elizabeth-jap

so sorry these obviously go from bottom to top and there's one duplicate that for the life of me I could not delete.....my e-mail is elizabethpopma@yahoo.com.....I sure hope this isn't the beginning of how the rest of the day is going to go......

last night I didn't do this, clearly because I went to bed really tired and I had probably a little bigger protein shake then the 8 oz I probably had closer to a 12 oz but I thought it would be better then my normal sugar drugs::: and I guess I just wondered if anyone else was doing or had done anything close to that, I mean I go into meijers and I feel like I want to stick my whole face into one of those beautiful looking cakes....but I do have the fear of being arrested!!! I know people will say, "just don't buy them" it's like telling an alcoholic "just don't buy alcohol" and this is really causing a depression..

I was 254 two weeks before surgery and I have to say I lost 17lbs just on that two week diet, I know am stuck at 218...and in all honesty I've been walking almost every single day about 2 miles, but I've also, been living on the whey shakes still but have in all honesty been cheating with of all things fruit roll ups, licorice, and those special K bars the blueberry ones....I can't stop this sugar urge of mine,,and it's funny because I can't tolerate anything but those 3 things...I know with every being in my soul that I have ot stop these and would probably be lower then the 218 that I'm stuck at, I wish so bad I would throw up or get the dumping syndrome that I get from tuna or eggs, or anything else..this sugar is like a fricken drug

...last night I didn't do this, clearly because I went to bed really tired and I had probably a little bigger protein shake then the 8 oz I probably had closer to a 12 oz but I thought it would be better then my normal sugar drugs::: and I guess I just wondered if anyone else was doing or had done anything close to that, I mean I go into meijers and I feel like I want to stick my whole face into one of those beautiful looking cakes....but I do have the fear of being arrested!!! I know people will say, "just don't buy them" it's like telling an alcoholic "just don't buy alcohol" and this is really causing a depression..

I was 254 two weeks before surgery and I have to say I lost 17lbs just on that two week diet, I know am stuck at 218...and in all honesty I've been walking almost every single day about 2 miles, but I've also, been living on the whey shakes still but have in all honesty been cheating with of all things fruit roll ups, licorice, and those special K bars the blueberry ones....I can't stop this sugar urge of mine,,and it's funny because I can't tolerate anything but those 3 things...I know with every being in my soul that I have ot stop these and would probably be lower then the 218 that I'm stuck at, I wish so bad I would throw up or get the dumping syndrome that I get from tuna or eggs, or anything else..this sugar is like a fricken drug

Hi first of all I would like to thank you all for your replies to my messages: I which I'm sure you don't remember had the RNY sept 8th, and in all honesty have not have the best relations with the staff at my check-ups, I don't think they realize how hard it is for me to get up there to (Muskegon) from Holland, before I had surgery everyone was promising to be so helpful, which has not turned out that way so much, the only family I have here are 3 teenage children 22, 19 and 17 well the first 2 have full time jobs and a boyfriend and a girlfriend and the youngest doesn't even have a license...and I thought ok well I can always relyon Good Samaritan which I just recently found out they no longer go to Muskegon: So I'm trying to set up rides with church friends etc...it's hard because it is a long way from Holland so on the office's behalf I realize why there irritated with me, but I just haven't had the transportation

how do I check my messages on here?