LizzieShell

I brought my son home and things were as they always are for new parents, a little tough. It was about 3 months later that I looked in the mirror and realized that I was pregnant again. No kidding, I just looked at myself one morning and knew I was pregnant. I went to see the Doctor and he had to give me a blood test to be sure (this was of course before the invent of the home tests that are so actuate.

So I had a 3 month old and I was pregnant again. My husband's reaction was "OH"....

I just want to say that by writing here in this forum, I do not mean to hurt anyone's feelings. The writings here are purely my interpretations of what has already happened. I do not believe that there was any malice or evil intent in anyone actions. But we all are the sum of our experiences.

I left home after an argument with my Dad. It was a silly thing, but I still remember it all. We were building a garden, and the pitch fork got bent. As I said it was silly. I was always told that if I did not like things there or was not happy, don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out. Well I was head strong and dumb, so I packed and left (actually took my things out a little at a time so my parents did not know) Did I mention that I was DUMB ?? Went to school one morning and did not...

** It has been suggested that I journal as a way to let the emotions out instead of stuffing them. I have some trust issues with that process as my privacy was violated in the past. That being said, the anonymity of this forum gives me some measure of comfort. I know in my heart that the things that were done to hurt me were done mainly out of ignorance ** Since this is a journal, I do not expect comments - but I am not opposed to them either. **

I say Bethi's story, because that...