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Well today i attended my 4th appointment , and other than the fact that i need to submit a poop sample it all went well. My doc was very, very, very pleased with the 15 lbs i lost since my last visit. I fortunately escaped a sleep apnea test as they didn't feel it was necessary, YAHOO. Now its on to my next appointment on OCT 1st.. they squeezed 5 appointments into that day. i will be at the hospital all day. Ultrasound, labs, poop test, doc vist and finally my next support group meeting. I will be at the hospital from 10am to 4pm. Thats gonna be tough. Looks like im in the stretch run after oct 1st my last apt will be Nov 3rd.

***at this visit the nut gave me a green light to move on***

Wow the waiting game is really taxing on the mind and soul, as well as physically. I am finding it on my mind constantly. Each appointment they give me seems years away, i sit and count the days like i was in jail or something. I have done so much research that i am now running into walls. I cant find anything else to do. I am a member of multiple forums, allthough the threads are different the element is the same. So everything is redundant. I am only half way through my 6 month program , once i complete the six month i obviously have to wait another 6-8 weeks for everything else to happen and get a date. I get my self sick worrying about whether i will be approved by my insurance company. I know this is normal but it feels good to vent..

Well this blogs title says it all.. Frustration due to mainly 3 things.. The cannot go below 40 bmi, as explained in the prior blog post along with the fear of denial from insurance. I had to pay a total of 375 dollars to take part in this program , now my fear is that i get denied and wham i loose that 375. Now i am not rich and that money could have been used for other things rather than this. I mean i am only 3 months into my 6 month program and it weighs in my mind heavily

Well today i called my doctors office and spoke to them just to ask the question about my weight loss and got bad news. I was told to only loose 5 percent of my weight, now i have lost the 15 lbs they require. But i sill have 3 months left in the program and i cant loose anymore.. This is crazy! i have to maintain the wait i am at now.. i cant gain or loose weight. I mean i can gain it but i must loose it again before final weigh in. It frustrates me because that just shows how much the insurance industry rules the world.. I cant lose more than 15 because it would put me under 40 bmi and thus i wont be covered