber from when I was little.....the whole town was in it LOL The kids had fun, filled up on candy that was thrown from floats or passed out to them and home made cookies. I think next year I will bake a bunch of cookies and sell them 2 for $1......100 cookies can bring in 50 buck. It was cold and because it lasted for 1 1/5 hours the standing on one place did a job on my back but the family, even DH, was there so it was a GREAT time. We had dinner at my moms, American Chop Suey.......I did fine picking out the meat and eating that first then having a couple bites of pasta after.

Sunday I got my period, I ws aware of how it can change after WLS and get pretty nasty but Monday I was fine. I walked the 3 miles I normally walk with my parents alone so I made really good time but also wore myself down pretty quick. I napped for about an hour with the kids and then left for another walk. I felt good most fo the time just a cramp heer and there but nothing lasting. I thought I had escaped that unwanted side effect too...yeah, NOT SO MUCH! I woke up at 2:00am with the most miserable cramps ever. They were bad worse than I had in HS. ***TMI WARNING*** I passed something that looked more like afterbirth than something from my menstral cycle. I have to admit that after that happened I felt much better and got to get back to bed around 3am. I hope that is the end of that. YUCK and OUCH!

Tomorrow I will take my 1 month pics and do my one month measurements. I hope by Thursday to be under 210 even 209 but UNDER 210. I see Dr. Mueller and my PCP so it will be a full day. In beween the two appointments I have a few hours so I will try to get in some errands and shopping while my Mom is with the kids. She isn't happy about having to be here all day but she'll get over it.

Ava's 2nd birthday party is on Friday. I am so far behing in any kind of shopping that I haven't even thought of a gift for her yet. And to think I used to be doen soem time in October and just cruise the rest of the season enjoying everyone else scurrying around finding gifts last minute. Now that is me UGH! Today I will hopefully get my mail of to Australia and then sit down with my list and see what I have to get who to be DONE!

QueenB · 12-12-2005, 12:39 AM

I am now one month and 4 days out....I took pictures but got side tracked with measurements. Life isn't slowing down any. Friday was Ava's part and ALL of my friends cancelled last minute, broke my heart--I was so angry and sad. Then Saturday night was Old Poway Park's Christmas. We did so much but didn't even get to ride the train...the line was so long. We had dinner at the Hamburger Factory, I definitely ate too much cheese from the mozzarella stikcs before my dinner came. I only ate a bit of 1/4 club sandwich. Tonight was the Parade of Lights on the Bay then pizza with the family. I can't believe I am still awake.

Now lets talk about the amount of pills I am taking. I am taking 3 childrens chewable vitamins with iron, 2 more iron pills (and a SF chewable fiber tablet or 2 to help with all that iron), 2 calcium, 2 pepcid, beta carrotene, vitimin b-1 and Leutine. Then B-12 weekly. I burp up vitamin taste all day.....and spacing out my iron and calcium-too much work! It is all worth it thought, I just really want to be healthy.

Next is emotions.......man have I been mean lately. Really mean! I just can't stand anyone anymore. Everything my husband does pisses me off, even his yawning scratched at my last nerve. I cry at the drop of a hat (and I am not normally a crier) and my kids seem to have forgot all their manners. They are lucky I haven't sent them all to private boarding schools. You'd think with Christmas being right around the corner they'd be on their best behavior but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! They are fighting like cats and dogs.....my boys may very well be getting NOTHING for Christmas. Something had better change and quick or I am going to be returning alot of goodies and buying myself a GC to the mall! It's B*A*D. I think my oldest is starting the early stages of puberty cuz he is where most of the problem stem from....his interractions with his little brother and his attitude to me.......he cries more than I do and he hasn't been like that in years. I am so not ready for this**pulling hair out**

I am tired and I know I am not going to get any time to myself any time soon. I need to find a trusted babysitter but paying somone to stay with my kids leaves me without money to do anything so what is the point? Besides, how much do you pay someone to watch 4 kids? Do you pay a flat rate or hourly? I just don't know, you know? Now being as tired as I am you would think I would be in bed, right? Nope. I have to be so dead tired when I get into bed or else I can't fall asleep and then I am restless during the night. The only time I feel like I am getting good sleep is when the alarm is going off in the morning LOL. I take naps from sheer exhaustion around 1pm but I can't fall asleep for what seems like forever then the next thing I know someone is rubbing my heading asking if nap time is over yet. I get up so frustrated from NOT sleeping that I drag the kids on walks so I can't sit around feeling tired. I think I will resolve to take some Tylenol PM before bed starting tomorrow......it's too late tonight.

On top of allthat I feel fat, HUGE, enormous! For the first few weeks I was like look at me I am skiiiiiiiiiiiiineeeeeeeeee but that wore off and now I am feeling large again. I just got over my period and I feel more bloated than before

I haven't lost weight in forever and I can eat bunches and bunches of food compared to some of the people I have read about on here. My nutritionalist asked if I can eat a tbsp at meals yet and I was like *you're kidding right?* People I can eat a half a cup (or atleast it seems ) and easily. I also feel like I am always eating. Here is a normal day for me:

7:45 16oz herbal decaf tea with 1scoop protein powder (pepcid, vitamin, iron)
*water till 10:00
10:30 1 hard boiled egg, 3/4 oz cheese, maybe a cracker
11:45 16oz herbal decaf tea
*water till 12:45 (calcium)
1:15 1/2 oz lunch meat, string cheese
3:00 or 4:00-ish some soy crisps (calcium)
*water till before 6:00
6:30 dinner some sort of protein and a vegtable (vitamin)
*water and/or 16oz herbal decaf tea with 1 scoop protein powder

(pepcid,vitamin, iron, leutine, B-1, beta carrotene)

9:00 Maybe a late snack like a SF fudgcicle or some RF tortillas with a smear of cream cheese.
---usually off to bed between 11-midnight.

I am always eating or planning to eat UGH!

I usually manage to get in 48-64oz of the herbal decaf tea and atleast 1.5 liters of water in a day but I still always feel parched. Any suggestions? It is kind of irritations (as is everything in my life these days with the wonderful hormonal floods I have been experiencing HA!)

Now that I have rambled about nearly everythig I am off to bed, hopefully to sleep

One month down 35lbs

justawoman · 12-12-2005, 05:26 AM

Morning Britt,

I know my emotions have been on high wire lately as well. I had a huge fight with my mom, we never fight. My kids as well have been driving bonkers. Like you everything my husband says or does is driving me bonkers. Last night I wanted to pack up and just run away. I think it is stress and hormones. Just my opinion.

On the food topic. I would switch with you in a heart beat. I wish I could all those things you eat. I am 4 weeks out and still can barely eat.

I spend my whole day trying to find something to eat or thinking about what I can eat. I barely have an appetite. I eat on saltine cracker and I am full or feeling poopy. My life has been revolved around food. I don't eat dinner with the family, which makes the kids sad as food just doesn't even look good to me. My doctor says I will get over it and my appetite will return, but when is the question. It is soooo frustrating. Sounds to me your doing wonderful...Wish I was doing as good as you

QueenB · 12-12-2005, 01:45 PM

Girl....We weigh about the same and you started heavier than me and you are a week behind me. My surgery was the 7th. My weight loss is going to be slower because I can eat EVERYTHING (and I do mean EVERYTHNG!!!!!) Not what my goal was....I would like to lose at a decent pace not a pound every other week

I know it's better for my body to lose slower and to be nouriched along the way but it is definitely more frustrating........and I am only a month out. I was hoping to be down to about 175 by May which isn't too drastic but at this rate it may take me a year ARGH!!!