I've seen these posted and they remind me of mine over the years. I didn't have an online outlet after my RNY (wish I had!) but I really am happy to see this here. It puts a big smile on my face to read of others' "wow moments" and it takes me back to mine. So here are some that stand out:
Laying on the couch one day I was itching my belly through my jammies and I felt a big lump. A hard one. I panicked and kept rubbing it. Thinking of what body parts were in there. It took me almost five minutes to realize I was feeling my hipbone. FIVE MINUTES. And lo and behold there was another one on the other side! I smacked those bones with the flat of my hand over and over, amazed that I had them. I didn't remember them from decades ago and it was amazing.
Walking into a store and seeing myself in the glass door I stopped. I saw my narrow hips and how long and lean I looked. I stood there and a lady bumped into me. I really couldn't believe it was me and I didn't recognize me. That happened a few times and it still does occasionally. I look and a tiny part of me is still surprised. In the last year the surprise factor is gone. Now it's the "hey, this is ME" that I think. And it's very comforting. The fear of being the old me isn't there anymore. I'm me now and it's a big wow that isn't momentary.
Another one I still do. I pull out clothes at the store and figure they'll fit. I take them in the room and they bag on me. I can't believe smaller sizes are where I'm at. I'll even go down to a TOO small size, just to be sure I haven't wasted away. I haven't. But the numbers don't matter a bit. It's the size I see when I look at them on the rack. They just don't seem right.
My boyfriend folds my clothes and calls them "doll size" and I'm freaked a little. He sees them as the small size they are. I still don't a lot of the time. It's a mental thing, one from wearing 18/20 all the way up to 26/28 at one time. I used to fill a hanger with my jeans. now I hang two on one hanger to save space. Never knew that was an option before. But it saves space and I'm just kind of OCD organizational like that
My daughter borrowed some pants and they fit. I look at her and she's perfectly sized. I can't believe I look anything like that.
My boyfriend wraps his arms around me almost double or something. It's an amazing thing to have someone wrap you completely in their arms to the point they're own hands are back on their body. Very nurturing and intimate, and it makes me feel tiny. I never felt tiny before.
A coworker (didn't know me years before surgery) showed me an outfit online and said "you're so long and lean that this would look awesome on you." I looked at it and actually COULD see myself in that. And I never would have dreamt of it before. Never.
I hug my daughter and our arms go all the way around each other wrapped like an octopus. It's not just a "waist hug" from here anymore. I hug her and I feel how small I must feel too.
Its these and things like these that finally convinced my mind that my body is what it is now. It wasn't an overnight thing to realize this. But it did happen.
So those are some wow moments that many of you have had or are waiting to have, and I know you'll get a surge of pride in yourself and happiness in achieving your weight loss success for health and self-esteem. It's hard as hell to have a plate of food in front of me that I'd love to gobble, and if it weren't for my tiny tummy I WOULD gobble. But the tool keeps me from it and those times of resentment when I can't pig out are just part of the price to pay to "be skinny" as my b/f calls it. It's worth it. But damn if I still do wish I could eat a whole box of hot McDonald's fries!!!
Wow moments over last 5.5 years
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