Who else doesn't see themselves as small? - Page 7 - ThinnerTimes

AusLaurie · 02-07-2008, 04:35 PM

When I look in the mirror at my face I think that I look like a "normal" person. But when I look at my body, I still feel fat.

Often when I'm sitting down and I feel my shirt a little bit snug on my tummy I feel REALLY fat and I look down at my "fat" tummy and am surprised that it isn't huge like it used to be. It's not nice and flat either but it is by no means anywhere near to as big as it was.

I gained 6 pounds over the Christmas season and when I tell people I need to lose that again they look at me like I'm an alien! I try and explain that 6 pounds can lead to 10 which can lead to 20 which can lead me right back to my path of destruction. They seem to accept this.

Anyways, thank you so much for starting this post and for all that have answered it. I know I am late in reading it but it has made me feel better to know I'm not as weird as I feel sometimes.

Laurie

marine · 02-07-2008, 09:43 PM

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Originally Posted by AusLaurie

When I look in the mirror at my face I think that I look like a "normal" person. But when I look at my body, I still feel fat.

Often when I'm sitting down and I feel my shirt a little bit snug on my tummy I feel REALLY fat and I look down at my "fat" tummy and am surprised that it isn't huge like it used to be. It's not nice and flat either but it is by no means anywhere near to as big as it was.

I gained 6 pounds over the Christmas season and when I tell people I need to lose that again they look at me like I'm an alien! I try and explain that 6 pounds can lead to 10 which can lead to 20 which can lead me right back to my path of destruction. They seem to accept this.

Anyways, thank you so much for starting this post and for all that have answered it. I know I am late in reading it but it has made me feel better to know I'm not as weird as I feel sometimes.

Laurie

Laurie you could not describe better what I feel.
Dressed I feel "thinner", but still fat. But undressed, or when I have to go to the physician to take my weight, I feel so uggly, the body was huge before, and still is now, and has the "marks" of the past, losts of skin, wrinkled skin, a body that suffered of all our exceesses.

And when at work they offered me a "cookie/chocolate/sweet" and I denie, that do not understand why I want to loose even more (I am still overweighted, not like most of you who are thin now).
The most funny was the last days, a Director told me I should start to "eat" again, feeding ourselves is important". So increadible how times are changing.

Maybe this is the way to keep our weight and stay vigilent, if we still feel a little fat? The future will tell us.

Good day

fitbefore40 · 02-12-2008, 02:40 PM

Hi guys - I'm just checking in with this thread - me, the head case - almost 2 years out - almost one year maintaining - still having body image issues. But it is getting better. I still go into clothing stores and don't feel like I'm one of those small girls that buy the small sizes. I kinda feel like the 2Ps are just a fluke of sizing.

This past weekend was a huge wake up call about how light I really am. I was at a Taekwondo tournament and my last 2 rounds I had to spar girls that outweighed me by over 50 pounds each. I really felt like a light weight. When I was blocked, I actually fell to the ground a couple of times b/c of the sheer weight of the block.

I'm still working through my issues . . . but I know I'm small.

Corrine · 02-12-2008, 05:51 PM

I can't see a thinner person looking back at me in the mirror. I KNOW I've lost a lot of weight but I still see a puffy gal looking back.

I had to buy yet another load of new cloths a few days ago - I just stand in front of the wardrobe and keep looking at these things on their hangers and it's not gelling that those are mine and they fit.

Linds0514 · 02-12-2008, 06:17 PM

ya i was just at the gym and all of a sudden got disgusted by my body in the mirror and left, granted i have lost 63 lbs and am nowhere near small, but when i was at my heaviest i worked out and didnt seem to care one bit how i looked or how others looked at me. Why is this?

paige52 · 02-13-2008, 03:57 PM

I'll catch my reflection in a mirror or window and think wow what a tiny person...nice figure.

But if I'm looking inthe mirror without clothes, specifically to look at myself I find many places that I still look "fat"...go figure I'm a size 2 these days.

I remember being fat and a size 22 and thinking ....hummm this outfit doesnt' look so bad, i"m heavy but I still have a "figure". I was one of those people that gains it every where proportionately...

I think we've had this question before and yes..it happens to many of us.

reseda6916 · 03-04-2008, 12:02 PM

This is something I’m very much struggling with… I think part of the problem is that I just can’t imagine myself as being less that 300lbs. If not for my clothes hanging off me I honestly don’t think I would notice a difference.

fitbefore40 · 03-11-2008, 11:52 AM

Hey guys - if anyone reads this thread still . . . my light at the end of the tunnel has arrived. For the past year, I dealt with not seeing my body for what it was - and frankly - it just took a while for my head to catch up.

I've had the chance to compete in quite a few tkd tournaments lately, and when my division is called - I usually end up being the lightest one (age and height classifications) - and NOW I ACTUALLY SEE IT.

I don't know how it happened - but it was gradual. I still will grab a size 4 pant to try on every now and then - but I'm pretty much a 2 in everything. I can look around in a store and notice that most of the women are bigger than me . . . that's not to sound boastful or anything, it just that I didn't have that perception of myself for months. One other thing that came about - I now see myself as short . . . I KNOW I have always been short . . . but when I was heavier, I felt taller . .. now, I'm just a petite thing.

A few months ago, when someone would say that I was "so small" I'd protest and say something like, not really . .. or I'm not THAT small . .. now, when someone says that - I simply agree and move on with the conversation.

I hope eveyone will be able to reach this point soon.