Hey all you long termers!
I know I don't come here much but I thought I'd celebrate my anniversary with you!
It's hard to believe that FIVE long years have passed since I had my surgery. Has the time flown by this fast for you as well? Wow! It seems more like 3 years really. I don't know where the time went.
When I try and think back to what I 'felt like' as a MO person, I can really only remember certain things. I remember I couldn't paint my own toenails. I could barely bathe because my arms are so short. My feet were always calloused and my DH had to scrub them with a pumice stone and soap to get the roughness off. I couldn't even feel the carpet under my feet unless he scrubbed them. I guess my poor feet took the brunt of my weight. And they were so puffy they looked like marshmellows and you could push your finger down on top of them and the indention would stay for a minute. How sad!
I remember the first thing I noticed about losing weight was that I could see BONES in my feet - heck the miracle of being able to SEE my feet was awesome! And I remember being able to cross my legs for the first time. Now THAT was an experience! I think what I remember most about these five years was how fast I went through clothing! I made it a point not to buy clothes for a long time because as soon as I would buy something, within 2 weeks, it was too big! I started out wearing size 30 or 5X and I don't even remember going through the 24's and 22's stage! And here's something strange: When I finally DID go and buy some clothes I remember crying in the dressing room because I realized I didn't know what 'style' of clothes to buy or what my 'taste' in clothing was! I had been MO for so long and bought 'tents' for clothing that I had no idea what 'style' was or how to dress myself like a female! I'll never forget how sad I was that day and very scared! I guess I should have brought someone with me to help me. Weird huh?
Even though I'm having hip and joint problems now, I DO love being a somewhat normal weight for a woman my age! Or at least that's what my children tell me when I ask them if I'm still 'fat'. Life is so much more alive now, even with the health problems. I'm glad I did this and it's been an amazing journey for me and my family.
Here's something interesting: The other day I hugged this guy at our church for the first time. He's probably about 100 pounds overweight or so. I couldn't help but realize how WONDERFUL it felt to hug someone that felt like a teddy bear and so soft and 'comfortable'! I remember my daughter telling me that I wouldn't be 'comfortable' anymore after I had the surgery and now I know what she meant! There's something to be said about hugging a heavy person. You could just stay in their arms forever! I couldn't help but smile and wonder if I felt that way to my hubby all those years. I'm sure I did but I bet he's willing to trade off the 'comfortable' for how I am now.
As far as my weight, I originally wanted to get to 140 as my goal weight but I'm ok with where I am. I hover between 165 and 170 and have gotten as high as 177 this year. I always get my butt back in gear and get back to the rules and exercise as much as my joints will let me so that I'll get back in my range. I'm going to try WW again with my DH because I was able to get to 155 back in 2003 when I did that before, so we'll see if I can do it again!
Anyway, I just wanted to share some tidbits of my five year journey! I put a 'five year' page on my website with pics if you want to see them. They aren't much but they'll have to do I guess! LOL!
Thanks for taking the time to read......
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Robin
Open RNY 8/30/01
325/165/140 TT 8/03 BR 10/03
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The body achieves what the mind perceives...
My Five Year Anniversary Is Today! WOW!
Van
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