The Long Road... - Page 27 - ThinnerTimes

snick1899 · 05-23-2008, 08:34 AM

Wow, you look great! Your thread has been such an inspiration to me in preparing for my own journey!

Duckie · 05-23-2008, 10:16 AM

AMAZING!!!

Persephone · 05-23-2008, 10:26 AM

You look incredible.

Onderland by September 24th??? No prob. I bet you pull it off before then.

Srsly you look great!

Claire-in-Texas · 05-23-2008, 10:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by fisher1000

New comparison photo--taken today!

Down to 244 pounds, 42 waist pants (down from 60!), L/XL shirts (even considered a medium at Wal-Mart today that was cut big!).

Future? Plastic surgery-definitely! 220 by the end of July? Gonna make it happen! Under 200 by my year anniversary? Gonna try!

-Mike

We have GORGEOUS HUNK in the building!!!

OMG, what a transformation - of body, but not of soul. Although you are such a hunk physically, your soul is what shines through, Mike - it is who you are.

Mike, I'm so proud of you, and so happy that you are so very proud of what you have accomplished.

XOXO

PollyC · 05-23-2008, 11:29 AM

OMG! WOW! HOT STUFF! Way to go Mike! BTW...I love the hair cut short. My hubby has been shaving his head and it is very sexy look!

Corrine · 05-23-2008, 12:28 PM

WOW!

Mike that is amazing.

I've always been able to see a big difference from one picture to another but now...... that is unreal... hugs.

fisher1000 · 05-24-2008, 08:45 PM

Where the hell am I, really?

Warning: the following is deeply contemplative and if you tend to fall asleep in these situations, feel free to skip this.

It's Saturday night. It's late and I'm still awake.

Things have been really good these last few months but I've got this creeping feeling that I'm in orbit around my old self and I wonder where I really am.

I'm not "THAT" guy anymore--the one that people whisper about, the one that doesn't get invited to stuff, the one that looked as though he would drop dead any second. Where do I go from here? I feel mechanized. I go through the motions, I do what I do, I proliferate my own sameness and I feel like I'm cracking.

I enjoy life a lot now, but I'm argumentative and I'm constantly questioning every little detail. I know I'm driving the people around me apeshit nuts, but I feel compelled to feel everything now.

Can I also say that I hate going to the gym? I go because my body requires it. I won't lose anymore if I don't work it. But I hate it, I hate the elliptical machine, I hate the weight machines, and I still don't like to change in front of everybody for fear that they'll see the giant gravitating fat roll that lives in my underwear as the unwanted bulge.

I feel undone tonight, strange, spacey. I'm having an "out of my fat" experience. I really want to be at the end of this journey and see what the results are--I just need a little motivation, or tequila. (I've never been much of a drinker, and since the surgery I've had two drinks total--rock on, party man, huh?)

Is this what anxiety is? If it is, I don't like it. I don't want to end up on another pill...but I don't want to have these strange bouts of thinking too much either. There is too much in my head to wrap around in a cohesive and logical way.

I know part of it is discovery, within this new life, but I'm also states away from my family. I'm here with my wife and her family but its not the same. I miss what was and am having trouble with what is. My mind and my heart just seem disconnected lately.

I think too much.

-Mike

Toony · 05-24-2008, 09:08 PM

Yeah you do think too much... and I'm glad you SHARE your thoughts. I feel like I'm so far away from where you are now - that I'll never get to your success... to feel what you're feeling! My anxiety, not yours!

Focus on the positives! Lily won't even know who that fat man is in her baby photos... Her dad is Superman! He can do anything!!! Including making these adjustments.

Vim&Vigour · 05-25-2008, 02:40 AM

Mike,
You are doing awesomely well both physically and emotionally! Congratulations on your fabulous loss - your pre/current photo juxtaposition really brings it home! That is a poignant reminder and encourager!
As to the mental stuff, there seems to be a few of us living a similar phase. We appear to have lost noticeably, feeling fantastic, with loads more energy giving us greater impetus for more action and undertakings. We are happy, sunnier, more vibrant, still there for everybody else. And in this whole process, we are quietly swimming inside our own emotions, not quite sure where we are going - whoever "we" are.

Think of yourself as an old house that you are renovating: the foundations are solid, the location is excellen, the garden large and everything just good. Only, it is run down and with elbow grease, energy to restore it and some money it can be modernised, brought back to contemporary high standing.
So, here you, I and many of our TTF Friends have modernised a few of the rooms already (weight loss, money spent on clothes, feeling good about one aspect or another etc). It seems to me that the stage you are at is having several rooms modernised and you are standing in a room that needs redoing, only wondering what on earth you should do with it, how best modernise it. Having completed several rooms, you have got the hang of the refurbishment process, but it may just be time to break for lunch or coffee so that you can contemplate refreshed.
Once you have refurbished the overall house, you'll still have the original building, its past memories and an updated, more contemporarily comfortable dwelling, one where you are up to date with broadband internet, satellite tv and the modern accessories that simplify life.
Don't worry Mike - you are standing in a room wondering what to do next. We all see work in progress, admire the rooms you already have renovated and are looking forward to the next ones.
Best wishes for your continued success!
Fondest thoughts,
Vim

Claire-in-Texas · 05-25-2008, 05:42 AM

Mike, I so understand.

It's like living in a new body, with new nerve endings, new reactions to things.

You will get used to the new you, and the edges will soften. I promise.

With love,