The Story - Page 4 - ThinnerTimes

LizardQueen · 04-25-2005, 01:27 PM

Ed,
YOU CAN BEAT THIS! Addictive personalities, we are! I have been hooked on everything it seems like. Smoking (still on that) then it was cocaine for several years, then crystal meth, alcohol (during all of the others) then pain killers (that is still a struggle). I used to drink a fifth of gin, captain morgan, beam, etc a day for about 8 years. I just got tired of being a mess and got help and eventually stopped. Detox is not the happiest place on earth (been 8 seperate times). Residential treatment sucks, but of course I couldn't figure that out after one trip I had to go 3 more times. DO the meetings-It will help. You have been through a lot and you can go through a whole lot more. I know where you are and I know you feel like crap, but you also know there is hope and you can overcome this! If you want to talk-I am here for you! Please keep us posted on your progress and let us know if you need anything! I still have pretty big shoulders to cry on. Take care of yourself!!

Amber

watergirl · 04-25-2005, 05:15 PM

Hang in there brother. Fight the good fight! I've got all positive thoughts coming your way for success, one day at a time.

Esouza · 05-02-2005, 07:37 PM

So.. I'm still sober. lol

I'm feeling really good. Mentally I still have a ways to go. Physically I'm rocking. Gym feels good again. Sleep pattern is back to normal. Filled in for a missing member of a skydiving team this weekend that was training and got to fly a different slot. wow.. It was awesome. I was on my game. My head was clear and I was so focused and calm. Someone in my AA meeting mentioned something the other day. He said that he wanted to stop drinking because he wanted to be proud of himself. I think that's where I am at. I was proud of myself for losing all this weight but my as my drinking binges increased so did the disappointment in myself. I'm happy I stopped. I'm feeling so much better about myself. I hope that urge to drink doesn't come back but I have a feeling that one day it will come and I'll have to face it. Hopefully I'll have more tools in the toolbox by then.

anthrgdgrl · 05-02-2005, 10:11 PM

Wow! All I can say is W O W.

watergirl · 05-03-2005, 06:23 AM

I'm proud of you. There is no better relationship we have in life than that relationship with our self. Way to go!