Beth's Story - Page 13 - ThinnerTimes

MiladyB · 01-22-2007, 09:35 PM

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Originally Posted by porshh951

wow what a story and what a great read. As werid as this might sound I was actually entertained reading you're story. haha I know I know werid.

You have come such a long way. You have to be proud of yourself cause I know we are. 170lbs down in a year is serious business especially for women who seem to hang onto fat a little better than us men.

Mind me asking what you're program was as far as exercise and eating?

*L* Glad you found the read entertaining. Hmmmm...its a little weird, but that's okay. I like people who aren't like everyone else.

I appreciate your support and your words and if my story has spoken to you at all I'm thrilled.

Yes, I am proud of how far I have come over the last year. I look at my present weight and sometimes I still wonder if I'm dreaming!

No, I don't mind you asking me about my program. I'm afraid its pretty basic, though. My protein goal is 70-90 grams, less than 30 grams of fat , 64 oz of water and 1000-1200 calories. I push myself to reach those numbers. I find I lose better if I'm getting in what I'm supposed to get in. Even though I don't constantly food journal, I do add things up in my head. I'm very aware of the calorie, protein and fat content of what I eat. Now when it comes to exercise I'm afraid I'm really not doing anything out of the ordinary. I primarily walk 3 miles a day and if I'm not walking I do my stationary bike about 8 miles. Other than that it is just hand weights or exercise bands. So, I'm afraid I don't have any special secrets. I just basicly make sure I'm following the rules. It seems to be working for me.

porshh951 · 01-22-2007, 10:51 PM

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Originally Posted by MiladyB

No, I don't mind you asking me about my program. I'm afraid its pretty basic, though. My protein goal is 70-90 grams, less than 30 grams of fat , 64 oz of water and 1000-1200 calories. I push myself to reach those numbers. I find I lose better if I'm getting in what I'm supposed to get in. Even though I don't constantly food journal, I do add things up in my head. I'm very aware of the calorie, protein and fat content of what I eat. Now when it comes to exercise I'm afraid I'm really not doing anything out of the ordinary. I primarily walk 3 miles a day and if I'm not walking I do my stationary bike about 8 miles. Other than that it is just hand weights or exercise bands. So, I'm afraid I don't have any special secrets. I just basicly make sure I'm following the rules. It seems to be working for me.

awesome. Thanks

MiladyB · 01-24-2007, 09:27 AM

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Originally Posted by porshh951

awesome. Thanks

You're welcome, John.

MiladyB · 01-30-2007, 10:19 AM

January 30, 2007 12:00 pm

Exactly one year ago today at 12:00 pm I was entering the surgery suite. I was nervous but also very excited about what the future would bring. I know, though, that I couldn't even imagine the changes this past year has brought.

I am not yet to goal but I have lost more weight than what my final goal weight is. I have lost an entire person! My co-morbidities have almost completely vanished; Type II Diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high cholesterol. They are all in control without meds except for one med for my blood pressure. When I started this journey I was on 3 for blood pressure and my diabetes. For those reasons ALONE, this journey has been the best decision I have ever made for myself.

But even with all the improvements to my health the blessings have been more than I ever fathomed. I have found a new confidence in myself. I have realized a dream I never thought I would see in my life time. I have found the beauty not only within myself but with new eyes I am beginning to see the beauty on the outside. This surgery has made me whole. Though I still have times of struggle emotionally I am learning to deal with those emotions in a healthy way. I am beginning to rediscover what "life" is. I honestly had forgotten what "life" feels like.

Thank you all for being here for me. I love you all so very much. I have been blessed by all of you and it is because of you that I have come so far.

My goals for this next year are to continue to grow mentally, to share my knowledge and experience with others so that they can know what it means to "live", hopefully reach my goal, and maybe, just maybe....PS down the line!

Those are the goals I have for myself in the year to come. But honestly? Even if I don't reach that "weight goal", I am happy with myself and that is what my true goal was when I started this journey...and I have MADE IT!

chilmoe · 01-30-2007, 10:25 AM

beth you brought tears to my eyes, congrats on your success and handling everything so gracefully as you do, i love you right back.

LisaBoston · 01-30-2007, 10:54 AM

Oh Beth, so proud of you. You are succeeded and not only improved your health, but come to realize so many things about yourself. Congrats Podmate. Lets all toast a protein drink on your behalf ;-)

Mavisavis · 01-30-2007, 11:13 AM

Beth, what a beautiful way to express your journey and your heart. I have many of the same thoughts and feelings. I am so proud of you, but your self pride is what is so very important. I am blessed to know you.

MiladyB · 01-30-2007, 03:18 PM

Carrie, Lisa and Marty-

Thank you so much for sharing this journey with me. You all have been a source of constant encouragement and I am so glad you are a part of my journey.

MiladyB · 04-04-2007, 06:43 PM

I've been having some emotional struggles as of late. Its all wrapped up in my present self image and I don't like how its making me feel emotionally. I was struggling with feelings of depression today which is new for me. I'm not saying that I've never been depressed but it hasn't really been an issue for me even before surgery....but today?...I don't know I just felt like I wanted to cry. I'm not real sure all that is playing into this emotional struggle right now but it has a very familiar feeling. It has much of the hallmark signs of how I was feeling when I was trying to decide if I should have weight loss surgery. I'm feeling scared...vulnerable. I'm only about 20 lbs from my goal, in size 14 clothes, I'm so much healthier so what in the world is going on???

I'm becoming increasingly more aware of how my body is looking. Its beginning to bother me more. I'm seeing my knee pain come back. The other day after watching a movie I had to grab DH to stablize myself. My knee was so sore and stiff I couldn't even take a step without him. I felt like I was back to square one when it came to my knee pain!!! Its discouraging. I can't help but think the weight of my panni is playing into it or is it just wishful thinking...

I want to get something done but I'm scared my insurance won't cover it. I'm scared I won't be able to figure out a way to financially afford being off from work. I'm afraid my family will be upset if because Mom has surgery there won't be any kind of summer vacation. The truth is....I'm just afraid and my head keeps going through all of the "what ifs". The fear is paralyzing me. I dream about plastic surgery consults.... These fears, thoughts, hesitation in taking action...its all what I felt when I was struggling with the decision of wls. I swore after surgery that I was going to always be proactive when it came to my health...now here I sit...afraid to make the next move.

Does anyone understand or am I just going a wee bit loony?

mauldinmama · 04-04-2007, 06:58 PM

please don't let that knee get worse...you answer everyone who replies to you...step back and see yourself through loving eyes and write a reply to yourself...Or What would you say to someone who wrote that post....