Cindy's Diary.... - Page 5 - ThinnerTimes

Cinerbelle · 11-23-2006, 12:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Blueyz

TMI....sit on the shower floor..eh??? Ok, that was way too much TMI. You are such a kick!! What happened to good old sitting in the bathtub..LOL

I am afraid the bathtub would overflow onto the carpeted bathroom floor...I hate carpeted bathrooms, but that's the way the house came. As soon as we finally ruin the carpet for sure we will tile in there!

Cinerbelle · 11-24-2006, 08:46 AM

Thanksgiving was great!! I haven't been able to stand and cook like that in years. Last year my back was killing me on the first dish I was making and I was sweating like a piggy. This year..nothing...it was SSOOOOO cool. I had energy all day and even kept cleaning in between dishes. My hubby was amazed!! I just can't express how totally exhilarating it was. My Dad and Stepmom walked into the house (they haven't seen me since July)...they were very complimentary. My Dad said he didn't even recognize me...he was thinking "where is Cindy"?

rainrain · 11-24-2006, 09:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Cinerbelle

Dear Diary, (oh my God, I haven't written that since I was in school)

I finally lost a pound. It is coming off sooo much more slowly now. I know what I have to do to get it going again...but...hmmm... I think I am losing my mind a wee bit. I have days when I want to lose ALL my weight and go lower then my goal...and then I have days that I am happy at this weight. I think to myself that I have a ton of cute clothes that fit (thanks to Jen and my gf in Viginia) and I feel like I look good... I also think, do I want to lose all the way and start getting too much attention from guys. What if something snaps in me and I turn into a whore like my Mother did when she lost weight. Which in my head I know would NEVER happen since I am married to the most wonderful man in the world....but the anxiety rises when I remember back to my Dad crying over my Mother slutting about. This guy at work said to me last week "you are getting sexy"...I was totally taken off guard...I was flattered and freaked out. ARRRRR...sorry to ramble, these are just some emotions I am going through right now.

I Cindy,
I was reading your post and I want to assure you of something.

I have had the same thoughts your having. I had a time, not all that long ago, were I had a close call. It was scary, but I got through it, unscathed and stronger. So I encourage you to move forward with your confidence as a woman. As you mentioed many times, your husband is amazing and you love him. Trust yourself and you will be fine. Does that mean you won't be tempted?...probably not!! Does that mean men will never find you attractive? ...hardly! Does it mean you will rise to the occasion, prove your self trustworthy and faithful??....yes, it means you will grow in your marriage, feel secure in your awesome sexuality and know you ahve an amazing strength and power as a woman.

Vulnerability is a mind set worth tucking away for safety sake, but not for wearing out in public. Enjoy life, throw caution slightly to the wind, but always keep it with in arms length to catch!!

Love your self, your new body and you husband. It is package deal!!
Rain!

(BTW, are you and your hubby coming to the Holiday Party 12-2??)

Cinerbelle · 11-25-2006, 12:35 AM

Thanks Rain! I completely "get" what you are saying. I am not my Mother and I certainly don't have the same relationship she had with my Father. My Husband is my best friend, lover, supporter...so many many things, my Dad was none of that to my Mother. I just wish they would have ended their relationship before my having to watch all that happened between them for 10 years or so before they finally divorced.

I hadn't RSVP'd to the party because I didn't know for sure if my Husbands football team was going to make it to the Semi Finals in playoffs....well, tonight they played the Quarter Finals and WON, I am soooo happy for him!! So unfortunately I will not be able to make it to the party as his team plays on the 2nd., but fortunately he is beaming with happiness tonight!!

GO PUMAS!!!

Wildeblnde34 · 11-25-2006, 11:17 AM

They Won???? Holy Cow!!! Congrats to your hubby! GOOOO PUMAS!!!

Cinerbelle · 11-25-2006, 04:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Wildeblnde34

They Won???? Holy Cow!!! Congrats to your hubby! GOOOO PUMAS!!!

I know, I couldn't freakin believe it! They were SOOO THE UNDER DOGS! The team they played was ranked 5th in the state. Just goes to show that anything can happen!! Hubby is very excited...and every game we go into the playoffs is BONUS $$$!!!

Cinerbelle · 11-26-2006, 04:34 PM

Crap, today sucks...Aunt Flo came yesterday...we took our Holiday Card pictures and I am all bloated and look like I weigh 329lbs again! DAMN DAMN DAMN...I'm even comptimplating just throwing them away. HATE THEM!! We also took a family picture with my whole family and my Sisters and that one actually turned out good, but I couldn't put my Sister's family on my Christmas card with us. My Sister pressured me into using the only family picture that turned out...and I look FAT...I wonder if she did that on purpose...hmmmmmm.....

BlondeCAgirl · 11-26-2006, 08:29 PM

I bet you look fab! I have fat pics that I don't dare share even though I'm 50 opunds less than the FATTY pics. If ya folllow me. Use the pics, I'm sure your family will be excited to see your new look.

SDphotogrl99 · 11-27-2006, 12:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Cinerbelle

Crap, today sucks...Aunt Flo came yesterday...we took our Holiday Card pictures and I am all bloated and look like I weigh 329lbs again! DAMN DAMN DAMN...I'm even comptimplating just throwing them away. HATE THEM!! We also took a family picture with my whole family and my Sisters and that one actually turned out good, but I couldn't put my Sister's family on my Christmas card with us. My Sister pressured me into using the only family picture that turned out...and I look FAT...I wonder if she did that on purpose...hmmmmmm.....

We all have " fat days" I felt like that all day yesterday. That sucks you don't like the pics. I know how it is to get excited to take pics and then get them back and hate every single one! If you want to make a trip down here with the family I will do free re-do Holiday pics for you.

Cinerbelle · 11-29-2006, 11:08 AM

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Originally Posted by SDphotogrl99

We all have " fat days" I felt like that all day yesterday. That sucks you don't like the pics. I know how it is to get excited to take pics and then get them back and hate every single one! If you want to make a trip down here with the family I will do free re-do Holiday pics for you.

Hey Holly!! Sorry, I just saw your post. I would love to have you do our pics. After seeing everyone elses I was jealous I didn't get my butt down to that park! Let me know if you are going to do another shoot and I will work my tail off to be there!!