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Shetaz0028 · 11-04-2009, 05:55 AM

Its another adjust time.

I have started looking at the daily plate and fit day but, am confused by them. For example for dinner last night I made 3oz home stewed pinto beans, cooked in stewed tomatoes, water, peper, onion, and green pepers. I added a tablespoon of Anywhey protein, 1/2oz sharp Sargento reduced fat cheddar cheese, a little lettuce, fresh tomato, and cilantro. The final amount weighed in at 3.7oz. I know the numbers are good for this but, I only got in .82oz before I was full. I know I am not getting the cals I need in espically with upping my workouts but, I just can not get anymore in there. I have pushed myself saying I'm going to eat this 1oz of tuna no matter what and of course that hurt like a hot poker in the eye.

I have been really good with my vits, water, and protein drinks so I know those are good. I just can not get those cals in. It's still so bizzar to me to think that I am not eating enough. I know this is why I started my first real stall I think. When I weighed in on Sunday I was at 159.2 and I was still there when I snuck on the scale this morning. I knew it was coming and I got it later than most. But, I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO want to hit that 50lbs gone mark. 3 more lbs and I'll be half way there.

I have been morning food the last week. Not the fast food crap that I used to eat but, the raw veggies. I went out to lunch with the girls yesterday and sat there with my grilled breast and mushy squash

. I soooooo wanted the salads they had. Loaded with alfafa sprouts, broccoli, coliflower, radish, carrots, celery, cucumber, mushrooms. mmmmmmmmmm

I have had to change the way I shop at the grocery store. I can not go into the produce isle at all anymore. The only things I am allowed out of there are non citris fruit, and lettuce. Not even good lettuce but, ice burg.

But, come New Years I can have the raw veggies again. Hubbybubby will make his manudo and I'll pass it this year. I will have a salad though and my beloved artichoke. Minus the butter dip.

BrandnewMe · 11-04-2009, 07:22 AM

I miss salads too! Raw carrots especially but I'm not ready to go testing the tiny tummy in that respect yet. Still getting used to what is supposed to be the 'easy' foods.

It's coming though! New Years will be here before you know it.

Shetaz0028 · 11-11-2009, 08:07 AM

I'm not sure if it's stress or that I cursed myself but, lil brattybutt pouchy is NOT happy today.

I'm not ejecting anything but, I feel really wonky after my sips of water. My breakfast of a hard boiled egg is just sitting there like a lead weight and really hurts.

I'm stressed because of a new project at work that I can not get proper direction on. I had someone here to do training a couple of weeks ago but, she did everything and went through it so fast that none of it made sense. The process notes she left are either wrong, or have major points left out. Of course that means that I am doing it wrong so I am getting yelled at by her and her boss.

I am ashamed to say that I have given these people the power to make me feel less than I am. I am really questioning my competency these days and wonder how in the world I manage to dress myself without a helmet or the geranimal tags. This whole project makes me feel really stupid and I am starting to wonder if I should quit so someone with a brain can have a job.

This lack of confidence is of course having an impact on the family life and marrage. Hubbybubby gets really frustrated with me when I put myself down but, how can I not when I can not get a part released from inventory. Work just really sux these days. Thankfully I am the only one in the office because I have been hysterically crying almost hourly this week. No matter how hard I try to put a positive spin on things and look at those wonderful things I have it's just not working.

Stock tip: Buy stock in Kleenex I'm using tons of it these days.

Highlandlass · 11-11-2009, 08:47 AM

Hey you, stop it, stop it right now!!!! Learning any new programs is not an easy thing. People come in and train you like they only have a few minutes in their busy schedule to put aside for you and, it is possible, that a key point was left out. Get the trainer back if you have to, but don't under any circumstances let them get to you, and don't be thinking about quitting either. Tears of frustration are normal but they can also get in the way and cloud your brain. When you feel like its just getting to be too much, take a quick walk, stop, breath, thinK of something wonderful, clear your mind and then return. I remember trying to learn new computer programs and being stuck, then trying, in a tight timeline to get payroll done and not being able to do it. I would walk down to the pool at the school where I worked and watch the kids having their swim lessons. It helped to calm me and then when I returned I would call the trng. dept. and have them go through it with me again. Before I knew it people were calling me for help when they were stuck.
You are probably having a little brain fart - just let it go and call for more help and, I bet, you'll soon be doing it with your eyes shut! Smile kiddo - hope the egg passes and your wee pouchie begins to feel better. Hope I didn't sound too harsh - love you Shetaz!!! I need an update when you feel up to it! SMILE!

BrandnewMe · 11-11-2009, 09:02 AM

HELLO??!! Tummy doesn't like stress... you are stressed at work so that's why you aren't feeling well dear! I totally understand because I've been having these issues with TiTu (my TinyTummy) because of stressors in my family situation and the finalization of my divorce (after almost 3 years of separation) this Friday.

I don't have a magic answer for you my tiny friend but I do understand what's going on with you. If you can step away and get in a walk, then maybe you can tackle work again with a better perspective. It sounds to me like whomever trained you should have done a better job. How was she towards you when she was training you?

Hang in there dear! It will get better but treat your tummy the best you can till then. I believe Corrine recommends Papaya Enzymes when the tummy is upset, could you try that?

I'll be thinking of you!

Shetaz0028 · 11-16-2009, 06:06 AM

LOL....I love you girls to pieces ya know that.

I got the program down pat now. The trainer streamlined my page and "forgot" to put in the "inventory adjustment" option. DUH. The manager fully understood when he saw my screen and got it added. Now, everythings smooth as silk in that department.

I'm still in kind of a funk. It's just the holidays and I'm always down this time of year. It's so funny to think that a good work out really helps with those feelings. I got into a movie at the gym yesterday and before I knew it I had done an hour on the eleptical at level 3. Boy howdy am I feeling it today.

My scale revealed 153 yesterday which I have no idea when the last time was that I weighed that. I know the scale is going down and my measurements are going down. My cloths are getting smaller but, when I look at myself I still see that moo cow super mondo huge slug.

I also found a couple of t-shirts I had picked up for my daddy. As soon as I found them I thought I need to call daddy and let him know I'll send em out tomorrow then I remembered that he's gone. I still can not bring myself to take his number out of my phones or delete his email from my address books.

On Thursday my daughter called at 10:30pm to inform me that she was with the police. Some girl that does not like my daughter keyed her car down the drivers side and dug the word "spic" into the hood. The girl that did it admitted it to the police but, most likely nothing will happen to her. We of course have to pay out of pocket to have it fixed and our insurance will pay anything over $500.00. The adjuster can not get out to us before Tuesday so, she has to drive around with that word on her car for the world to see. From talking to the police officer it sounds like the girl that did this will only get a little community service and that's it. Welcome to MA where you can get away with murder.

Highlandlass · 11-16-2009, 07:54 AM

Well, there you are!!!! I've been missing you a lot. So, I bet you were happy when you found out that in streamlining your page something was left out - see you weren't to blame. No wonder you couldn't work the program! I'm glad its all worked out and things are running smoothly now.
What a nasty thing to have happen to your daughter. That is just awful. I hate to hear about things like that but, sadly, it happens all too often these days and according to stats girls are becoming more vindictive and mean than boys. Look into a small claims suit to recoup the out of pocket expense for the deductible on your insurance. You might be able to go that route.
You are doing so well at the gym and its really showing on the scale. Its funny how our perception of ourself takes a while to change as we look in the mirror. I'm sure you are noticing all the benefits of the weight loss even if your eyes haven't adjusted to the new you.
Glad you are back!

BrandnewMe · 11-16-2009, 10:49 AM

I'm glad to hear things are better at work!

And sorry to hear about your daughter's car. It's frustrating when something so damaging to the psyche can barely be punished. Tell her to stay strong and remember that karma's a beech!

I can't remember when the scale read that either... 1990 I think! Can't wait to see it again though!! Keep up the good work my teeny tiny friend!!

Raeanne