Cindy's Diary.... - Page 37 - ThinnerTimes

jerseygrl684 · 05-31-2008, 10:09 PM

awww.. cin.. i <3 you.. good luck tomorrow. you are going to need it.. you are a tough cookie and i know you can get through this.. a chunky doublestuffed cookie, but a tough one nonetheless..

If you want to keep preoccupied, i'm sure the parents wont mind sending back the 10 y/o drama queens for a night or 2

Toony · 06-01-2008, 05:31 AM

Cindy ==== just caught up reading here after seeing your other post about your dad passing... I am so proud you were able to hold it together for your daughter's party... I don't know if i could have done that! HUGS hon.... you're in for some tough days, but it will get better --- GIANT HUGS!!!

Persephone · 06-01-2008, 08:16 PM

You are incredible. You daughter is lucky to have you as her mom.

I just wanted to drop in and again offer condolences.

Hang in there.

wilbzbooboo · 06-01-2008, 08:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Cinerbelle

Well, tonight is the sleep over and it is a welcome distraction. My Dad passed away yesterday and this party is the only thing keeping me sane. We haven't told my kids yet, we don't want to ruin her party...we will tell them Sunday.

Here is a pic of my Dad and I...I am a fatty, but I love him in his Hawaiian shirt!

Just barely read the thread about your Dad, may he fly on eagles wings tonight

Hope you are doing well, may the Lord bless you and yours, JERRY

Cinerbelle · 06-01-2008, 11:35 PM

The kids took the news well. My daughter cried, but not for too long... my son just looked confused. They asked a few questions and seemed to accept my explanations. I wanted to tell them the truth to their questions as easily as I could so that they would understand, but I didn't want to freak them out. So, they asked how he died and I had to explain kidney failure and heart attacks...since my Dad had a heart attack while at dialysis. They seemed to understand and it didn't lead to futher questions regarding health, but they did ask questions periodically throughout the day about my Step Mother and if my Dad has two legs in heaven (he had one amputated last year)...that made me laugh.

Omaha Jim · 06-02-2008, 01:54 AM

My Sister
Our hearts, condolences and thoughts go out to you during this time of your loss. Kiddo, I know these words are to cannot provide the real comfort that your Dads presence could, I hope the love and support from your friends here at least cut the pain a bit. Please know that we are thinking about you and praying for you and your family.

Love you
Jim

PollyC · 06-02-2008, 09:30 PM

Cindy-I just read this post and I am sorry for your lose. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.

sdgrrl · 06-03-2008, 09:46 AM

Cindy,
I'm glad that your kids accepted the news so easily. Death is a part of life, and I can tell your kids really trust you for them to believe that their Grandpa is whole again and feeling better. You are a good mom, Cindy. I'm sure DH and the kids know that, but I want to acknowledge it here. I'm sure you were a good daughter as well, and that your dad is smiling, knowing that his grandchildren are being raised up in love.

Our thoughts have been with you since you posted, and I'm betting that services are the early part of this week, so you may not even read this until after the funeral. Either way, your emotions have got to be very close to the surface, and I offer you a couple of gentle, loving hugs from the "Selma and Patty" of the forum. (I'm positive you know who they are, but if you don't, ask your kids!)

Feeling overwhelmed, or even just whelmed? Give a call, pm me, and we will do our best to help you with An-ee-thing you need.

Love you Sweetie
Donna and Michelle

Cinerbelle · 07-01-2008, 10:19 AM

Last Thursday I was sitting in my car by myself waiting for my Sister to meet me at a store and I wondered to myself if my Dad could hear me if I just started talking to him. So I said... "Dad, are you here...can you hear me"... I then went on to ask him if he thought something was funny that I had been recently saying about him (long story, but my Dad and I have the same sense of humor and I knew this tacky thing I was saying would make him laugh)...I went on to say that I wished he would give me a sign that he was okay...call me on my cell, make some light flicker...visit me in my dreams like Grandma had...anything, just give me a sign...

I woke up Sunday morning balling my eyes out. I didn't know that his sign was going to be such a strong one. I had a VERY REAL "dream" that I was driving down the street and I looked in my rearview mirror and saw someone sitting in the backseat (I was alone)...all I saw was hair, so I freaked out and jumped out of the car. When I looked back I saw my Dad in the back seat. I gave a sigh of relief and went back to the car, but my Dad was gone and my Grandfather was sitting there. I was VERY shocked because my Grandfather passed away when I was 12 and I have never been "visited" by him in a dream, just my maternal Grandmother. My Grandfather proceeded to tell me that my Father is just like he was while he was living....a home body, so he might not always be around, but no matter what he (my Dad) could hear me talking to him. I started to drive the car, but was having a hard time moving my body...my Grandfather took my hands and helped me to drive...all of a sudden my Grandfather was no longer in the car and I felt my Dads hands helping me to drive.

There were other little parts, but I can not remember all of it... I just know that my Dad did not say a word during the whole thing, but I saw him in the beginning and felt him in the end. I have gone over this dream a million times in my head and can not figure out why my Dad didn't talk and my Grandfather did all the talking. I feel like my Dad brought my Grandfather into the dream, but can't figure out why and why did he come 3 nights after me asking him to show me a sign... did it take him that long to talk Grandpa into coming???....has he not finished up oriention and doesn't know how to talk yet?? Also the fact that the "dream" was in the car when I had just asked him for a sign while sitting in my car made it even more real.

Any thoughts on my "visit"? I really feel like it is real and not a dream and then I think about it and think maybe I am crazy.....

JenBear7 · 07-01-2008, 10:33 AM

You gave me goosebumps! I think its awesome that your dad visited you...sometimes, people don't need words to communicate, maybe your dad just didnt feel the need. That you FELT him to me sounds like a bigger gift than actually hearing him

*still LOL'ing at the orientation comment tho!*