The Long Road... - Page 11 - ThinnerTimes

coptergirl · 01-28-2008, 10:36 AM

Mike oh Mike oh Mike oh Mike. If anyone in the world can understand the introspective thing, I (we) can!! You have received great words of wisdom here for which I will not try to expound on - just know that we love you and are here for you whether you want to slash our tires or not

I think maybe the next time we get together, it should involve alcohol and me as your DD

fisher1000 · 01-28-2008, 10:48 AM

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Originally Posted by coptergirl

Mike oh Mike oh Mike oh Mike. If anyone in the world can understand the introspective thing, I (we) can!! You have received great words of wisdom here for which I will not try to expound on - just know that we love you and are here for you whether you want to slash our tires or not

I think maybe the next time we get together, it should involve alcohol and me as your DD

I think that would be SPLENDID. I tried a little alcohol on New Year's Eve...it was great. I was straight buzzed in under 5 minutes, and ready for the world again after 1/2 hour. I only wish drinking in college had been this awesome!

Are you out of town with your Mom? Is Keith eating? Should we call him to come over for a meal? We're kind of in a frozen food rut, but he would have his choice of Spaghetti, Beef and Cheese Panini, Stuffed Shells, or Cheese and Crackers. (all low fat or low carb...sounds appetizing, right?) By the way, my mother in law LOVED the picture of him with the baby--and everybody thinks that you look more like Lily's mother than Liz! We had such a good time...I'm ready to go back--I love Dave and Buster's--we don't even have to eat, we can just play! (I would not have said this Pre-Op! That's significant!)

-Mike

Corrine · 01-28-2008, 10:55 AM

Hugs Mike.

I'm not of any help as I'm going through my own little battle right now so I'm truly grateful that you posted. We share the same surgery date so I'm comforted to hear that I'm not abnormal in what I'm experiencing.

I'm so overwhelmed by my feelings - I guess I now know the true meaning of the "roller coaster ride" that everyone talks about.

I'm losing weight at a steady rate and I've not experienced any of problems that some have had. I'm feeling well and looking good and people tell me that constantly, so I can understand the feelings of euphoria but why do I drop to the terrible lows????

fisher1000 · 01-28-2008, 11:05 AM

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Originally Posted by Corrine

I'm losing weight at a steady rate and I've not experienced any of problems that some have had. I'm feeling well and looking good and people tell me that constantly, so I can understand the feelings of euphoria but why do I drop to the terrible lows????

Hi Podmate!

I'm not really all that emotional, Corrine, but I'm definitely moody. I've not been snappy with the kids at school or anything, it's more with all the adults...at work, at home, etc. I was a little snappy with the baby yesterday, but I have no reason to be, she's one, and doesn't know yet that it makes her Daddy crazy when she "claps" her food and sends it flying everywhere.

Maybe it's not moody...maybe it's just a low level frustration that I have all the time. I'm in limbo, sort of, does that make sense? I like where I'm at yet I want to see more of where I'm going. I've never thought of myself as worthy enough to be so involved in a journey that I feel like I have a right to know where I'm heading. But now, I'm so pressed into things that I feel like I'm falling through them. I guess I'm finding the cracks that I didn't fit into before! (I don't know why this makes me smile!) I'm still in a good place, but I know people around me are like: "That Mike Fisher, is he going crazy, God bless him, he sure is acting strange!"

I'm going to find some peanut butter---

-Mike

Corrine · 01-28-2008, 11:48 AM

Moody is probably a better word for how I'm feeling too Mike. There's no tears or fits of depression or rage.

But I do have a problem in never knowing just how or what I'm going to be feeling from one minute to another - or the intensity of it.

I've always been a very placid person but lately I've been harbouring some pretty unpleasant thoughts about people around me. They're doing nothing especially different but I know that inside, how I'm reacting to it IS. I don't seem to blow it off as I did before.

Maybe I'm just getting annoyed and frustrated with myself more than is necessary.

coptergirl · 01-28-2008, 11:53 AM

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Originally Posted by fisher1000

I think that would be SPLENDID. I tried a little alcohol on New Year's Eve...it was great. I was straight buzzed in under 5 minutes, and ready for the world again after 1/2 hour. I only wish drinking in college had been this awesome!

Are you out of town with your Mom? Is Keith eating? Should we call him to come over for a meal? We're kind of in a frozen food rut, but he would have his choice of Spaghetti, Beef and Cheese Panini, Stuffed Shells, or Cheese and Crackers. (all low fat or low carb...sounds appetizing, right?) By the way, my mother in law LOVED the picture of him with the baby--and everybody thinks that you look more like Lily's mother than Liz! We had such a good time...I'm ready to go back--I love Dave and Buster's--we don't even have to eat, we can just play! (I would not have said this Pre-Op! That's significant!)

-Mike

Yep K is eating - and drinking. Apparently he got bored last night and when I finally got ahold of him, he was at a bar around the corner. Not good since he goes to court tomorrow night for his 1st DWI that happened in Novemeber. Needlss to say I could not sleep because I was so mad

Anyhoo - here's the deal. You are on for D & B mister, and I am challenging you to a game of DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION!!! Never played it, but it looks like fun exercize

And silly man - Lily looks like you and Liz - I had nothing to do with that part

Must be the blue eyes...and I am honored to be lumped in with her because she is such a cutie

Nyn · 01-28-2008, 12:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Corrine

I'm not of any help as I'm going through my own little battle right now so I'm truly grateful that you posted. We share the same surgery date so I'm comforted to hear that I'm not abnormal in what I'm experiencing.

I'm so overwhelmed by my feelings - I guess I now know the true meaning of the "roller coaster ride" that everyone talks about.

Ditto. I love seeing posts by you, my podmates, since so very often I could have written them myself, but I haven't had much time online lately to be here on TTForum, so I rely on you. You guys are awesome, thoughtful, interesting people, and reading your posts means a lot to me. (I also don't have my own "personal stories" thread so I guess I borrow your entries to make me think about my "personal story". Sorry in advance for hijacking, lol!)

My underlying personality is calm, placid optimism, and though I'm still mostly that way, I do find myself having moments where I'm more emotional than normal. I almost burst into tears at work last week when I had a bad day and my boss got on my case about something that was way more significant to me than it turned out it was to her. Also, I'm definitely with all of you about the introspection that is necessary due to this surgery. I think about the future a lot more, and my plans seem more attainable...which then makes me ponder the "whys" and the causes and effects of my past/present/future. I also have to learn to deal with so much more attention, as do we all. I found out recently that coworkers have been talking about me a lot, since they are all recently noticing my transformation. (I "hide" weight well, so I guess it only became really, shockingly noticeable, even to people who had previously not given me much thought, as I hit the century mark.) People are also approaching me more often, and almost all of them have that look like, "it's ok to mention this, right?" The jury is still out on whether I want all the attention, but I'm experimenting with ways of taking compliments, and periodically reminding myself not to get too used to it since the "new me" will eventually become the "regular me" soon enough and people will stop caring, or thinking they should say something.

Mike, thank you for sharing so much of your journey with us. I look forward to your next post when you're feeling thoughtful (...or silly...or random...or drunk...or...)

fisher1000 · 01-28-2008, 03:51 PM

Nyn,

I'm so glad you wrote...and I love how you, Corrine, and even Gwen (our semi-podmate) are on such similar tracks. It helps me believe that I'm not going crazy! As long as I'm as normal as everyone else...I feel good about that!

Good to hear from you!

-Mike

OsoDelDesierto · 01-28-2008, 04:17 PM

Mike, just wanted to throw some kudos your way for your progress and some support for handling the moodiness as you move forward to the "new" you. I'm sorry you're dealing with the mood swings, but you're such an inspiration to me and so many others. Your openness, insight, and articulateness in your posts are exceptional and I always benefit from what you share - thank you!

I hope things level out for you, and I think they will, based on what others have shared. One of the blessings of sobriety for me and many of my sober fellows was that, after the first year of sobriety, the emotional roller coaster flattened out a great deal, so that there were still good days and bad days, good moods and bad moods, but the shifts were less frequent and the peaks and valleys were less extreme. I think it will be the same for you in your WLS journey, and hopefully mine as well!

Duckie · 01-28-2008, 05:03 PM

Mike, where on the Cape? My dad lives in West Yarmouth (in the summer). I have NEVER been to Salem OR Gloucester so I'd love to meet ya there if I can. Heck, anywhere in the state. lol