I'm having a hard time keeping up with this thread. Have to keep remembering to enter something so that I can keep my thoughts agoing and keep myself acountable. I finally made it to ONEderland last week. I have been waiting for the day my weight starts with a one vs a two for a long time, since long before WLS. It was such an amazing feeling to hit that goal, though it hasn't been a goal, I never set small goals for myself, it is the whole enchilada or nothing is good enough. This is probably why dieting was never successful for me. I didn't achieve the whole goal immediately so I viewed myself as a failure and then gave into the cravings and the appetite to buffer the feelings.
What stunned me though, after achieving this, and feeling this natural high of life. I felt blah a few days afterward. I don't know if it is because in my realizing this moment I started focusing on the fact I still have 63 lbs to go and I hadn't achieved the whole thing, or if it was just life going on around me. Life has been more stressful the past few days. I need to find a way to cope with the stress as I do want to munch on everything in site. Though I physically can't eat everything, I could eat more than the pouch is used to and thus curb my weightloss or stop it all together at some point and then gain. This is a big fear of mine. So many people sabotage all their efforts and end up gaining a lot, if not all of their weight back.
Well I have rambled on long enough. To anyone who reads this, sorry if it is a little boring. This thread just gives me a chance to get my feelings or thoughts out. I am so happy I have had this surgery. It has changed my life and put it back on track, something I just had failed miserably at on my own.
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Melanie............
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