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paige52 · 01-29-2008, 04:22 PM

and glad you didnt' stay away to long... you add such value to this board.

I was reading your post and thinking that I sturggle with many of the same things specifically the other day I found myself talking to myself and saying I looked so much better when I had meat on my bones. 116 is just to small for someone like me... who is someone like me? Obviously since they make the clothes there are other size 2 people out there.... so who is someone "like me"?

Could it be that "like me" means fat? Can I really only see myself as fat, chubby, slightly larger?

The other thing I struggle with these days is appropriate clothing. I mean I dont' want to dress like my 22 year old daughter but we have fairly close to the same figure. The clothes I've always been comfortable wearing "mom clothes" also know as preppy...are just so expensive and usually start around size 4 like at GAP... I'm having a terrible time finding stuff.

I've been shopping in thrift stores for so long because you go through so many sizes so quickly.... now I'm small enough that they hardly have anything in my size. I just wnat to be normal and based on availabilty normal falls somewhere between 6 & 12....

Anyway I guess my point is that super fat or super thin I still struggle with body Identity.

MiladyB · 01-29-2008, 08:23 PM

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Originally Posted by paige52

and glad you didnt' stay away to long... you add such value to this board.

I was reading your post and thinking that I sturggle with many of the same things specifically the other day I found myself talking to myself and saying I looked so much better when I had meat on my bones. 116 is just to small for someone like me... who is someone like me? Obviously since they make the clothes there are other size 2 people out there.... so who is someone "like me"?

Could it be that "like me" means fat? Can I really only see myself as fat, chubby, slightly larger?

The other thing I struggle with these days is appropriate clothing. I mean I dont' want to dress like my 22 year old daughter but we have fairly close to the same figure. The clothes I've always been comfortable wearing "mom clothes" also know as preppy...are just so expensive and usually start around size 4 like at GAP... I'm having a terrible time finding stuff.

I've been shopping in thrift stores for so long because you go through so many sizes so quickly.... now I'm small enough that they hardly have anything in my size. I just wnat to be normal and based on availabilty normal falls somewhere between 6 & 12....

Anyway I guess my point is that super fat or super thin I still struggle with body Identity.

I understand what you are saying, Paige. Why is it so hard to see ourselves as we really are? I honestly don't see myself as "fat" anymore but I do still see myself looking at other women thinking..."wow, if I only looked like that!!" Only to realize that I DO look like that!!....or at least that's what my family and friends tell me. *L*

I thankfully don't struggle with the clothes issue like you do. I am in that size 6-8 but I do find myself drawn to those younger looking clothes. *L* Must be because I never did get to dress like that when I was younger....then I dressed in those "MOM" clothes.....sheesh...no wonder I'm having an identity crisis...I'm doing everything backwards.

atsagirl · 01-30-2008, 04:09 AM

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Originally Posted by MiladyB

I understand what you are saying, Paige. Why is it so hard to see ourselves as we really are? I honestly don't see myself as "fat" anymore but I do still see myself looking at other women thinking..."wow, if I only looked like that!!" Only to realize that I DO look like that!!....or at least that's what my family and friends tell me. *L*

I thankfully don't struggle with the clothes issue like you do. I am in that size 6-8 but I do find myself drawn to those younger looking clothes. *L* Must be because I never did get to dress like that when I was younger....then I dressed in those "MOM" clothes.....sheesh...no wonder I'm having an identity crisis...I'm doing everything backwards.

Beth, first I want to say CONGRATS ON 2 YEARS!!!!! You have done just wonderful!'
You were the first person that I found on here and have helped me so much. I want to be just like you when I grow down!!!

"I sometimes find myself wrestling with feelings that I don't deserve this "goodness". Or wondering if this too is only yet another one of my dreams. Am I going to wake up one day to find myself once again over 300 pounds? I get on the scale and I still find it hard to believe. I still can't wrap my mind around the number I see on the scale because those are the numbers that I have only experienced in my dreams and I have been so programed throughout my life that when it comes to my weight my dreams will never be a reality."

This sounds so much like me. If I ever get under the 150 mark it will be a first since I was in high school, so long ago and I felt fat then, (well, I was still 35lbs overweight)
So from 150 on it will be totally a new experance for me.

" Now that I have tackled so many of the physical demons it is now the time to work on "me". Sure, there are many times I fall back into old patterns, I see it often but now at least I recognize them and I can face them before they pull me under."

This is so beautifully stated, I especially like the part about not letting them pull me under, I have been pulled under a lot and now have to look hard to recognize the patterns.

I really look up to you and your accomplishments. You are a real inspiration to me, thank you so much,
Your friend, Ann

Corrine · 01-30-2008, 07:54 AM

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Originally Posted by MiladyB

........... I thankfully don't struggle with the clothes issue like you do. I am in that size 6-8 but I do find myself drawn to those younger looking clothes. *L* Must be because I never did get to dress like that when I was younger....then I dressed in those "MOM" clothes.....sheesh...no wonder I'm having an identity crisis...I'm doing everything backwards.

Boy! Did you nail that one for me!

My parents had little money when I was growing up - we never went without but we didn't have the money to spare for a lot of clothes.

My Mum was a master at finding stuff at the local jumble sales back home in the UK. Trouble was, being on the rotund side, the only thing that ever fitted was what I now refer to as "designer polyester".

I can remember it as if it were yesterday. I'd try the dresses on and then have to stand on a chair for ages while my Mum took up the 2ft of excess from the bottom.

Those dresses were hideous.

Of course, things changed - fashions changed and when I started earning money, I was able to buy clothes for myself.

I thought I looked like the bees knees in my first pair of denim jeans - UK size 28 - elasticated waist and all.

I don't have to buy clothes from the big girls store anymore which is great. Problem is, I don't seem to have much of an idea as to what I should be buying. I know what I want to wear but a passing comment from my husband about a lacy T-shirt gave me food for thought.

Apparently, it just isn't cool being almost 53 and still a little puffy, showing that amount of flesh. He said I looked like a cheap trick on a Friday night!

I didn't buy the T-shirt but I have to tell you, for all of a couple of minutes, I felt REALLY good just being able to fit in it!

MiladyB · 01-30-2008, 09:13 AM

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Originally Posted by atsagirl

Beth, first I want to say CONGRATS ON 2 YEARS!!!!! You have done just wonderful!'
You were the first person that I found on here and have helped me so much. I want to be just like you when I grow down!!!

"I sometimes find myself wrestling with feelings that I don't deserve this "goodness". Or wondering if this too is only yet another one of my dreams. Am I going to wake up one day to find myself once again over 300 pounds? I get on the scale and I still find it hard to believe. I still can't wrap my mind around the number I see on the scale because those are the numbers that I have only experienced in my dreams and I have been so programed throughout my life that when it comes to my weight my dreams will never be a reality."

This sounds so much like me. If I ever get under the 150 mark it will be a first since I was in high school, so long ago and I felt fat then, (well, I was still 35lbs overweight)
So from 150 on it will be totally a new experance for me.

" Now that I have tackled so many of the physical demons it is now the time to work on "me". Sure, there are many times I fall back into old patterns, I see it often but now at least I recognize them and I can face them before they pull me under."

This is so beautifully stated, I especially like the part about not letting them pull me under, I have been pulled under a lot and now have to look hard to recognize the patterns.

I really look up to you and your accomplishments. You are a real inspiration to me, thank you so much,
Your friend, Ann

Oh Ann, thank you so much my friend! I am so glad that I have come to know you on a personal level. You really are a friend and I am so thankful every day for you and Judy. The two of you have played a huge part of why I have done so well and you both have given me a reason to keep working hard at being a success. You hold me accountable and for that I am forever thankful.

I hope you are staying warm in this cold. I'm glad to see you on the computer because it means you still have power after all of the wind last night. Once this blizzard clears you, me and Judy HAVE to do lunch again!!

Stay warm!! Love you my friend!

MiladyB · 01-30-2008, 09:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Corrine

I don't have to buy clothes from the big girls store anymore which is great. Problem is, I don't seem to have much of an idea as to what I should be buying. I know what I want to wear but a passing comment from my husband about a lacy T-shirt gave me food for thought.

Apparently, it just isn't cool being almost 53 and still a little puffy, showing that amount of flesh. He said I looked like a cheap trick on a Friday night!

I didn't buy the T-shirt but I have to tell you, for all of a couple of minutes, I felt REALLY good just being able to fit in it!

*LOL* Oh Corrine, yep, I am right there with you on this one my dear!! I've had my 25 year old daughter on more than one occasion hint that my clothes were too young...but I FEEL SO GOOD in them!!! *L* I'm finding I am drawn to all of those clothes that I wished I could wear 30 years ago. There has been more than one occasion that I have had to reign myself in just a wee bit and remind myself that I am almost 52 even though I FEEL more like 20!! Heck...that is the last time I felt as good as I do now. Like I said no wonder I'm having an identity crises!