The Long Road... - Page 10 - ThinnerTimes

Duckie · 01-13-2008, 09:12 PM

I highly recommend the salvation army, goodwill or consignment shops! You'll save a truckload of money since you won't be any size for too long!
CONGRATULATIONS ON the 2X!!!

Claire-in-Texas · 01-14-2008, 08:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Janelle

(Just curious about how to regulate my own wardrobe spending in the future.)

Janelle

Janelle, I have been completely "dressed" by the Hospice Boutique here locally. I would buy things there as I came down sizes, and then donated it back (and got the tax deduction!). Very inexpensive clothing, very high quality brand names, many new ones included, and ALL look new. What a blessing!

I'm one of these people that likes to wear clothes that fit and are even a tad on the tight side without being uncomfortable - keeps me reminded of my journey!

Mike, this goes for you as well. If you have any really nice thrift stores or high end consignment shops, try them out. It's like a treasure hunt, and it's fun. And congrats on being able to shop ANYWHERE! Yeah!!!!

fisher1000 · 01-26-2008, 10:04 PM

I'm having a little re-evaluation tonight:

-I've lost 110 pounds. I've also evidently lost the ability to be unaffected by petty things. Before, stuff would slide right off of me but I find lately that every little thing is pissing me off.

-Six months ago, if you told me that I was going to lose 110 pounds before the end of January, I would have had A) not believed you, and B) thought that my body would look differently, and not so, well, betrayed. I'm ready for plastic surgery now--I want the Chippendale Chiselectomy, not because I'm vain, or aspire to be a stripper/dancer, but because I think the calendar would be neat.

-I'm wondering what made me fat in the first place. I'm not harboring any childhood ill or psychological trauma, nor was I beaten into submission by Swedish Horse Traders; I think I'm just lazy. Can just being lazy end up costing me 200 pounds, diabetes, and high blood pressure? I'm amazed by this. I am so in control everywhere else...why in the world could I not push a plate away? Grrrr.

-I am addicted to Thinner Times. I'm on here 15 times a day looking at what people are posting. Is that wrong?

-While I go 3 or 4 times a week...I still don't like exercising. I'm doing better at it, but I don't really like going. Will this change? I want to like it, I want it to be a permanent piece of my day, but I'm struggling with it and would rather give it away, even though I know that would be detrimental to this entire process.

-I keep going through waves of emotions. One minute, things are calm, the next, I'm bouncing off the walls. I'm getting tired of the roller coaster, does it stop? I'm driving my wife bonkers.

-I want to kick the lady at work who compliments me everyday. I don't believe that she's sincere and I can't stand it when I bump into her. I wonder if I shouldn't have told anybody. Obviously they would have noticed after 110 pounds, but maybe that bitch wouldn't be so up in my grill everyday. I really want to etch something in the paint on her car. I won't do it though, because even though I talk big, I'm really a nice guy deep down. I'd love to have a genuine "bad boy" day though. I wonder how the people who truly don't give a flying f*** feel about themselves.

This is all for now...if you read it all expecting something more profound...sorry...

-Mike

Toony · 01-26-2008, 10:31 PM

God Love Ya Mike! You're sooo awesome - I'm guessing everyone here can relate to this post... I know I can and I'm still pre-op... and don't be telling me I'll lose 110 pounds by the 4th of July... I can believe maybe half of that!

HUGS to you and some for Poor Liz too... uh, make that LUCKY LIZ! She has an awesome husband...

Claire-in-Texas · 01-27-2008, 09:26 AM

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Originally Posted by fisher1000

I'm having a little re-evaluation tonight:

-I've lost 110 pounds. I've also evidently lost the ability to be unaffected by petty things. Before, stuff would slide right off of me but I find lately that every little thing is pissing me off.

-Six months ago, if you told me that I was going to lose 110 pounds before the end of January, I would have had A) not believed you, and B) thought that my body would look differently, and not so, well, betrayed. I'm ready for plastic surgery now--I want the Chippendale Chiselectomy, not because I'm vain, or aspire to be a stripper/dancer, but because I think the calendar would be neat.

-I'm wondering what made me fat in the first place. I'm not harboring any childhood ill or psychological trauma, nor was I beaten into submission by Swedish Horse Traders; I think I'm just lazy. Can just being lazy end up costing me 200 pounds, diabetes, and high blood pressure? I'm amazed by this. I am so in control everywhere else...why in the world could I not push a plate away? Grrrr.

-I am addicted to Thinner Times. I'm on here 15 times a day looking at what people are posting. Is that wrong?

-While I go 3 or 4 times a week...I still don't like exercising. I'm doing better at it, but I don't really like going. Will this change? I want to like it, I want it to be a permanent piece of my day, but I'm struggling with it and would rather give it away, even though I know that would be detrimental to this entire process.

-I keep going through waves of emotions. One minute, things are calm, the next, I'm bouncing off the walls. I'm getting tired of the roller coaster, does it stop? I'm driving my wife bonkers.

-I want to kick the lady at work who compliments me everyday. I don't believe that she's sincere and I can't stand it when I bump into her. I wonder if I shouldn't have told anybody. Obviously they would have noticed after 110 pounds, but maybe that bitch wouldn't be so up in my grill everyday. I really want to etch something in the paint on her car. I won't do it though, because even though I talk big, I'm really a nice guy deep down. I'd love to have a genuine "bad boy" day though. I wonder how the people who truly don't give a flying f*** feel about themselves.

This is all for now...if you read it all expecting something more profound...sorry...

-Mike

Mike, this post of yours is probably among the DEEPEST and most MEANINGFUL I have seen. It is VERY thought provoking, and more important it provides insight not only into your heart and soul and mind, but in my own.

I will not patronize you by saying this, too, will pass, in connection with your emotions. But, in fact, it will. Your mind and body are adjusting to a whole new you in many ways, and I hope that you are able to cut yourself some slack, and embrace the new you with an open heart.

Why we became fat? Best question of all. I will give you my opinion. Although I had an abusive childhood, there came a time when I had to take responsibility for my life, including my habits. You're not lazy, Mike. Like most of us, you have formed habits that are not healthy for you. I don't mean to simplify it because it really is quite complex. But your habits are changing, and your awareness of that puts you in a whole different stratosphere.

Exercising. I hated to exercise. I dreaded that part of this new zone that I am in, and anticipated it with dread. Everyone's different, and everyone enjoys differently, so I am not suggesting that you do what i did and do. I am simply suggesting that you give some thought to what activity you might do that you enjoy. It doesn't have to be exercise in the strict sense of the word. It might be playing basketball with the neighborhood kids (just an example). My own journey went like this. I love the water, I went to the local pool. I acquired my own aquabelt, and started aquajogging. I loved the feel of the water, I loved the movements that the belt allowed me to have. I realized from this that I really like "resistance' exercise. With the aquabelt my body moved in resistance to the water. Cool. That led me to my own Total Gym, which is all about resistance, and so help me I can't WAIT to get on it every day. Like the rest of this whole journey, it is one step at a time. And by the way, I still go to the pool (going today, as a matter of fact).

I'm not here with the answers, only YOU can find t hose answers. And you will. It just doesn't all come in a flash, but it does come.

Congratulations on your amazing success. You are an inspiration and a joy!

fisher1000 · 01-28-2008, 04:23 AM

Thanks Katie and Claire...

You two are ALWAYS there (and not just for me...). Do you have any idea how comforting that is? To know that there are folks out there that genuinely care AND have first hand knowledge of your own experiences is priceless! You two are priceless to me!

I don't think that there is any real rationalization to what I'm thinking here. It's a "do or don't do" situation...and I'm glad I'm on the "doing" end of things. Thinking too much probably contributed to my giant ass in the first place. (As I tend to lean toward the dramatic as well...)

My previous post was just thinking out loud--because I'm kind of living out loud right now. My experiences are kind of out there for everyone to see because I'm changing. I'm not scared by that, but I'm not personally invested in everyone that comments (I'm talking in person, not online...), so I'm in kind of a weird place. I know that makes no sense, but it doesn't make any more sense to me than it does to anyone reading this. I'm slipping into a cathartic, self-realization zone that I probably should have been in the whole time--but it's not a place of worry, it's a place of discovery. I just wish I had "discovered" it 10 years ago.

Thanks again for your kind words. They mean the world to me.

-Mike

Duckie · 01-28-2008, 05:02 AM

Mike, I'm sorry I missed this until now. I understand the whole "introspective thing". We all do it, especially post op. We are going through SO many changes it makes our lives a little difficult. Hang in there. Claire is so smart isn't she?!
Love ya dude. We are here for you.

Persephone · 01-28-2008, 05:56 AM

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Originally Posted by fisher1000

Thanks Katie and Claire...

You two are ALWAYS there (and not just for me...). Do you have any idea how comforting that is? To know that there are folks out there that genuinely care AND have first hand knowledge of your own experiences is priceless! You two are priceless to me!

I don't think that there is any real rationalization to what I'm thinking here. It's a "do or don't do" situation...and I'm glad I'm on the "doing" end of things. Thinking too much probably contributed to my giant ass in the first place. (As I tend to lean toward the dramatic as well...)

My previous post was just thinking out loud--because I'm kind of living out loud right now. My experiences are kind of out there for everyone to see because I'm changing. I'm not scared by that, but I'm not personally invested in everyone that comments (I'm talking in person, not online...), so I'm in kind of a weird place. I know that makes no sense, but it doesn't make any more sense to me than it does to anyone reading this. I'm slipping into a cathartic, self-realization zone that I probably should have been in the whole time--but it's not a place of worry, it's a place of discovery. I just wish I had "discovered" it 10 years ago.

Thanks again for your kind words. They mean the world to me.

-Mike

THERE is the answer to one of your questions. You are on here 15 times a day because of support like THIS.

I lurked yesterday while I was getting my bearings back at the office. It was great fun

Yesterday was easy peasy. Today will be much more difficult. But I am prepared I purchased season 3 of the office and have been watching it during my recovery.

"What is the monetary value of a SHROOT buck?"

Claire-in-Texas · 01-28-2008, 06:35 AM

Mike, I get the whole "cathartic, self-realization zone" thing. I wish i had done it 40 years ago!! And I'm so glad you are doing it now. In a way, we all go through change to one degree or another, all the time. Life is about change, things are always changing. It can be unsettling at times, and elating at times, and liberating at times. And sometimes all at once.

Mike, I wasn't one bit worried about you. To be honest, I am so glad to see you going through the stages of self-realization, even though a bit painful for you. Believe me when I tell you that it would be FAR more painful if you DIDN'T move forward, reflect,go through some catharsis.

I'm proud of you, MIke, for all you are doing for yourself, and for the rest of us. Your posting what you did, make us reflect on who WE are, within ourselves. And that's a GOOD thing.

HUGS!

fisher1000 · 01-28-2008, 10:26 AM

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Originally Posted by Persephone

"What is the monetary value of a SHROOT buck?"

A Schrute Buck is worth way more than a regular dollar...kind of like how the Canadian dollar is worth more than an American dollar now...I got Season 3 for Christmas...I love the Benihana episode where he marks the girls arm! I'm glad work was easy yesterday, may it be so today as well!

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Originally Posted by Claire-in-Texas

Mike, I wasn't one bit worried about you. To be honest, I am so glad to see you going through the stages of self-realization, even though a bit painful for you.

Claire, I'm not sure if I would characterize it as painful...it's just omnipresent! I can't get away from thinking, but I guess that's better than sweeping things under the rug. I love that I can articulate my feelings here and that they are appreciated as part of a larger process. I'm starting to think that the surgery itself was the easiest part of this whole journey. Even with all the introspection, I'm enjoying life more than I have in a over a decade...what a thrill this all is!

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Originally Posted by Duckie

Mike, I'm sorry I missed this until now. I understand the whole "introspective thing". We all do it, especially post op. We are going through SO many changes it makes our lives a little difficult. Hang in there. Claire is so smart isn't she?!
Love ya dude. We are here for you.

Michelle, you are the bomb--you're always there too and I appreciate you so much! We'll have to meet some day. My wife's godmother lives out on the Cape and we come out there at least once a year. We usually make our way leisurely up the coast to Gloucester (one of my favorite places in the world!) and Salem...we should try to get together...I love Victoria Station at Pickering Wharf...we eat there every time we go to Salem--maybe a good meeting place? Thanks for responding...

-Mike