Christina's Story - Page 3 - ThinnerTimes

Gladitsme · 04-01-2005, 10:01 AM

Christina,

You're an inspiration! Thanks for sharing and being yourself with us. I haven't met you in person, but I feel as if I know you. I'm the shy fat girl now. I'm going to try to come to the East County meeting this month, but honestly, I'm afraid I'll be the one that nobody likes. Funny how typing that makes it real for me. That's been my experience so much in life, and I want it to change.

Nancy

Christina · 04-01-2005, 10:28 AM

I'm just thankful that I have you guys to share this stuff with and I no longer have to bottle it in. Girl I am still pretty shy when it comes to meeting new people, I am still afraid. It's a learning process, and I am hoping that I am doing ok with it. I have been more social lately than I ever have.. and I get comments from my family about it all the time stating I am "never around anymore"

I feel safe with you guys, because you don't judge me and you have all in some way walked in my shoes, ya know? We've all been there, we understand each other.. we have a common bond.. just like with Lei .. even though she decided that right now was not the time for her to have surgery.. we still have this bond with her.. and we still need her around.. you don't have to have WLS to be one of us.. that is what is so wonderful about this group. We accept each other for who we are, and don't judge somoene for being who they are. Nancy, you're one of us.. why wouldn't we like you.. sheesh girl.. get out of that shell.. (easy for me to say.. I still hide behind it sometimes..

) Come on down.. I wish I could but it's too far for me right now.. and with school.. I just can't.

Anyway.. I am hoping to go to the one in May since I will be on Disability anyway recovering from surgery.. so I'll let ya know..

Gladitsme · 04-01-2005, 12:04 PM

Christina,

You brought tears to my eyes with that sweet reply. I appreciate you so much. I've been telling my friend who had the surgery in Jan '00 to come check the group out. I hope she does. She's gained quite a bit of weight back, and I think you all will be able to support her in her losing again.
Hugs,
Nancy

Christina · 04-01-2005, 12:22 PM

Nancy,

The more the merrier.. I sure hope your friend does decide to stop on by. She's more than welcome here.. I sure hope that we can all keep each other on track. We need each other, or we will not be able to have the strength to get through the rest of the years I think..

Christina · 04-01-2005, 04:03 PM

I went for my one year post operative appointment today. I was running late due to a fatal accident on the 78 but they still let me have my appointment. I walked in there all smiles and happy because I made it!! I survived my first year and did it successfully.. anyway the new medical assistant, Nina (who is very nice) tells me how great I look and acts really excited. I love her enthusiasm. Anyway then we go into the room after she weighed me and she said "wow you've lost 98 lbs" I was like.. ummm what are you talking about?? I've lost 130..

She asked if I was counting the weight from my pre-op until now? I said no I used to weigh 274 now I weigh 144. She said ooops.. she transposed some numbers somewhere.. and made the correction. Oh well.. but it did freak me out a bit.. lol

Kelly came in and we chatted a bit.. and went over some stuff and it was over. I was done! I felt kind of sad then. What's next? This place has been my ray of hope, my everything for the past year. What do I do now? I'm on my own.. I feel like a little lost puppy.. you catch my drift.. anyway I said to Kelly as I was standing there checking out.. (For the last time) that I guess this was it. She said oh no, you need to check in with us periodically and come in and see us so we can see how you're doing.. they are doing a study to see how the long term post ops are doing year after year. So far they are seeing about a 40% weight gain (signifigant) amongst those 3-5 years out or more. These are the folks that just drifted away .. gone from sight.. these are the folks that need to be at the support groups. I told her there was no way I was going to stop going to the support groups.. I can't.. not now!! I have come too far to be a drifter.. I can't give up on this or myself. I must remind myself every day how lucky I am. So long story short.. even though I am not "technically" a patient.. I will always be a patient to them. I'm not done!! It's not over.. I held my head high and walked away from the office.. still wondering in the back of my mind where I go from here. She's excited about my upcoming plastic surgeries and was very glad that I posted the letter online to everyone so that they may benefit from being approved for plastics and not having to pay for it themselves.. I also will volunteer to anyone who would like me to write a letter for them.. my letters seemed to help.. and I want everyone to have what I have been blessed with.

I will update as signifigant events occur in my life..

Christina · 04-18-2005, 02:09 PM

Can you please find it?

I am sitting here at work with a ton of work piled on my desk needing to be done. So what's wrong with that you may ask? Sounds like your typical office job right? Well it wouldn't be so bad.. If I would just DO IT!! I can't seem to concentrate.. I have short attention span syndrome.. LOL

I just keep thinking a week from today a week from right now I will have been surgically altered yet once again.. I am excited about my upcoming surgeries.. which I have found out today that I can make payments and I don't have to put down a deposit when I go into the hospital. That makes me feel so much better!! YAY!!! I am elated, I was so worried about the money thing and everything.. like always has worked out.

Yesterday I went swimming in a bathing suit!! I went swimming with my niece and it was a lot of fun. My thighs were thundering away and when I was under water and swimming it felt really funny to have them flapping in the water but I also knew it wasn't much longer before they would be gone. Also when I was sitting on the deck chair with my knees up I realized that I hd these nasty folds in my thighs.. gravity allowed my thighs to slip down and they just rolled over each other.. not fat rolls anymore but skin rolls.. there is a HUGE difference there. If you are just starting out you'll know when you should have plastic surgery by the way the skin folds over itself as opposed to just flopping down .. (as my PS says.. you must have serious wrinkles in the skin) if you don't then you're just not ready yet. You'll know though..

Anyway that's what is going on with me.. or not going on should I say.. someone slap me into reality and tell me to get my work done!! LOL

pambragg · 04-18-2005, 02:16 PM

Slap, slap.....get to work!!!! I am very accommodating! I'm sure I would have trouble focusing if I had as much going on as you do. You will do fine!

Christina · 04-18-2005, 02:18 PM

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Originally Posted by pambragg

Slap, slap.....get to work!!!! I am very accommodating! I'm sure I would have trouble focusing if I had as much going on as you do. You will do fine!

Owwwwweee Pam that hurt!! LOL

I am feeling so much better these days.. the financial stuff is just working itself out.. funny how that happens huh? I should have known.. argh!! patience is a virtue..

anyway I am getting back to work now and I will be good the rest of the day.. I promise.. hehe

Christina · 05-05-2005, 09:27 PM

I had my breast reduction/lift and my tummy tuck on the 25th of April.. about 9 days ago. I am doing pretty good now. I went in on Tuesday for my post-op appointment and we decided then that we would wait until today to remove the drain.. just to be safe. So I had the drain removed today and that took a load off.

I am moving around much better now and not in as much pain. I have also noticed that my back hasn't been hurting since the surgery.. could be the drugs.. could be the fact that my breasts are a lot smaller and lighter?? Who knows.. all I know is I am glad.

Stuart has been taking such great care of me, which I imagined he would of course. He has been changing my dressings bless his heart and helping me dress and whatnot. He's right there by my side caring for me even though he is sick himself. He's such a great man, and I feel so lucky to have him every day.

Well I'm pooped.. I'll update later.. not much more to tell.. oh I got a new dress today and I had to buy it in the Juniors section.. whatever!! LOL

watergirl · 05-06-2005, 06:27 AM

I just wondering this morning on my drive into work how you were doing. I'm so glad to hear that you doing fine and in very capable and loving hands

Juniors section - YOU ROCK!