Mistymee...aka Kel's story... - Page 28 - ThinnerTimes - Gastric Bypass Forum, Lap Band Forum, and Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy Forum

offstringgirl · 03-24-2009, 09:16 PM

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Originally Posted by mistymee

Having trouble .staying focused on eating right...

Nothing seems to make a difference in losing weight so why freakin' bother? I just don't care anymore. Hard to be supportive to others right now.. I see people that have zipped right past me that had their surgeries after me and I just feel jealous (and annoyed, to be perfectly honest)

Kel, what I've noticed for me is that eating doesn't make a difference in what the scale does. I can eat all good, and I can eat all bad, and my weight still stays the same. It's when I add in the exercise that really makes a difference. I have to be very deligent about it though. Meaning I will walk and ride my bike EVERY DAY, and then the scale will show a 3-4 pound loss. But if I don't do it everyday, then it doesn't do a whole lot. I have to sweat a lot in the process too. The more I sweat, the more I lose.

mistymee · 03-25-2009, 06:26 AM

It doesn't seem to make a difference whether I spend lots of time on my elliptical rider/ aerobic video or not.. nothing is budging from the 187 to 189 lbs...and my clothes are not getting smaller so I'm not losing inches either.

I'm just about ready to give up.. my body just will not budge from this weight. period.

LyndasRoom · 03-25-2009, 10:07 AM

Kel, Maybe it's time to focus on keeping that off! When I got to the point you are, I felt exactly the same...and over a bit of time some (10-15) pounds crept back on...when I realized what had happened, I got pissed, renewed vigilance, and am now back to where my initial loss stopped. I found I need to be okay with this, for now...I exercise like a fiend...eat like a normal person for the most part...and even if i'm super picky with my food, can drop a pound or too...but if I start with the deprivation, I'll wind up in the same cycle that landed me at 309 pounds. I TOTALLY get what you're feeling tho...more than you'll ever know. (((KEL)))

Katmar · 03-25-2009, 10:28 AM

Thanks for this post, Kel!
As a newbie, it is quite inspiring!
You are doing great!!!!

I am seeing a therapist who actually specializes in issues after gastric bypass (she had the surgery 11 years ago). I anticipate that after the surgery my entire relationship with food will change. I will no longer be for emotional reasons (such as conflict with the ex- yes I have them too

) but will need to use food as sustenence for life!

I am frightened by not being able to go get a big order of pasta or something from Burger King when I am stressed out or even for celebrations with friends and family, etc, but eating that way got me to where I am now!

My Lap RNY is scheduled for 4/28/09!!!!!
Thanks for your story- it helps me prepare for mine and I"m grateful to hear it!

Kathleen

Godsblessedme · 03-25-2009, 10:46 AM

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Nothing seems to make a difference in losing weight so why freakin' bother? I just don't care anymore. Hard to be supportive to others right now.. I see people that have zipped right past me that had their surgeries after me and I just feel jealous (and annoyed, to be perfectly honest)

Kelly i have tears in my eyes because i am in the EXACT same boat EXACTLY i get really jealous and pissed off that people that had their surgery after me have far surpassed me and it stings that when they post they are in their size 8's or what ever and here my fat ass sits in a 14-16 STILL i look at myself in the mirror and look pregnant still and i too excersize my butt off, spent 1500$ on a trainer (while living on welfare) and STILL NOTHING not one pound not one size not one nothing but tears. I feel your pain so much you have no idea! I think we probably went into GBS with HIGH hopes of loosing all our excess weight (at least i did) and to see it not come to pass it devastating. I will hold you up in prayer and you do the same, I feel like quitting all the time (you know i do) and somehow i'm stupid enough to think maybe one more try and it'll work pfst..... i'm just at a loss but wanted you to know how much i know your hurting, angry, jealous and at a loss on what to do. I feel you my friend...

mistymee · 03-25-2009, 02:37 PM

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Originally Posted by LyndasRoom

Kel, Maybe it's time to focus on keeping that off! When I got to the point you are, I felt exactly the same...and over a bit of time some (10-15) pounds crept back on...when I realized what had happened, I got pissed, renewed vigilance, and am now back to where my initial loss stopped. I found I need to be okay with this, for now...I exercise like a fiend...eat like a normal person for the most part...and even if i'm super picky with my food, can drop a pound or too...but if I start with the deprivation, I'll wind up in the same cycle that landed me at 309 pounds. I TOTALLY get what you're feeling tho...more than you'll ever know. (((KEL)))

How do you get to the point where your frustration and jealousy doesn't cause you to not want to support others going through the process? I read many of the threads but feel like I'm not successful enough to be helping, even if I weren't jealous of their success? And then there are some on here that seem to do all the wrong things and still drop weight like crazy... and those posts KILL me.. I am having a huge struggle with eating right... I keep forgetting to eat, mostly during the day.... all of a sudden it'll be 4:30 ish before I get hungry and realize it's too close to dinner and so I get a quick snack instead of a real lunch.. skipping meals is something that did put me into the 300+ range so I know this is not a good thing.. and then the snacks.. ugh.. why do all my new knitting friends all have chocolate and baked treats and whatnot? The other day someone had Lindt Chili chocolate.. OMG that stuff is to *die* for.. but the thing is.. it's not really worth *dying* for.. which is what will happen if I go 'back there'..you know? Rambling now,I know

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Originally Posted by Godsblessedme

Kelly i have tears in my eyes because i am in the EXACT same boat EXACTLY i get really jealous and pissed off that people that had their surgery after me have far surpassed me and it stings that when they post they are in their size 8's or what ever and here my fat ass sits in a 14-16 STILL i look at myself in the mirror and look pregnant still and i too excersize my butt off, spent 1500$ on a trainer (while living on welfare) and STILL NOTHING not one pound not one size not one nothing but tears. I feel your pain so much you have no idea! I think we probably went into GBS with HIGH hopes of loosing all our excess weight (at least i did) and to see it not come to pass it devastating. I will hold you up in prayer and you do the same, I feel like quitting all the time (you know i do) and somehow i'm stupid enough to think maybe one more try and it'll work pfst..... i'm just at a loss but wanted you to know how much i know your hurting, angry, jealous and at a loss on what to do. I feel you my friend...

I knew you could relate..I know I've lost more, but that's only cuz I started higher to start with.. we're now we're fairly similar in a weight range.. I think I'm shorter than you and I carry a good amount of the excess 50 lbs in my belly, thigh flaps and bat wings.. so even fully clothed I look like crap.

Geof never has anything but praise and love for me but my body totally depresses me.. I don't really care about the wrinkles and saggy boobs.. I just wish I looked someone 'normal' at least while dressed.. the hanging skin/fat belly can't be hidden, except in longer tops.. the thigh flaps/bat wings are even okay, if only that belly blop wasn't there

Kathleen, honey.. thanks for the support and I do hope that my thread has helped you somehow.. I am really sorry I'm wallowing in a pity party this week.. I seem to go through cycles and this is a down one for me. Normally, I'm usually able to push the down feeling aside and be more helpful... Good luck on your journey.

Corrine · 03-25-2009, 03:53 PM

Kel,

I wish I had some words of comfort and wisdom for you, but I don't.

Please - never lose sight of the fact that you have lost 130lb of FAT! That is an enormous achievement - that's a whole person.

If you can just keep that off, you'll have done a fantastic job with your WLS.

I don't blame you (and Deb's) for having down times. I can only imagine how I'd react in your position. Just know that we're always here for you both...hugs.

Godsblessedme · 03-25-2009, 04:26 PM

kel i dont know about you but i just realized that i've only lost 27 pounds in a year! WTH honest to God now i'm pissed!

Aviator · 03-27-2009, 06:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Godsblessedme

kel i dont know about you but i just realized that i've only lost 27 pounds in a year! WTH honest to God now i'm pissed!

...just look at your "before and after" photos. The difference is amazing, girl.
You look wonderful.

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Originally Posted by mistymee

Geof never has anything but praise and love for me but my body totally depresses me.. I don't really care about the wrinkles and saggy boobs.. I just wish I looked someone 'normal' at least while dressed.. the hanging skin/fat belly can't be hidden, except in longer tops.. the thigh flaps/bat wings are even okay, if only that belly blop wasn't there

Kel - look at what you have accomplished. You are an amazing transformation from your former self!. Dont lose sight of that.

mistymee · 03-27-2009, 09:53 PM

You guys & gals are the *best*.. thank you so much for being here to support me in my low moments. I really do try to keep them at bay.. some days it gets to me though.

On a positive note.. the scale did say 186 this am, LOL. (I didn't change the thing below as it wasn't the official weigh-in day!)

I'm off to NH & MA for the weekend.. daughter is competing this weekend for state championships and next weekend she'll be in Ohio for the World championships.. wish her luck. I'll be back Sunday evening something or other..