ChrissyChris

I have had many emotions since getting my date but I think for the most part I am just ready. I played the “what if” game bad with myself and had some major anxiety. I finally just had to get into my head and think about the reasons I am having it done. The truth is there are risks, but anyone of us can be a victim of a accident any day. I know I elected to do this, which plays with your head, but then I remember that this choice was to LIVE and be myself again, not to just exist and be sickly and...

I cannot wait to stop hoarding things! I have a mini department store full of clothes….everything from a 12 to a 20/22 I have kept. I always use to justify that I was going to lose weight, that I would work out more or some miracle would happen! I love clothes so when I would gain weight I would buy shoes because shoes always fit me. My feet rarely gained weight so I was safe with shoes for a long time. Of course I could not walk around naked in my fabulous new shoes so I bought bigger clothes...

It's seems that all I want to do is hurry up and get this done! I feel obsessed! I am so excited that I keep checking to make sure everything is ready for me to have surgery. A part of me is scared but I now have so much hope that I feel like I am the happiest person alive! I know that is silly but that is how I feel....lol....I wish I could focus on anything but surgery!

On a sad note, my fiancée’s good friend Carl's sister (26) just passed unexpectedly. She leaves behind children...

I was just approved from BCBS NJ today and am just waiting to find out the date of my surgery!! WOO HOOO...I am so excited! I should have a date by Monday.