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Vim&Vigour · 07-04-2008, 02:30 AM

Keep strong Kelly,
You'll lead by example to you little one - this is all character building and immensely trying but you have a CHOICE and seem to be taking it! Well done you!
Cheers,
Vim

kellyMASS · 07-04-2008, 08:37 PM

So I woke up today and went off to the parade with my best friend and her kids.We had a great time! After the parade we brought the kiddos to chuckie cheese.After that we went to a bbq.It was so much fun.I did so well not over eating and there was TONS of food.I even skipped desert.I stuck to protien and had a little tiny bit of the pasta salad it was even whole grain pasta!I feel good and my energy is up.I did have 2 drinks made with vodka and lite ocean spray which only has 5 carbs per serving.I am sooo ready for this surgery.

Still haven't heard from my dad.I stopped by his house today and the door was locked and he didnt answer.It is still in the back of my mind but I did not let it ruin my day.

Last night I went to a drum and bugle corps show.It was awesome.I miss those days so bad.I am thinking of trying to get involved when the baby gets a bit older.I have decided that I am going to start playing again.I always used my insturment as my outlet and i need that back.

I have to work tomorrow and I am sure it will be busy because when people get drunk and stupid they often ruin their cell phones lol.... Should be a busy day.Goodnight all

Vim&Vigour · 07-05-2008, 02:56 AM

Sounds like you have a good handle on your present life K!
Good for you and one small step at a time soon builds up to a long walk!
Keep well.
Cheers,
Vim

kellyMASS · 07-05-2008, 10:41 PM

Just another day....

Today was good.I woke up and went to work.Boring really...

I went and took the plates off the van, and cancelled my dad's cell phone.I am no longer going to be an enabeler.I feel good.Bad but good.I know that I can get through this.I have also been losing weight and that feels great.I have been eating well and have added alot more excersize.Maybe I will become a gym rat.

Goodnight for now.

Vim&Vigour · 07-06-2008, 02:11 AM

Well done Kelly. Though, Love hurts! You have done it for your Father's safety and your own well-being (in time to come!).
The process of this weight loss seems to me to offer "empowerment". The feeling gets stronger the more you are able to achieve and gives a real sense of getting things done and "going places"
Hope today is another good day for you!
Cheers,
Vim

Angel~in~KY · 07-06-2008, 02:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by kellyMASS

Just another day....

Today was good.I woke up and went to work.Boring really...

I went and took the plates off the van, and cancelled my dad's cell phone.I am no longer going to be an enabeler.I feel good.Bad but good.I know that I can get through this.I have also been losing weight and that feels great.I have been eating well and have added alot more excersize.Maybe I will become a gym rat.

Goodnight for now.

This is an excellent start but it will probably get much harder before it gets easier. If you can manage a therapist to talk to regularly I think that would help you so much. Please do take care of yourself first, because no one else will do that for you. Also, it is less difficult to deal with the stress that this boundary setting is going to bring if you are as well nourished and physically healthy as possible. Exercise would be a great tool to use to deal with this stress!

Also, as I said, if you need to talk PM me.

kellyMASS · 07-06-2008, 09:12 PM

Had a nice day off.We set up pool in the back yard for the kids.It was good excersize.I had kinda a crappy eating day.Its not that I ate the wrong stuff but I ate too much.I dont know why I continue to eat when I am not hungry.It is stupid really.Today dh made a wonderful crab meat stif fry loaded with veggies and I had that for lunch.Then my gram cooked swordfish for dinner. I felt obligated to eat it even though I wasnt really hungry.I guess I felt bad because fish is expensive.I feel weighted down now.Hate it when I do that.I feel so good when I just eat what I need to fuel myself.Well tomorrow is a new day.

Nothing new on the dad story.He has no way to get in touch with me now that I have turned his phone off.He didnt even call and say anything about the plates being gone from the van.I think your right Angel I do need someone to talk to about all this.I guess its easier to come on here and talk to you guys then to actually make appointments with some stranger.Tomorrow I am going to start trying to find a rehab that will take him.If I dont at least try and something happens to him I will feel responsible.I know I shouldnt but I will.

Love,

Kelly

kellyMASS · 07-09-2008, 09:27 PM

Today is my day off.I had a pretty good day.I went and ran all of my errands.FUN FUN... I had my best friend and her three kids over for swimming.Her son is 3 and my daughter is almost 2 so they play really well together and had fun.
I have been struggling a bit with DH.It seems like we never have any time together.He gets out of work at 2 and I work until 6 so by the time I get home and settled he is going to bed.It really sucks.He is considering switching jobs for us to have more time together.I guess I am just feeling lonely.He has been so cranky lately.I realize that he gets up at 430 am and works in the heat all day.I would figure he would be happy to be home.I have been eating right and excercizing and even started playing my trumpet again.I feel like when I am doing well it makes him insecure.I know it is a natural thing couples go through with this surgery but it is hard to navigate right now.I am just trying my best to stay on an even keel.
Still have not heard from my father.It sucks.The worst thing about it is that I had to tell my lil sister (11) what is going on.She balled her eyes out.She has been through so much and I didnt want to tell her what was going on with him because I really went up to bat for him with her.She was just starting to trust him again.Still have not found a rehab that will take him because he is methadone dependent.They want to weene(sp??) him outpatient which will never work.I want to help him but my energy and tolerance for him has run out.It sucks.
All and all I feel great.Havent been weighing but I am noticing that my belly is getting farther away from the steering wheele.That feels good.I even had to move the seat up today! Thanks for being there guys I would be lost without you all.

Vim&Vigour · 07-09-2008, 11:13 PM

Kelly,
You have a plate and a dish full by reading things! I usually eliminate mental problems by writing lists for each topic and then being able to cross them off list, as I have dealt with matters, gives me an increased confidence and sense of achievement. In some ways that unburdens my mind.
Continued best wishes,
Vim

kellyMASS · 07-11-2008, 10:04 PM

Been having trouble sleeping early.I used to go to bed around 9 pm and lately it has been at leat midnight.I have no idea why.I think I am going to switch to excersize in the morning because I will probably get tired eariler.
Not much new going on.Still eating well.I did treat myself to some carb smart icecream though it was pretty good.I didnt over do it though so I was happy with myself.obla di obla da....

night all