molly91

Hello Everyone,

I have been lurking for about seven months. This is my first post.

I was supposed to have RNY today, I got to the hospital check in finish my paperwork, and went to go to the waiting room, and was stopped by my surgeon. She had an emergency surgery and I lost my time slot.

I was devastated. I had been an emotion wreck on and off for the last twenty four hours, with normal pre surgical anxiety. I really want this surgery and have been researching/going through the program for more than a year. I was so ready but not ready for that. I have now been rescheduled for November 9th.

I cannot imagine going through all that pre surgical anxiety all over again. I am hoping I will not be as bad the next time around.

I am having this surgery to reclaim my life. I have become a prisoner in my own body and I want out. I have two beautiful baby boys 2.5 and 9 months, I cannot be the Mom I so desire to be. I have been married for 7 years, I long to have an active long life with my husband who I love dearly. I long to be the woman I know in my heart that I am. Over the last three years I have been suffering from chronic pain in my knees and back. I have been on and off pain meds and muscle relaxers for most of the last three year, minus pregnancies.

I dream of waking up and being able to live my life unencumbered by pain, and enjoying life and my family to the fullest. I do not want to leave my family prematurely and I believe this surgery will help me achieve my goal.

I currently weight 272, down from 292, and I desire to be 135. I am only 5'1 and this little frame cannot support this weight a day longer and I just pray I have not done any permanent damage.

So I will preserve and try again and Monday and trust that it happened this way for a reason. Thank you for letting me share! Best of luck to you all.

mistymee

Hi Molly.. 1st.. welcome to TT...

I'm so sorry you've gone through this, I can only imagine how upsetting it must be to go through this

Is there a possibility that your doctor could give you something for the anxiety to get you through the next few days?

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Hychap2009

I'm really sorry to hear what happened and can completely relate to the feelings you've experience. I had a similar thing happen to me last month. I'm still waiting for surgery to be rescheduled.

Just a suggestion, why not join the November 2009 staplers started by Apelover46, you can meet with others going through their surgery experiences in the same month.

Good luck.

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Height 5ft 2"
2004 Highest weight: 22 stones/308 lb
[COLOR="Purple"]2009 Current weight: 19 stones/266 lb/121k[/COLOR
BMI: 53.2
BMI Member No. 7

Weight Loss Surgery: Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy

Added to waiting list: 23 January 2009
Pre-Assessment date: 3rd July 2009 (accomplished)
Assessment call back: 10 July 2009
Transvaginal Ultrasound: 7th August 2009
Surgery date: 30th November 2009
GYM RAT ♯145
The race is not for the swift but for he who can endure to the end.

molly91

I did not think about that, I should ask her, I will give her a call tomorrow, thanks for the suggestion. I feel much better now that some time has passed, I just have to trust that there is a reason that it happened like this!

molly91

Yeah I have checked out the November 09 thread, and will definately connect with them, thanks!

Lynette

You know, the same thing happened to me except the surgeon called me right before I left the house. Yeah, I cried and was upset and thought it might be some divine sign to not go through with it but then I realized stuff happens and obviously someone needed the surgeon's attention more than I did. I had my surgery 9 days later and the second time around I was a lot less stressed actually I dunno, maybe it was because I had already burned through all the stress the first time around?

Don't worry, it'll happen!

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Highest ever: 345 11/15/2007
Weight at Kaiser WLS orientation: 329 2/26/09
Met pre-op surgeon's goal: 299 5/20/09
Lap RNY: 292.5 6/24/09
Century Club: 245 09/09/09

molly91

Thanks Lynette,

I really need to hear that! Yeah I have been having the same thoughts "is god trying to tell me something" and your right the person definately needed her more than I did. If I was the one that needed the surgeon I would have wanted the same thing to happen. I hope your right that I will feel more calm the second time around. Thank you for your reply it was just what I needed. Take care

pricklypear

im so sorry... but i do take it as a sign that your surgeon will be there for you during an emergency if she is able.


take care. hugs.... i had so much anxiety up to the minute of my surg, that i would have been a basketcase!

Okie Sunshine

Molly,

I am so sorry to hear about your delayed surgery. I cannot even imagine how frustrating and disappointing that would be. I know that I will be a nervous reck in the hours leading up to the big day and the let down would be terrible.

Hang tough and keep moving forward. You are only a week away from the beginning of the rest of your life.

Breanna

krbunch

One more week seems like a long time. Just think though... at least they rescheduled you immediately. I hope it all works hun. You'll do just fine!

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