Update on me...EXTREAMLY LONG - ThinnerTimes

Midntsgirl · 01-11-2006, 10:49 PM

Well here it is the beginning of 2006. WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE EACTLY!?!?!?!? Where do I start with the boring details of what is my life? AH HA...the beginning.

When I last posted I was mostly depressed and discouraged. I had gotten back together with my ex-husband, who broke up with me on Thanksgiving, and I was feeling sorry for myself. Well I started to realize that I didn't need his drama in my life...I had enough of my own.
Then, at 31 years old, I got the chicken pox. Felt ok, just itchy and BORED cause I couldn't leave the house. Again started feeling sorry for myself cause I missed my company's Christmas Party...and I REALLY wanted to go. I hated looking at myself in the mirror because everytime I did there were more spots/blisters/sores/scabs on my face. Then, I started thinking that getting these spots was some kind of a hint from SOMEONE that I was becoming too vain and getting too full of myself. It was a wake up call for me. After a few days, reguardless of how my face looked, I started having a better attitude and a better outlook on life. I came to the realization that NO MATTER what I looked like, I had people around me that loved me and I was blessed.
Next came Christmas. The first one without my father. It was sad because my family was talking about all the previous ones when he was still here. BUT, I looked at the bright side there too...he's not "gone" and he was there. He's a part of all of us wether he's there in person or in spirit. Not only was Christmas a time to look back on the past, but a time to look forward towards bigger and better things. My oldest daughter's father and I decided to get together and start a relationship. (We were not together when she was conceived or anytime after that. We were friends who kind of let things go a little too far one night, and SURPRISE...) We had a conversation one night about being happy and how we felt about eachother. He revealed that he had strong feelings for me, and eventhough I never knew he felt that way about me, I did some soul searching and realized I felt the same way about him. He's always been there for me and always supported me. Most of the time a successful relationship starts as a friendship. So, we'll take it one day at a time and see how things go from here.
After that came my youngest daughter's birthday and the bad news that my 38 year old brother had gotten the chicken pox as well. I felt so guilty because I had dropped my children off with him while I was sick and then after being totally selfless, he got sick. He's since recovered, but had a terrible New Year.
My New Year, so far, is going well. I have a prospect of a new job, making more money and not having to work 60 hours a week anymore. I'll actually get to see my children!! Not to mention...I'll actually have a life besides work again. I'll let you know how that goes, but in the meantime keep your fingers crossed. I'm taking things minute by minute.
Oh...duh. I forgot to update my weight situation. I went down to 174 in September or October and kind of got stuck there. Then I gained about 12 pounds and I couldn't get rid of it. Well...recently I weighed myself (after avoiding the scale) and discovered that I lost 10 pounds. I don't know how I did it, but it's gone and it won't be coming back!
So, that's about it. I could go on and on, but I'll leave some for the next time I post my update. Thanks for listening and take care!!

LizardQueen · 01-12-2006, 06:22 AM

Brenda, Oh how awful to have the chicken Pox! Icky lil boogers! Glad you adn your brother are feeling better. I hope things work out with the man in your life. Me and my hubby kinda did the same thing and 9 years later we are still happy we decided to giveit another go. I hope that is what happens with you to! Congrats on the 10 lbs!

Jeanie · 01-12-2006, 08:56 AM

Hey girl!! Sorry to hear about the chicken pox. I've never had them either. I say that's what I'll die from when I'm 90

. I'm happy to hear about the new/old man in your life. I hope that it all works out! Keep us updated. Hey we are going out tomorrow night. I will try and give you a call tonight, but my life has been crazy busy lately. Talk to you soon!

Bypassingme619 · 01-12-2006, 09:17 AM

Wow Brenda you have been going through a lot. I am glad you finally came out to share some of what you have been going through. I know you have heard this before but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, after all you have been through I see a very different woman in the making. God is removing all the bad things in your life so you can recieve happiness. Your ex-husband did you a big favor. One day you might even be able to thank him for letting you go so you could find true happiness. Big hugs for all you have been through.

Baron Patrick · 01-12-2006, 09:39 AM

Brenda;

I'm very proud of you. A lot was thrown at you, and you didn't have a metldown, but dealt with each one as it came. Nothing like adult chicken pox to put things in perspective, huh?!

When you have a positive outlook on life, that's when the good things begin to happen, and you see things that were not there before, including your 10 lb. weight loss.

It's good your taking it one day at a time. Take it slow, but not so slow that you get run over. It's like the old saying, if your on the right track and just sit there, you'll get run over by the train! It sounds like you are, and your moving along. Take it at your own pace, and just keep going forward!

Gladitsme · 01-12-2006, 10:47 AM

Brenda,
Congrats on the weight loss and the changed relationship in your life. I hope you do get the new job and that it's all you hope it will be.

Midntsgirl · 01-13-2006, 10:53 AM

Thanks for all the well wishes and encouragement!! Hopefully everything will work out the way it's supposed to. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

bridgetgirl · 01-13-2006, 12:17 PM

Hey Brenda, you said ..... "hope it works out, the way its supposed to", what does that mean for you?

Hope all is well with ya.

Midntsgirl · 01-13-2006, 12:29 PM

Well, for me, "the way it's supposed to" means...the way that God has my life planned. I mean however things go is what's 'meant' to happen. At least in my eyes. As it turns out, I can't get hired at that job I mentioned before because I have too many points on my driving record. So, it wasn't 'meant' to be at this time. Maybe I'm 'meant' to be an instructor at the driving school for now. WHO KNOWS?!?!?! Life is what it is. Take it one day at a time.

bridgetgirl · 01-13-2006, 12:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Midntsgirl

Well, for me, "the way it's supposed to" means...the way that God has my life planned. I mean however things go is what's 'meant' to happen. At least in my eyes. As it turns out, I can't get hired at that job I mentioned before because I have too many points on my driving record. So, it wasn't 'meant' to be at this time. Maybe I'm 'meant' to be an instructor at the driving school for now. WHO KNOWS?!?!?! Life is what it is. Take it one day at a time.

One day at a time.. absolutely! Thats how I live it n stuff

Brenda the teacher... it has a nice ring to it