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1967mary · 06-21-2006, 07:02 PM

BUTT!!!

Hi, My name is Mary. I rarely post here, but I do read alot. I live in North Carolina, near the coast. I had WLS in May of 2005 and went from 253 to 157 and pretty much stayed there. My eating habits are out of control. I do not dump on anything. I eat junk. I am having such a hard time controlling myself. I need someone to email me 50 times a day to tell me to put the junk down and go for a walk. I feel like I am living a lie. I look like a person who eats healthy. I have lost weight, I look so much better than I used to. No one knows how much junk I really eat because I hide it as best as I can.
I used to have it so under control, but now I am back to feeling like the food is controlling me! HELP!

lealphachienne · 06-21-2006, 07:20 PM

You've come to the right place. What changes are you going thorough in life to makes you feel like you've lost control? Are you seeing a therapist? I continue to see mine monthly to keep on an even keel. What about local support groups? Any in your area? If not bypass specific, try to find an overeater's anonymous group, or if none exists, even an AA group will help. When you are hiding and lying about your habits, that's a sign of an addiction. Many morbidly obese people have an addictive personality that needs on-going treatment to maintain recovery. Just because you are thin on the outside, you are still MO on the inside. My doctors still write down MO as the reason why I still continue to see them for my lab work and follow ups.

coptergirl · 06-21-2006, 07:48 PM

Yes you are in the right place. Marie hit the nail on the head. Unfortunately, they operated on our tummies, and not our heads. I wish you the best of luck...try to keep busy posting, walking, riding a bike, whatever. Have water when you feel hungry. If the hunger goes away, then it was in your head...if it returns have some protein....but counseling is so very important

JJ Girl · 06-22-2006, 10:17 AM

I noticed starting at about 10-12 months I too started eating things I shouldn't and I think it was just BECAUSE I COULD. I monitored my weight and just did what I wanted for a couple of months. Now, I find I don't want that stuff anymore (maybe only a taste). I think I felt deprived from the previous months and so excited when I could finally eat it that I just exercised my lack of self control for a couple months. You know how it is when something you love is forbidden..... Well, I found I didn't love it so much after all.

Hang in there, if you are staying at the same weight, maybe give yourself a little break and maybe it will run it's course.

1967mary · 06-22-2006, 10:47 AM

I am fasting today, except for a protien drink, hoping to get my head back under control. I feel so stupid because I went through so much to have this surgery, and I feel like I am blowing it by treating my body like cr*p. I just need to get ahold of myself!!
It dosen't help that my DH works long hours out of town and I just don't see him much. I really miss him!
Since I am staying out of the kitchen, I have more time for other things, like vacuuming!

D's Hope · 06-22-2006, 11:30 AM

I honestly dont think that fasting is the answer, in fact I believe it might be more of a hinderance. Think of how you felt when you tried diets where you deprived yourself, what did you do later on? I would catch up on everything I deprieved myself of. One protein drink is not enough no matter how you look at it. To wrap your head back around this, you need to do it correctly; get the appropriate amount of protein if that is what you are going to do, but dont "fast".

just my thoughts.

Hope

Americanwoman397 · 06-22-2006, 11:33 AM

When this started happening to me I kicked up the workout at the gym and the running. For some reason in my head when I workout that junk food just does not look or smell as good. I tell myself is that couple of chips worth another 45 min of running.

1967mary · 06-23-2006, 06:40 AM

Well I did fast yesterday, except for two protien drinks, vitamins and such. It helped me to lose the 4-5 pounds of water weight that I knew I was carrying around. Fasting helps me to get refocused on my eating habits, it gives me a clean slate, so to speak, to start fresh.
Now I am eating high protien Special K and milk. Hopefully I can stay away from the junk and stay focused on my goal.

Thanks for the kind words. It is good to know I am not alone.

Americanwoman397 · 06-23-2006, 08:45 AM

Keep up the good work. I promise you are never alone in this. I am just about to hit the 2 year mark and I struggle everyday with the junk food. I am becoming crazy over that dang scale again because I want to lose another 15 lbs to hit my ideal weight. Maybe we can keep each other on track.

Julez · 06-23-2006, 09:33 AM

Thank you for starting this post.Im almost 2 yrs out & Im feeling the same..out of control with the eating habits.Im so down on myself & having a very hard time.Ive gained about 10lbs and freaking about about it.Ive stepped up & started the workouts again & try to gain control of my head again.Its such a mental thing and I need to control my head.Like others said just cause "I can" eat that crap doesnt mean I should.If I go down that road again then what was having this surgery for if Im not going to follow the "rules"......