Originally my plan was to stay home and save money until I absolutely HAD to leave...my mom said I can live with her forever if I'd like though.
But, yesterday I decided that I need to leave home...maybe just for a little while, maybe for a long time. I've had depression for the past 2 years and it's getting worse. My psychologist at Stanford yesterday asked me how many days out of the past 14 days have I spent laying in bed crying all day, and I said 10. She said that's a lot, but I thought I was actually doing pretty good! I've noticed that I'm a mess at home, but when I leave home and am away for a while I feel perfectly fine. Also, I'm not getting the support I need surgery wise from my family. I am doing it all alone and think it would be best for me to leave for a little while. Might not be permanent, but I do need some time away from home where I can get my act together or I will wind up gaining all of my weight back, I already know it.
