ladytonya

It's not unusual to feel out of control at this point after surgery. My emotions went totally wacky! I would go from crazy happy, almost manic, to horribly depressed in a few hours. You have lost a LOT of weight in a very short time. (Congrats on that, BTW! You are doing great!) It seriously messes with the hormones!

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Tonya
Dr. Roc Bauman, Concord, NC
Surgery date: December 11, 2006
Lap Banded RNY, aka Fobi Pouch
457/447/220/160
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soon2bthin

First off you are doing amazing in your weight loss, keep up the good work. On a more serious note, everything Mike and everyone else has said 10 fold. While divorce is an option, trust me girl I contemplate it at least once everyday, that you can get through. It will be rough, but it will get better. Be there for those babies of yours. They depend on you solely and unconditionally. Get yourself to a doc asap specializing in depression, see a therapist, come on here and vent, heck call or email me and let me have it. I promise I will listen. That is what all of us are here for. Rest and get better, you owe it to yourself and your babies. Keep posting on how you are doing please.

Cassie

kellyMASS

OOOH Chiquita,

I still remember that post from way back when your husband made that comment about surgery being the easy way out.It really seems like the two of you are hot then cold.Maybe it is time to move on.I know GOdblessed me just went through the same thing and is much happier now.You are an awesome woman and It really will be okay.You know what you need to do.Please dont jump off a bridge you would be missed.

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Kelly

highest 400

now 363 = 37 pounds lost on my own!!!!

surgery ?????????

goal 180


I am doing well on my pre op diet
Thyroid is now under control.I have made the duodenal switch my surgery of choice.
37 pounds so far......

TT Bear - Lucky Bear

chiquita

Here I am a day after my big melt down, I survived it.

I think that is as low as I ever felt, to think that way, and even if I did said it was not hormonal, now looking at it, that was not me, but it was, and that is what is a bit more upseting.

My father did the suicide thing, so depression runs in my family, his father did, and my mothers father did, and well I stop at that because it's depressing just thinking about it.

Today, feel much better. I bought me a Bow Flex 2 weeks ago, and today I worked that thing for half an hour, after, I felt so much energy,, who would of thought that excersizing would give me so much of it, and yet it did. The rest of the day I felt ok, with the exception of that coffee I had at Dutch Bro's and it kicked in,, felt I could not concentrate on my work like I like to.

One thing I can say,, I love my work, I work from home in a virtual reality online world called Second Life,, anyone here plays? It pays my bills, and it is paying for this surgery, now I make more a month then my husband does and my challenge is to double it by next summer 2009

Anyways, just want to thank you all for your words and support,, I am thinking about saving up to get to the therapist who did my evaluation for the surgery, I did liked her and her prices are not bad.

As I have time I will explain more in detail why I felt the way I did, and yes, I still do think I am heading for a divoce, that is what I want and I do believe is for the best.

Thanks all

Chiquita

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Height 5'2"

Most 400-Goal 130
11-07-07 / 1st doc Visit 385
1-07-08 / Pre-op 370
1-14-08 /1 week follow up 367
1-29-08 / 3 weeks post-op 350 Yeeehaaaa!!!
3-31-08 / 3 months post-op 315
5-05-08 / 18 weeks post-op 293
(107 lbs Gone!-77 Since Surgery)
Lap RNY Date January 8th-08

TT Gym rat club member #77
Century Club 4-27-08
Twinderland 4-27-08 (nope not refering to my chest )