Nancy,
I like you have not been posting either. Since I moved to Sacramento I don't feel like I belong any more, which makes no sense what-so-ever since the major portion of the members here are not from the SD area.
Remember the night we met at Pam's group, there is a picture floating around out there somewhere? I had a pair of 'goal jeans' with me that night. Well how come, as I sit here wearing those jeans, am I so depressed because I have gained 7 lbs?
Why do I get so mad at people that 'can't eat' cause I can eat anything and if not in large quantities, as much as I want. I have had no complications, I don't dump, I eat sugar, can (and do) drink diet soda. Very seldom, my pouch tells me to stop and I have to spit out what I am chewing but it doesn't happen very often.
Wait a minute! Just because my body is not helping, doesn't mean I have to give up and just eat whatever I want, I still make the choices. Why am I making the wrong choices when I know it is jepordizing my weight loss.
All I wanted was to lose the weight and lose the co-morbidities and just be able to eat with out a major battle plan everyday. I thought my body was going to help me with that by restricting my intake in it's devious little RNY way.
Now I find myself looking at weight loss ads and thinking, 'maybe that will work', knowing full well it is a bunch of BS.
I was at the same weight, 160, for over a year and just the last 4 months have started to gain, I feel it in my pants! I am also comming up on my two year re-birthday 7/15, and I don't want to spend it at a higher weight than I should be.
I think I will also post this as a new thread. The first step is admitting you need help, right?
Marcia
