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divinemommy · 10-15-2009, 02:48 PM

Jenn I am a newbie... logged on today found myself checking out the topic "but you have such a pretty face" how many times have I heard that...Girl, your posts have been addictive, I started from the beginning & haven't left my desk but 2 times today (rr breaks lol) for reading all of your adventures!!! most of which any girl big or small can relate too, man what a journey you have had, I love your candid honesty when telling about something, it really helped me understand somethings going on with me inside, even now while waiting to have my wls...what an inspiration (yes that is a little dorky) hee!

jenn75 · 10-20-2009, 02:18 PM

Hey, thanks all for the kind words and for reading my story. I had no idea I could provide such entertainment for others on here!

jenn75 · 10-20-2009, 02:32 PM

So, a few things. I started to get off of carbs/sugary foods. It was a struggle to do it this weekend - my friend had a party with lots of fabulous treats so I knew I couldn't start then, so I started yesterday. I am so hungry all of the time. I want something to munch on, but don't really have munchie things. I even bought tofu for the first time in a long time. It's not bad. I mixed it with some Indian food that comes in a box/pouch, then I made a stirfry with it last night. It's not fabulous but it's easy protein since chicken doesn't always agree with me (much to my dismay).

On the guy front: my situation with my friend with benefits has seemed to come to an end. I envisioned that I would be the one to end it, but it seems he's gotten busy with work and for whatever reason doesn't contact me anymore. Oh well. I think it might be because he saw that another guy texted me while he was over recently. Maybe he didn't, but I think he saw it the way my phone was sitting.

I'm really connecting with one guy. I'd have to read back and see if I wrote about him yet, but I'm too lazy (and sick today) to do so. We haven't met in person yet. We email each other multiple times a day, and well, we have the same birthday, he's just two years younger than me. We have quite a lot in common, including our sense of humor, etc. I don't want to get too excited, but I'm digging him a lot, and I think the same can be said about him with me. I feel like even typing this right now will completely jinx me.

jenn75 · 10-24-2009, 11:59 AM

So, I still don't want to say more about the guy I'm really hitting it off with, but let's just say we chatted online until 3am last night/this morning. We probably would've talked longer but we were both ready to fall asleep. We are going out next Saturday - he has his sons this weekend so we have to wait until next weekend (and has classes several nights during the week). Plus I suggested we meet up for lunch sometime since we both work downtown...he said it was a great idea. He's also just very attentive and communicative, and always tries to beat me to the first email of the day. He's just a sweet guy. And hilarious...we have the exact same sense of humor so we pretty much get everything each other says...which can be hard to do online sometimes. I literally laugh out loud sometimes at his emails and during chats.

I also got a text from my friend with benefits. He said he had a break at work and wanted to say hi. I really didn't care if he texted me again, it would be easier if he didn't since I may have to cut it off with him soon enough, but also in a way I do miss him, but I know he's not want I want and he won't give me what I want.

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On the weight side, I was thinking about how I rarely have migraines anymore. I hardly have to get my script filled for the Rx. I'm very grateful for this. It's also nice that since surgery I no longer have GERD or whatever my doc actually diagnosed me with last year. No more living off of Prilosec.

I like feeling my shoulders...well, specifically, the bones in my shoulders. I notice I sort of do it subconsciously, but then I sort of feel the outline of the bones there. I'm not used to them being boney. Also, here's one for ya...I can no longer close my legs completely symmetrical when I sleep on my side at night because the knee bones actually hurt when they're pressed against each other. I also noticed that my thighs barely touch each other when I walk. I just had that realization yesterday while walking downtown.

jenn75 · 10-24-2009, 07:17 PM

So, I decided to put all of my entries from this thread into a Word document so I can save it. It's been an interesting 10 months of my life, and I am glad I started this thread so I can go back and reflect on some things.

Aviator · 10-25-2009, 07:41 PM

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Originally Posted by jenn75

So, I decided to put all of my entries from this thread into a Word document so I can save it. It's been an interesting 10 months of my life, and I am glad I started this thread so I can go back and reflect on some things.

The blog is a good way to go back and look at yourself retrospectively, to see how spot on you were about this or that.
Really happy I did that too just before surgery.

jenn75 · 11-05-2009, 11:43 AM

Well folks, this is it...although I still feel weird about it. I have found a really great guy, and while it is still rather early, he is totally excited about me, and I am excited about him (although I'm holding back somewhat for now because I'm not used to someone actually giving a shit about me). I think there is a fine line that he is teetering on between being WAAAY to into me too soon, and just being excited about something new. I will give him the benefit of the doubt. And I have to take into account my own reservations in thinking that there's no way in hell someone would ever get that excited about meeting little ole me. We have a lot in common, even our birthday (he's two years younger than me though). We went out Saturday and I wasn't completely sure about my level of attraction to him. I kept him at a distance by being a smart ass the whole time, and since he's so capable of being one as well, that's how we spent most of our first date.

More to come...re: second date...I'm at work...be back later

Kymel · 11-05-2009, 12:04 PM

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Originally Posted by jenn75

Well folks, this is it...although I still feel weird about it. I have found a really great guy, and while it is still rather early, he is totally excited about me, and I am excited about him (although I'm holding back somewhat for now because I'm not used to someone actually giving a shit about me). I think there is a fine line that he is teetering on between being WAAAY to into me too soon, and just being excited about something new. I will give him the benefit of the doubt. And I have to take into account my own reservations in thinking that there's no way in hell someone would ever get that excited about meeting little ole me. We have a lot in common, even our birthday (he's two years younger than me though). We went out Saturday and I wasn't completely sure about my level of attraction to him. I kept him at a distance by being a smart ass the whole time, and since he's so capable of being one as well, that's how we spent most of our first date.

More to come...re: second date...I'm at work...be back later

Woo Hoo!!!!

jerseygrl684 · 11-05-2009, 12:11 PM

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Originally Posted by jenn75

Well folks, this is it...although I still feel weird about it. I have found a really great guy, and while it is still rather early, he is totally excited about me, and I am excited about him (although I'm holding back somewhat for now because I'm not used to someone actually giving a shit about me). I think there is a fine line that he is teetering on between being WAAAY to into me too soon, and just being excited about something new. I will give him the benefit of the doubt. And I have to take into account my own reservations in thinking that there's no way in hell someone would ever get that excited about meeting little ole me. We have a lot in common, even our birthday (he's two years younger than me though). We went out Saturday and I wasn't completely sure about my level of attraction to him. I kept him at a distance by being a smart ass the whole time, and since he's so capable of being one as well, that's how we spent most of our first date.

More to come...re: second date...I'm at work...be back later

Aw, you seem genuinely excited. Tell us about himmmm.. What did you do on saturday, what's your second date going to be like?

I love hearing your date stories, reminds me of last year, before I met the pain in the ass im dating now. *sigh*

jenn75 · 11-06-2009, 02:23 PM

Well, just as quickly as we hit it off, just as quickly I realized I really don't have an attraction to him. I tried...I tried convincing myself that I was attracted to him as more than friends, but trying to convince yourself doesn't seem too natural, now does it? I actually had lunch with him on our birthday - Wednesday. He had flowers sent to my office, then gave me a DVD of my favorite TV show when we met for lunch. He walked me back to my office building and I hugged and kissed him. I mean, the guy is great, romantic, communicative, funny.

Then we went out to dinner yesterday. He drove me home from work and he even took my dogs out while I cleaned up dog puke in the bedroom. We had dinner then watched TV at my place. The whole time I was around him, I just couldn't think of him as anything beyond a friend. I notice that I was sort of keeping him at a distance, and I also noticed I wasn't myself...like trying to attract him and get his attention. I just didn't feel like this was a romantic connection in the works. I was so disappointed in myself. But what can you do? I couldn't force an attraction. I mean, he's not ugly...but just different...he has a very small stature and I sort of feel like a giant compared to him. We had more of an advanced kiss when he left last night, and I didn't feel a thing.

I was so upset. I mean, it all seemed so effortless with him. But I can't deny how I feel, and I can't hide it. So I told him I was concerned that I wasn't feeling that spark. I wasn't saying that that was it for us, just that I was sort of wanting to keep it on a friends level at this point in time. He was very understanding and appreciated my honesty with him and with myself.

I know I shouldn't beat myself up, but it really did seem so great. Why do I have to go and throw a wrench into it??????

OH, and ALSO, he wrote me an email after he got home last night, telling me how he wants to rearrange his classes next semester so that he can spend more time with me...he works full-time and goes to classes in the evenings. I was really overwhelmed by him sayign that. I mean honestly it would've been soemthing I would've thought if I were in his shoes...back when I had little self-esteem, however I would've never told the person I was thinking that. I really was just upset that he was already making plans to change his life around for me...as flattering as that may seem, it was just a little too soon to be thinking of that.