Hello,
I am new to the forums....I've been lurking for a couple of weeks.
I am 41 and married to an awesome man. We live in Northern Virginia; the suburbs of Washington, DC. My 13 year-old nephew lives with us. I try to be superMOM to him as he had a hard life before he came to live with us. I work full-time as a corporate recruiter and really enjoy my job, but I typically work 50-60 hours per week.
I'm absolutely disgusted with the shape my body is in. Most of the time I feel so fat and ugly that it really inhibits me. In some ways I think it is Karma that I am so overweight now. When I was thin, I was so critical of overweight people, almost to the point of being rude. I guess what goes around comes around. Being heavy definitely made me a nicer person, I think I feel like i have to overcompensate to make up for how I look now.
I'm embarrassed that I have to turn to surgery to get it under control, but thankful that this exists otherwise, I don't think I could ever loose it on my own. It took me two years to get through the insurance approval nightmare and I am so very ready.
My surgery is just around the corner, on 5/29. I had my pre-op yesterday and I have
put on weight since my last visit, so I'm having to do liquids (no more than 800 calories a DAY) for the next 12 days. I am so upset that this has happened. I used to drink 4-5 regular sodas a day. I substituted that for iced coffee thinking I was making a healthier choice and just found out that the coffees I was drinking have roughly 360 calories each. UGGH. my doctor was not pleased.... Anyhow, I bought an appetite suppressant from GNC today called Control ACC, but it isn't really helping. If anyone has any tips to make me less hungry until surgery, I would appreciate it. I have a headache right now because I am so hungry.
Anyhow, on to the good stuff....I am so excited to get rid of this extra weight I have been lugging around. I cannot wait until I can do the things I used to do. I am setting a "treat" goal of joining a tennis club when I am halfway to my goal and going back to dance class when I reach my goal. Geez, I used love dance class and now, can't remember why I ever stopped.
My biggest worry about the surgery is the excess skin accumulation and the expected hair loss.
I wanted to make sure that I was forced to exercise, so I am getting a puppy. He is arriving
tomorrow from the breeder. We had been wanting one for awhile now and kept putting it off for one reason or another. We finally started working with a breeder and it is just a coincidence that the new "baby" will be here 11 days before surgery. We are getting a black goldendoodle, he turns 8 weeks old tomorrow and he is just so precious. We all love him so much already.
Also, I have booked a Caribbean cruise for our family for the last week of September. I am hoping that will give me a good, happy thing to focus on for those days that aren't so good after surgery.
I am so bad, I have already been buying a new wardrobe in smaller sizes.
I am worried that if I wait until I get there, all the cute summer clothes will be gone. Also, I am hoping they will also serve as inspiration.
If the avatar picture looks familiar, it is because my husband had gastric bypass a little over a year ago. He posts here frequently (dannyboi) and I am so fortunate to have his support as I venture on to my new me. He is doing great since the surgery. And I believe that it was a miracle for him since it cleared up alot of the serious medical issues he was having.
What an introduction! Anyhow, I do appreciate all of the advice given on this board from people that have been where I am now. It really helps.
New to the forum...12 days until surgery
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