I'm managing. I have an appointment tomorrow to find out when surgery will be. With this group it could be 1 day or 100 days, you just never know. I'm really hanging on by a thread, everyday is a struggle. My PCP is very cautious when it comes to pain pills, and wants me to do whatever it takes to only take 2 a day, meaning just to get thru the day I'm having to smoke weed, take nerve desensitizers, have a drink, sedatives, sleeping a lot, laying on the shower floor a couple times a day just letting the water take it all away. I'm really barely hanging on. I hope this happens soon, I hate this.. just doing anything I can to get thru hour to hour, really hate the weed and beer thing. I refuse to eat and get fatter when the weed gives me munchies so I just fall asleep again. It's a vicious circle. Crying myself to sleep and waking up to reality to do it all again. I pray he can fit me in during the next two weeks cause I don't know how much longer I can hold on Corrine.
