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FutureFitGirly · 07-24-2008, 02:34 PM

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Originally Posted by fisher1000

New Protein Shake:

8 oz. cold coffee
3 Sweet N Low
3 TBSP Fat Free Half and Half
1 scoop chocolate Spiru-Tein Protein Powder
Enough ice to make it "Shake-y"

Blend it all together into a shake and then make Sweet Love to it!

It tastes like I made it with Coffee Ice Cream...unbelievable!

This SpiruTein stuff is awesome!

-Mike

oh I'm writing this one down...that sounds gooooood!

Duckie · 07-24-2008, 04:37 PM

oooooooooooohhhh! This sounds yummy. (wondering if dad has a blender......)

fisher1000 · 07-24-2008, 10:20 PM

I'm not depressed or anything...just roaming through my mind tonight. This started actually with a WOW moment of locating the Adam's Apple I never knew I had. (Yes, Whitney, I thought neck cancer first...) It's not going to poke out and you can't see it in pictures, but it's there. I started wondering about why some of these new discoveries affect me the way they do and what's hidden beneath the me I am right now...the way that the me of now was hidden underneath the me of ten months ago. I wonder when the changes in the brain will catch up to the changes in the body. I just feel weird. We were at a party tonight for our Uncle's birthday and those same "token fat" feelings creeped up on me, and I was one of the smallest guys in the room! My wheels are spinning and contemplating and evaluating. It seems like the moment I come to terms with something there is a brand new thing to unravel...not problems, per se, but issues--usually brought about by experiences that are new to this body, but were not previously scanned in depth by this brain. I don't know if I'm undoing habits or just growing, but I like cathartic spaces. It's a little euphoric.

I am a molecule—
A seed.
A basis for a structure,
The smallest piece of the pie.
My universe is local
And I only visit the horizon,
But never stay.
I do not sprout.
I do not grow, but
I do exist.
Within what I do not know
Because my search for meaning
And connectedness
And truth is skewed
By other molecules
That may or may not relate.
I look for significance
But don’t really believe
That I’ll find it,
Not in a real sense.
For what meaning
Can a molecule make
From something less than itself?
Hegemony interrupts me—
What does the universe do with normal?
Accept it only with
No consideration for variation?
A variant molecule
On a variant path.
I orbit occasionally.
I speed up.
I slow down.
I bounce sometimes;
From room to room,
From truth to truth,
And toward each new stereotype
Of the level I attain.
Salt to Iron,
Universal substances—
Burning longer and longer
And lighting my way
As I wander
Through the universe
I might have made for myself.

Vim&Vigour · 07-25-2008, 02:27 AM

Mike!
You always express your thoughts so well - I know exacly what you mean! Strange this mental/physical non-relation - I wonder how long the "engagement" will last until there is "marriage" of body and mind!
Cheers,
Vim

fisher1000 · 07-26-2008, 07:38 AM

Stall broken! I lost 3 pounds this week--can that be right?

As of this morning, I'm down to 227--175 pounds lost. This is un-freakin-believable to me. 10 months ago, I NEVER would have thought I'd be here!

I wonder if it's all the watermelon I'm eating? I can't get enough! So far so good not dumping on the sugar content...but I'm eating like a watermelon a week. (The seedless ones...about 12-14 inches round) I'm having a couple of servings of it a day. I've eaten more fruit in the last month than in the last 2 years! (Never was a big fruit eater...)

-Mike

snick1899 · 07-26-2008, 07:44 AM

Ooooh...to have watermelon again!

fisher1000 · 07-26-2008, 03:02 PM

FYI:

I just made another Chocolate Banana Protein shake like the VIVANNO ones at Starbuck's. This one has a little more protein but tastes just like the VIVANNO...

8 oz. 2% milk
2 Sweet and Low
1/2 banana
(Blend these ingredients first)
Add 1 scoop Designer Whey Natural Flavor
Add 1 packet Chocolate Carnation Instant Breakfast (No sugar added)
(Blend well.)
I then added a couple handfuls of ice and blended until a shake.

Nutrition:
Calories 334
Protein 33g
Fat 6g
Carbs 37g
Sugar 27g
Fiber 7g

(Keep in mind that the CIB has 7g of sugar, the 1/2 banana has 11, and the milk has 7. While there isn't any ADDED sugar, the natural sugars that are here may be difficult for some post op)

-Mike

snick1899 · 07-26-2008, 04:12 PM

I Want One!!

fisher1000 · 07-26-2008, 09:40 PM

I've been in the process of transferring photos from my hard drive to an external drive and I'm sitting here just shocked at what I used to be. I can't believe that I had the confidence to face the world looking the way I used to. I'm also still having a hard time believing that food alone could turn someone into that monster I was. I'm ashamed, but grateful for this gift. Besides the way I looked, I remember being in fear daily of dying early...from a heart attack, or diabetes, or the severe asthma. How can control be so completely given up? How could I have tortured myself like that? Why couldn't I see then what I see now?

I posted in Deb's thread earlier about the disconnect between our bodies and brains. This really is a psychological journey, more so than the physical one, I think. In some of these pictures, I thought I looked pretty good, but I can't help but look at them now and be so sad about the state of myself. It makes me wonder if what was wrong with me then is still wrong with me, and how easily could I slip back into bad habits?

How do we heal the mind the same way (or rate) at which we heal our bodies? For those that are longer out from surgery...this does get better with time, right?

-Mike

RebeccaNV · 07-26-2008, 09:55 PM

You sure have come a long way in a short amount of time. Incredible!