"Girl Disappearing" - Page 10 - ThinnerTimes

Persephone · 02-01-2008, 07:09 PM

"We are volcanoes. When we women offer our experience as our truth, all the maps change. There are new mountains. That's what I want-to hear you erupting. You Mount St. Helenses who don't know the power in you- I want to hear you....Ir we don't tell our truth, who will?
Ursula K. Le Guin

You forgive what you can, when you can. That's all you can do.

Sue Monk Kidd

Persephone · 02-03-2008, 03:51 PM

Rawkin' The Mohawk

Persephone · 02-05-2008, 05:46 AM

Yesterday was intresting.

It turns out that I will once again be traveling to headquarters for an awards banquet at the end of this month.

Any southern bells in Little Rock,AR that want to meet up?

It came earlier then expected for me. I didn't think I would hit gold status until June 30 and possibly be traveling again in September. This time it's a three day trip. I barely survived two. The connecting flight in Texas kills me. I haven't received the internirary yet but almost all company flights connect in Houston. That airport is a maze to me. I'm not a directions babe to begin with (I may even have Dallas and Houston mixed up at this point) You just can't walk/run to your terminal. You MUST take the tram. I recall running through the airport, panting and sweating, terrified I would miss my flight home. I called my brother who logged over 100,000 miles last year.
"I hate this airport!! How do you stand it? I'm lost!"
"Are you in Dallas or Houston?"
"DALLAS"
"So youre at the George W Bush airport"
"*@**@@@**@@# NOW I HATE it even MORE."

I had to have a seat belt extender on on of the smaller planes. I'm hoping I've dropped enough weight to save myself the humiliation. If not, I plan on just faking it this time.

I really don't want to go. I have severe travel anxiety piled on top of normal everyday panic attacks and anxiety. I didn't want to go last time but was glad I went once I arrived. Red carpet treatment at the Peabody and free booze.
Which is another issue.
When I read how alcohol hits you and makes you feel after wls I immediatly wanted to try it.

That is a very clear sign that I should stay away. Very difficult with free mojitos and the southern play de do (served in a mason jar)

I plan on touring the Clinton Library this go around. Last time I was too exhausted after the 5:00 am flight. And this time I am walking the mile which was too discouraging before.

I owe it to Hillary. I'm always trying to ease guilt. The Clinton years were good to me (Thank you for FMLA pres!) And I would love to have a woman president. I just don't think she's the one. And with that said...I'm off to vote on Super Tuesday and then off to work on Fat Tuesday, otherwise known as Katie's day.

Gwen · 02-05-2008, 06:26 AM

Hiya Hunny!!!

Sorry I've been a bit absent as of late

I admire you soooo much!!! If it was me that wrote the "Help" post on the 2nd of Feb and no one replied I would have crawled into the foetal position

(I realise that you write much of your thread for yourself - to remember the journey - and wish I had done similarly, but still it would have been nice if one of us caught that and at least responded). You didn't crawl into the foetal position you kept on writing and found "Empowerment" in Le Guin and shared Ash's new haircut with us, etc - you are stronger than you realise Sister (and that child is "helluva" cute)

I admire mothers so much - I don't think I could have tackled this journey if I had a child (talking logistics and practicalities)

so in my opinion I think you're doing better than you think you are

How's things going now - are you doing better at work - getting into a routine?

XXX

Persephone · 02-05-2008, 08:52 AM

oh babe,

I am so sorry.

Febuary 2 was a crazy day. Ash has swim and gym on saturdays and then I had to rush to the bank to get my rent together. Be assured I would have responded had I seen it. I don't think I was online much that day.

Are you ok???

PM me doll...I'm here for you. JIP JIP= yes yes fo sure!

And Ash saved my life. I honestly would not be still on this earth if not for him.

Work....um....yeh I have issues.

Gwen · 02-05-2008, 09:24 AM

I was referring to your post on the 2nd (should say 1st - you bloody Americans with the date all turned upside down inside out) entitled "Help" - you were having a bad day

- sorry I sometimes interupt myself while writing - I might not have come over clearly enough

Are you OK????

Thanks for your concern though

XXX

Persephone · 02-05-2008, 09:35 AM

ohhhh that was so funny.

I was going through all your post from 02/02/08 trying to see where YOU needed help

funny funny still laughing.

Gwen · 02-05-2008, 09:37 AM

XXX

Persephone · 02-07-2008, 07:29 PM

I'm all smiles.

I was expecting the cd but not the card. I'm listening now and can't thank you enough.

I never got to catch her live during the Strange Little Tour. The setlist is perfect for today. Over the Rainbow was sorely needed. It's my sisters favorite song.

I'm falling apart right now but need to be strong.....

Persephone · 02-07-2008, 07:46 PM

"Don't make me come to Vegas
don't make me pull you out
of his bed.
I am vigilant
that it will not be you
on the menu
he's serving up
for his friends

don't make me come to Vegas
don't make me pull him out
of your head
Athena will attest
that it could be done
and it has been done
and I think that I am
up to it

and the Jacaranda tree
is telling me of the
trouble you're in
just by the way
She bends
remember dancing and
wondering as you were swaying
what kind of woman you'd be
"what will be will be"
over my dead body

slip through your hand
again and again
slip through your hand
again and again...

my old flame was a
jester and a joker
and a dealer of men,
they called him
the prince
Prince of Black Jacks and
of women and of anything
that slipped into his hands

"and the Ranches and the
mustangs" and the way
you said
"You can have all this,
except for me - you see
Lady Luck is my mistress
and you'll have to play
second to her wish"

and the Jacaranda tree
is telling me
It's not over yet,
just by the way She bends
"if you come breezin' through"
you said "I'll know that it's
you by the taste on my lips,
Bet on the desert's kiss"
I could slip
through your net
"over my dead body"

slip through your hand
again and again
slip through your hand
again and again

don't make me come to Vegas
don't make me come to Vegas
don't make me come to Vegas "